Inside is literally a time capsule for the horrors and stresses of the pandemic but also for the modern anxieties and mental health issues that haunt so many

@chrisfilms8674

2 жыл бұрын

Wait...I'm haunted??

@Charlie_77737

2 жыл бұрын

you put really took the words out my mouth, Inside is perfect

@xannderexx

2 жыл бұрын

So true

@darkmatter9651

2 жыл бұрын

and an amazing bunch of musical content with leitmotifs and all, even. Which made love this even more

@skywatcher2025

2 жыл бұрын

Couldn't have said it better myself

“Am I right back where I started 14 years ago” oh my god makes me so sad

@mrdankify2780

3 жыл бұрын

the fisrt time i heard it, it made me think lol

@lunadoodles8810

3 жыл бұрын

truly,, especially here it hits different.

@thelemon1999

3 жыл бұрын

Even the idea of looking back 14 years ago for me, knowing trauma I had gone through. Sometimes it feels like I'm still there...that's why this hits so hard for me.

@angelopouIos

2 жыл бұрын

yeah, during my first watch of the special, out of all the lines, that one hit me hardest. I can't handle even the thought of devolving into who I was so many years ago. that hurts, man ;n;

@crowfoot8059

2 жыл бұрын

guess I’m back in the womb, as a clump of cells…

the distorted voice at the end felt like what internal thoughts sound like

@bitchrespecter420

3 жыл бұрын

MY MANN

@myahbuchholz7180

2 жыл бұрын

fr tho

@aarms4739

2 жыл бұрын

Your pfp-

@argotheinformant

2 жыл бұрын

You don't just hear your own voice?

@rileytheman7431

2 жыл бұрын

@@argotheinformant nah i hear. a deep voice like that or characters

This can definitely claim the title “slowed to perfection”

@mrdankify2780

2 жыл бұрын

thank you

People miss this, but in "Comedy" he tells US to call him and he'll tell us a joke, but in "Goodbye" you can tell he wants something back from us if he is in trouble by asking US to call him and tell him a joke. BTW in the Green Room special with Bo and all the other comedians, Ray Romano talks about how he worries that one day that the audience will just turn on him and that his own head tells him that he really isn't that funny. It's isn't just Bo... "If i wake up in a house that’s full of smoke I’ll panic, so call me up and tell me a joke When i’m fully irrelevant and totally broken Damn it, call me up and tell me a joke "

@Valvexzu

2 жыл бұрын

Right when you said the last part it came up on my video-

@DacStudiosEntertainment

2 жыл бұрын

*ive already prepared my dark joke cards*

@0wl0fth3nil3

2 жыл бұрын

im 4 months late but literally no one missed this

2:57 for anyone who's looking for the medley portion. This is on repeat in my head while I'm descending mentally.

You did a great job! Didnt slow it too much, perfectly slowed actually. Doesnt make headphones go brrrr and sounds nice and crispy. Love it

@mrdankify2780

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks bro ❤️

@lime9836

3 жыл бұрын

No worries you deserve it

@janumski_6399

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah dude. It doesn’t sound like his voice was deep and slow like how other slowed songs on KZread are!

@lime9836

3 жыл бұрын

@@janumski_6399 frr

@laurenn_2674

2 жыл бұрын

3:50 is my favourite part! :)

No one: Doctor: You have 4:35 to live chose wisely what you do. Me: (puts my headphones in and puts this song on)

@yepperoniii6504

2 жыл бұрын

perfect ending song. little too perfect… :(

@bffswish

2 жыл бұрын

@@yepperoniii6504 sobs

@yepperoniii6504

2 жыл бұрын

@@bffswish i’m sorry

@collineagen7524

2 жыл бұрын

I mean you could play the reguar version and then any day now. Be a bit more meta I guess

That “Byeeeeee!” gets me every time because I used to say that exact same thing in the same way at the old outro of my (now privated) KZread videos

@chrisfilms8674

2 жыл бұрын

Shay van buren?

@blackgrohlsun

2 жыл бұрын

@@chrisfilms8674 YES

@alexc9985

2 жыл бұрын

I feel like we've all said stuff like that in a jokey way when we're actually really hurting inside

I finished Inside yesterday. I've watched all of Bo's performances when he was younger on KZread, and the difference between happy and confident Bo and this manic, depressed Bo is insane to witness. It's such a contrast. Honestly, Bo is one of my favourite comedians and seeing him talk about the panic attacks he had onstage and his struggle with his mental health almost broke me. I hope that he can take some time off again to recuperate or maybe even retire for as long as he wants. Bo doesn't owe us anything and I hope he gets better soon.

lyrics: So long, goodbye I’ll see you when i see you, You can pick the street i’ll meet you On the other side. So long, goodbye Do i really have to finish Do returns always diminish Did i say that right? Does anybody want to joke when no one’s Laughing in the background So this is how it ends I promis to never go outside again So long, bye!! I’m slowly loosing power Has it only been an hour No that can’t be right So long, goodbye Hey here’s a fun idea How ‘bout i sit on the couch And i watch you next time I wanna hear you tell a joke when no ones Laughing in the background So this is how it ends i promise to never go outside again Am i going crazy would i even know Am i right back where i started 14 years ago Wanna guess the ending if it ever does I swear to god that all i’ve ever wanted was A little bit of everything all of the time A bit of everything all of the time Apathy’s a tragedy and boredom is a crime I’m finished playing and i’m starting inside If i wake up in a house that’s full of smoke I’ll panic, so call me up and tell me a joke When i’m fully irrelevant and totally broken Damn it, call me up and tell me a joke Oh shit You’re really joking at a time like this? Well well, look who’s inside again Went out to look for a reason to hide again Well well buddy you found it Now come out with your hands up We’ve got you surrounded

@Plagolago64

2 жыл бұрын

Bold of you to assume I don’t already know the lyrics

@max_daniels9557

2 жыл бұрын

We meet again 👀

@Spork111

2 жыл бұрын

Tysm.

@Spork111

2 жыл бұрын

2:42

@darlingofnight1

Жыл бұрын

Thank you❤😊

3:52 this is really well made! You did a great job, it's not slowed too much, and it doesn't make my headphones crackle!

@mrdankify2780

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you dude! ❤️

@wasuretayaku4348

3 жыл бұрын

@@mrdankify2780 yeah, ofc!

@Joe.0511

Жыл бұрын

I hate it when audio makes that vile crackle

@wasuretayaku4348

Жыл бұрын

@@Joe.0511 it literally *ruins* my mood

@babymailing7782

Жыл бұрын

@@Joe.0511bro same

"I promise to never go outside again" hits really hard for me. I graduated college months after the pandemic began. I had one of the best weekends of my life over spring break and then not even a week later, my life as I knew it was over. I still don't know if I've found my life yet. I know things like this are determined by chaos and entropy no human could ever hope to harness or even understand. I got a job, an apartment with my partner, and a new car, but I still feel this hollowness inside. I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. I don't know if it was something I did in the past that could've made it easier or harder on myself. If there was such a thing, I would do it. If it fixes things, I promise to never go outside again. I'm doing okay, but some days are harder than others. Remember this: Living and self-care are acts of rebellion. Self-preservation is an act of war against those who want us to fall.

This song reminds me of what it's like to slowly fall back into your depressive state and you know it very well, you just don't know how to stop it

@omorier

Жыл бұрын

same, except it gets worse than it was last time and you're just like "what? it can get fucking worse?"

I've been listening to and watching Bo since 2010 and I've always known he was a genius but this special... wow. Just wow.

@dman6533

3 жыл бұрын

Theres really no way to put it into words….

This song is like putting disinfectant on a cut. It stings like hell, but it also makes you feel sure everything will get better.

@ar1a.luvs.nirv4na.

Жыл бұрын

Fr

@AresOrBird

Жыл бұрын

I have no memory of ever watching this video or making this comment but frfr

@winterberry3412

5 ай бұрын

​@@AresOrBird wow

TW: Depression (?) I’m not severely depressed like a lot of the people in the comments and like Bo portrays in the song, but I’m becoming more and more anxious that I’m eventually going to break and never be able to recover. I have a lot of unresolved issues/trauma and I’m so scared that someday I won’t be able to internalize it anymore. I feel like I’m trapped inside my mind and this song really helps me come to terms with that.

@maristh8172

2 жыл бұрын

hey, how are you doing now? just wondering. if you need someone to vent to, i'm here for you.

I like this song because it fully describes a person's feelings in Quarintine. There is also deep meaning in the words, for example, the words "Now come out with your hands up we got you surrounded" realate to Make Happy when the audience almost got arrested for smoking Weed.

@miasergio9420

2 жыл бұрын

pot is RUINING america 😤😤

Lyrics because I need them for my scenario: So long, goodbye I'll see you when I see you You can pick the street I'll meet you on the other side So long, goodbye Do I really have to finish? Do returns always diminish? Did I say that right? Does anybody want to joke When no one's laughing in the background? So this is how it ends I promise to never go outside again So long, bye I'm slowly losing power Has it only been an hour? No, that can't be right So long, goodbye Hey, here's a fun idea How 'bout I sit on the couch And I watch you next time I wanna hear you tell a joke When no one's laughing in the background So this is how it ends I promise to never go outside again Am I going crazy? Would I even know? Am I right back where I started fourteen years ago? Wanna guess the ending, if it ever does I swear to God that all I've ever wanted was A little bit of everything all of the time A bit of everything all of the time Apathy's a tragedy and boredom is a crime I'm finished playing and I'm staying inside If I wake up in a house that's full of smoke I'll panic, so call me up and tell me a joke When I'm fully irrelevant and totally broken Dammit, call me up and tell me a joke Oh shit, you're really joking at a time like this? Well, well, look who's inside again Went out to look for a reason to hide again Well, well, buddy you found it Now come out with your hands up, we've got you surrounded

@mrdankify2780

3 жыл бұрын

ty

@kiwi-dy4ok

3 жыл бұрын

@@mrdankify2780 Of course!

crying my eyes out to this song because I just spent the best four weeks of my life with my sisters who live far away from my parents and my depression room and my stress. Im going back today. I couldn't escape my reality.

"Well, Well look who's inside again, went out to look for a reason to hide again." Jesus... that one hit me harder than it should've had.

This song is when you realize your childhood was traumatic but you never realized because we thought it was normal

@abigailbarber9806

Жыл бұрын

Mixed with maladaptive daydreaming and yeah

The “so this is how it ends” part gives me life. Also, amazing edit. 👍

@yourlocalplaguedoctor7023

2 жыл бұрын

Yessss I love that part too!

this song was made to be slowed down. cried some tears I'd been holding. needed that. that cello swell

2:56

@four5065

3 жыл бұрын

THANK YOU

@idontknow2588

3 жыл бұрын

This is actually my favourite pet of the song until the end! It’s so GOOD!!

3:27 "I'm finished playing and I'm staying inside.." Im not joking in any way, but this is relatable.. Id do anything outside of my house, even outside of my bedroom, and afterwards, id go into my room, lie down in the dark with the door closed and know that after whatever I did, I was finished and staying inside. I relate to this song a lot, "am I right back where I started 14 years ago", "am I going crazy", "im finished playing and im staying inside", "you're really joking at a time like this", "well, well, look whos inside again" As for the first quote I said, im not even 14 years old yet. I'm only 12. But I first felt like this when I was, oh, somewhere around 8. I had looked in the mirror and realised that nothing was even there (metaphorically). So... Am I back where i started 4 years ago?

@medicidiagnostics7988

2 жыл бұрын

You’re 12? You’re inteligent asf, you expressed yourself very well

@p1nkPallas

2 жыл бұрын

@@medicidiagnostics7988 heh, thanks..-

I have had this on repeat, nonstop. I'm addicted to this.

@thebestdinosaurous

6 ай бұрын

Better than crack 👍🏻

@pan-duh

6 ай бұрын

Lmao for real😂

Bro the ending is so lit when it's deeper 😂🥺

I hate that most people only know him from TikTok or because of Inside, and that people are calling it a "movie". I know I sound gatekeepy but I've been with this man throughout his career and he is worth so much to me. He made me the aspiring comedian I am, and saved me from a awful place. I just want him to have the respect he deserves.

@yuuugo1728

3 жыл бұрын

I relate when it comes to other songs or shows. I don’t want to feel like i’m gate keeping, I just want them to give the creators the respect they need instead of being found on an app, considered as a “trend.”

@people6117

3 жыл бұрын

@@yuuugo1728 Exactly!

@yomama5368

3 жыл бұрын

I think it's more than fair to call it a movie; it was primarily made to be shown on a screen.

@people6117

3 жыл бұрын

@@yomama5368 That.. that doesn't mean anything? And no, it's a special.

@mrdankify2780

3 жыл бұрын

I totally agree, I’ve been a fan of his comedy and music for around 3 years and the fact that people are calling inside a movie is disappointing. He spent years building up the courage to do something a and then makes inside which brung him back into the spotlight.

2:58 My favorite part

“How about I sit on the couch and I watch you next time” Reminds me of my morning spent watching Inside with my dog sleeping next to me on the couch. That was Christmas morning 2021 and a few hours later would be her final day on this earth before she had a sudden heart attack and crossed the rainbow bridge that afternoon.

@ar1a.luvs.nirv4na.

Жыл бұрын

I’m sorry💔

"Am I going crazy? Would I even know?" That part sounds like a whole different song

@jadepersonally

2 жыл бұрын

it is lmao

@valeriezleepy

2 жыл бұрын

@@jadepersonally It isn't- LOL

Bo needs to write a musical

@jadepersonally

2 жыл бұрын

deadass

*this. this right here makes me feel a type of way that I hate but love at the same time*

i love how everyone is trauma dumping here with no tw's. thank you for the free breakdown /s /neg

@mrdankify2780

3 жыл бұрын

Fr

@peachescream7426

2 жыл бұрын

Honestly, this was one of my favorite songs from the whole special so when I saw this I was like, Oh cool, and so I checked the comments and the stuff I seen with no TW :( didn’t like that too much

@mollyonette

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah that’s the Internet for you… Unfortunately some people don’t understand the use of a trigger warning or realize they need one, or they forget because they feel vulnerable. I hope you feel better one day though, recovery is never linear.!

@fishie5495

2 жыл бұрын

@Mia Pedriana way to ruin the mood. you do realize there is something called being polite? you can at least add a warning to text. while yes, nobody else is responsible for a random persons feelings it is courtesy to add a warning if you're trama dumping... /nm

@kahlistra5408

2 жыл бұрын

@Mia Pedriana at this point your just being immature. Some people have genuine bad trauma and if they see one of these comments it can set them off. Although its pretty clear that you are not one of those people since you're just being ignorant. The people here have made very good arguments and I suggest you listen the them. I understand being wrong isn't fun but saying "kay why esss" It just being a dick. You never know if someone will actually listen it that. So kindly get off you phone, touch some grass, and stop shitting on people because they care about mental health. Good day sir/ma'am/other. :)

Love the thumbnail of the video, he’s really dedicated to making music he’ll sleep next to his equipment and get right to work the second he gets up lol

‘so this is how it ends’ i got literal chills. bo is amazing

im not even kidding when i say this is now my favourite slowed audio now - you did a great job. also on an unrelated note, the emotion he conveys when saying 'apathys a tragedy and boredom is a crime' is really heartbreaking, just me?

this gives me a hero looking back on their life before their big battle with the villain (MAJOR endgame Tony Stark Vibes)

2:58 the part from ' am i going craazy' is sooo good!!

istg this man did the impossible, addingthis one to my mentalbreakdown playlist XD

The part that starts at @2:58 really hits hard for me, I'm barely getting by at school and I'm getting bullied once again, it just feels like the pressure and burden on my shoulders is getting too heavy

This is reminding me how I broke my ankle so I stopped going outside to play with my neighbors and now I only talk to them on New Years and July 4th

I'm living of a world of "first time unheard of crises" and I'm sick of it and just want to stay inside, this really nails down my mental process

literally rewatched Inside today and felt all of that anxiety over again

the "soo long" line gave me goosebumps

"am i going crazy? would i even know?" damn

I'm devastated of the fact how much this song hurts like hell. Despite it all, I'm obsessed. And I feel bad everyday.

thank you so much for this version omg. had a really good cry to this.

@mrdankify2780

3 жыл бұрын

thank you!

@Figgypudding27

3 жыл бұрын

I remember I cried to this song for 3 hours straight it felt good though

this is so good ,,, the last bit gives off weird nostalgia :,)

I love this ways words can just barely explain. The regular version sounds like a conclusion to a performance, but to me this sounds like the conclusion to a life. Be it a deathbed or suicide note. A finale farewell to everyone. It’s magnificent

Oh, yeah, comfort movie, comfort scene, comfort song.

im very guitly, I have been struggiling with self harm since I was around 11, i used to sneak penicls under my hoodie and scratch my arms till they dully bled in class, and it got so much worse, but at least I could control it right? god I wish. around 6 months ago I got diagnosed with PTSD for reasons I don't wanna say, and I did it once, and I couldnt stop, ever. i did it everyday, multiple times a day, it felt so good, I couldn't stop, it was their for me, and it was the only thing that would ever calm me down, I craved it in public, and I needed it, it hurt but it was amazing, I know somebody loved me even fit was just dirty broken lightbulbs, I never thought I would actually get bad, when I was 11... i knew it was wrong, but I thought "at least I'm not covered." I got covered, damn is 11 yr old me happy now? I quit a while back, and I got help really good help, and all the scars are healed but tey are deffiently still their, and it hurts me everyday that I'm covered and I have to look at my gross ugly body, I cant belive I was so stupid, but my mom would never stop yelling at me, and hitting at me, and my dad wouldn't stop threating me, and I started failing school ( very badly) i was a terrible daughter, and I attempted suicde and no one fucking cared. literally at all. none of my friends called me, my mom said it was for attention at hit me again now that I'm 15, and got started at and told by a life guard to cover up ( my healed ) scars. i was deveatsed, I hate myself, and this song helps me so much, dear god I wish it was easy to recover. thank you for the lovely music

@mrdankify2780

3 жыл бұрын

Your welcome for the musical, but I hope you get much better

@KaneK1234

3 жыл бұрын

@cristal star They probably won’t. The world is too awful for people like this to survive. Sad truth.

@Nobody-qy3vd

3 жыл бұрын

@@KaneK1234 shut the fuck up on this one. they can DO IT

@oosberry158

3 жыл бұрын

@@KaneK1234 at least u could have worded that better. Nvm that wouldn’t help either

@elise4020

3 жыл бұрын

holy fuck, I'm 15 and I believe you are a very strong person to have lived through all that. best of luck in the future

2:59 definitely my favourite bit in this song

@user-sk4jo9mu2t

2 жыл бұрын

SAMEEE🤝

@goofybonkersflabbergasted

2 жыл бұрын

same

the black screen. UNCALLED FOR

@mrdankify2780

3 жыл бұрын

sorry i forgot that i didnt keep the picture up for so long, im still getting used to adobe softwares

This feels good

2:40 onwards is my favorite part. Probably of the entire special.

Man, this hits the feels so hard for reasons

i dont think im ever gonna get to a point where ill be able to listen to this song and not have my heart shattered into a billion pieces.

3:56 you did a really good job on the last part! it gave me so many goosebumps!

if you see me listening to this you know things are bad

The saddest part in this: 1:45 😢😢

@twt-9813

3 жыл бұрын

i know so sad 😥😥

@idontknow2588

3 жыл бұрын

@@twt-9813 I might cry

@oosberry158

3 жыл бұрын

@@idontknow2588 might? I’ve been sobbing for 69 hrs just bc of that “bæyïïee” 😓😥😭😭😭

@idontknow2588

3 жыл бұрын

@@oosberry158 let’s cry together 😭😭😭😭😭

@oosberry158

3 жыл бұрын

@@idontknow2588 LETS DO IT *sobs valently*

“Baiiii” it always makes me happy

So long, goodbye I'll see you when I see you You can pick the street I'll meet you on the other side So long, goodbye Do I really have to finish? Do returns always diminish? Did I say that right? Does anybody want to joke When no one's laughing in the background? So this is how it ends I promise to never go outside again So long, bye! I'm slowly losing power Has it only been an hour? No, that can't be right So long, goodbye Hey, here's a fun idea How 'bout I sit on the couch And I watch you next time? I wanna hear you tell a joke When no onе's laughing in the background So this is how it ends I promise to nеver go outside again Am I going crazy? Would I even know? Am I right back where I started fourteen years ago? Wanna guess the ending? If it ever does I swear to God that all I've ever wanted was A little bit of everything all of the time A bit of everything all of the time Apathy's a tragedy, and boredom is a crime I'm finished playing, and I'm staying inside If I wake up in a house that's full of smoke I'll panic, so call me up and tell me a joke When I'm fully irrelevant and totally broken, damn it Call me up and tell me a joke Oh, shit You're really joking at a time like this? Well, well, look who's inside again Went out to look for a reason to hide again Well, well, buddy, you found it Now come out with your hands up We've got you surrounded

"a little bit of everything" get's me so hard dudeeeee

the loop feature is a revolutionary thing for this

I personally love inside due to what it acts as now. And honestly i cant relate any better than i do as of right now. Its been three years. I’m still struggling mentally because of the pandemic, i never learned how to actually function as a normal human because of it. I’m 16 now. I dont know how to drive, I struggle to cook, i cant interact with other people normally. It hurts that I struggle. Im 16 years and 2 months old, it’s currently 4:28 AM (EST) and the date is 9/2/23. I like to draw and play games with others, goofing off is what i do. I like to make stories with other people as well. I’m doing my best to learn the ways of the world. But the pandemic didn’t help. And now I’m just, i dont know. At a standstill

a genuine masterpiece

this hits different when you’re saying goodbye to your comfort characters after a year because you have to shift back

@CookieUnicorn34

2 жыл бұрын

I remember my haikyuu phase while the pandemic started they were the only ones who kept me sane the characters saved me its crazy ik liking fictional people is some kind of crazy BUT…

the cello sounds SO good

THE USE OF LEITMOTIFS IN INSIDE- I JUST-

"Has it only been a hour, no that can't be right" my mind with anything

2:57 really tackles my feelings for the rest of the song

this finally forced the tears out, thank you /gen i’ve been needing a good cry for quite a while

“I swear to god that all I ever wanted was a little bit of everything, all of the time.” Wow.

Ain’t nothing beat sparking up to this song - hope I get to see you in person one day Bo 🙏🙏

I’m listening to this song watching my best friend pull out of her driveway, she’s moving away and I’ll never see her again

For some reason this is the first day I feel true happiness and this is the song I'm celebrating with

2:58 KINDA OBSESSED W THIS PART😮‍💨

2:58 14 years ago meme 3:14 Iconic "little bit of everything" meme 3:45 You're really joking at a time like this meme

This hits different when your leaving skl

@mrdankify2780

2 жыл бұрын

enya its Ben, from the school u went to, you know me? laylas boy friend

@enyabiju4513

2 жыл бұрын

@@mrdankify2780 yuh she told us to sub on a gc

@enyabiju4513

2 жыл бұрын

Btw great job in editing

JUST AMAZING-❤️

2:30 and after is the best part

if you’re commenting your trauma in the comments please add trigger warnings. I don’t fancy reliving something I wished to keep in the back of my mind ty

@peptheforeversuperiorbeing3000

2 жыл бұрын

YES THIS OH MY FUCKING GOD

@clay4585

2 жыл бұрын

@@peptheforeversuperiorbeing3000 yeah like I get they’re tryna vent but cmon, trigger warnings exist for a reason

@peptheforeversuperiorbeing3000

2 жыл бұрын

@@clay4585 frfr

@peptheforeversuperiorbeing3000

2 жыл бұрын

@@bear4433 um what do you mean lol, are you just going to like- trigger people intentionally?

@bear4433

2 жыл бұрын

@@peptheforeversuperiorbeing3000 not really. Idk what I was doing when I said that so imma delete it 😃

ugh i love this

2:58 I just need this to cry okay.

how does this sound even more like him

i needed this

Thank you for this ❤️ 😭

hit a little harder than i thought it would

2:58 perfect 🙏

this hits deep in my heart, damn man

4:07 FAWKING JUMP SCARED ME LMAO

"Well well look inside again." Haha yep. I'm staying inside so I won't have to use my energy. Eating is a hassle if I can just sleep. The only way I get to eat or do anything is going to school. It's the only way I keep on track. Even with school I can't even keep up with hygiene. I've noticed that I've kept yawning. Even when I get a good amount of sleep I keep on yawning. I'm tired everyday after I get home. I would much rather lay in bed for days on end and not drink or eat. It's better to sleep all day. I really don't want it to end but I feel like I might try in the future. I think a about my death more then normal. I wish I was happy like I was 6 years ago. It's really sad that at such a young age I had gotten forgotten by the people that took care of me. Other parents took care of me a lot. My parents are trying to reconnect with me. Saying "were starting over again." Or something along the lines of that. They're starting over but I'm not. I can't start over. I'm like this because I never got help when I needed it from them. They might say that there on step one. They are but I'm not. I'm stuck in the clouds with no way out other then climbing or falling to my death. I can't even believe that a little 10 year old would want to kill themselves. They had to hang on to a thread. Not even the people who tried to help did anything. It's now 2 years later and that 10 year old still feels depressed. Doesn't even know if there depressed or they're just sad all the time. I feel weird. I laugh all the time at school and with my friends. They make me happy. But still.. I can't feel anything without them. It's an overwhelming numbness that had became normal. It's really nice that you took the time to read this. I just had to vent. Why can't my emotions be like others?

@veryfruityolive

2 жыл бұрын

Hey internet stranger. Your comment made me cry. You don’t have to read this if you don’t want to, but I think I should share. When I was 12, I had severe depression and attempted a couple times. I was everything you described in your comment, completely miserable, needed help but wasn’t getting it, and when it was available it was too little, too late. I’m so sorry you’re suffering the way you are. I’m 18 now, almost 19. I’m in college, somewhere I always dreaded being. The funny part is, I’m still not happy. I wish I had a super perfect happy ending with a bow on top for you to say “oh it gets better!” but I don’t. It does get better. But it also gets a lot worse. Depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain. It doesn’t go away altogether unfortunately. But you will have days, weeks, even months, where you feel something. I’m really proud of you. Enourmously proud. I’ve been struggling myself lately with recovering from past trauma and things of that nature. Found this video, bawled my eyes out standing in front of a mirror because just like you said in your comment: my parents are ready to start anew, to make things better, to fix the things they did and said in the past, but I’m not ready. I don’t think I’ll ever be ready. I can’t forgive them for what they did. I’m looking for options on how to move out. There are still so, SO many days where I lay in my bed and just want to rot there. I don’t want to eat, I don’t want to get up, I don’t want to do anything. I just want to lay in my bed, fall asleep, and rot there. I understand, I really do. We might not have the exact same experiences but we sure as hell feel similar. This seems like a really depressing reply but I can tell you this: over the last 6 years I’ve become myself. I still have depression and a couple other super fun mental disorders (/s), but I’m me. As a kid you’re still finding yourself and it’s upsetting and you just want to be happy. You’re a kid. You deserve happiness. I’m so sorry that you, me, and thousands of others were robbed of that. It’s not your fault. You will meet new people in the future, like you, who have gone to hell and back. And you’ll be able to relate to them and you’ll care for each other because that’s what friends like that do for each other. I’m really sorry this reply is so long. Your comment just really resonated with me and reminded me of when I was your age. Hang in there kiddo. You’re so fucking loved. I’m so proud of you. Keep fighting even if you don’t think it’s worth it. It is. Remember to drink some water, and force yourself to shower and brush your teeth at least once a week. Shoot for more than that if you can. You’ve got this

@c_chc4475

2 жыл бұрын

@@veryfruityolive thank you for this. I'll try to do anything I can. I've already made some friends like this. It helps me in some way to make me realize I'm not alone. I wanted to tell you that your an amazing person. Thank you for this.

holy sheet. that was literally perfect

thank you.

masterpiece.

The "i'm slowly losing Power" line at 1:47 hits astoundingly hard in this version

Finally no anime covers

@ar1a.luvs.nirv4na.

Жыл бұрын

True

i have chills