My guys!!!!!!!!

@BLUE_OCTOBER-TRIX

8 ай бұрын

I can’t wait to see them December 3 at the rave in Milwaukee. It will be my 10th time seeing them. It will be my eighth time meeting Justin. It will be my fifth time being at the concert venue. I cannot wait. Every show is amazing. And I would not be here without Justin’s inspiration. He is the inspiration of my six year sobriety. Every time I meet him, he congratulate me on another year sober. He told me how proud of me he was. He told me to be proud of myself. He told me to never give up to never give in. He told me that I mattered to him. He told me that he cared about me, and that he loved me. he gave me a big hug then he said a prayer 🙏 for me. Every time I see him, he remembers me. He congratulates me again. And he always has a new prayer for me. They are completely amazing. I have been six years sober with Justins inspiration. However, lately things have been really screwed up. I have been having the urge to use again. To be honest, I actually wanna just end it all. Things have not been good with me for a long time. I’m hanging on by a thread. I don’t want to relapse. But I have access to money. I know where to find my drug of Choice heroin again. I almost wanna buy a bunch. Then just take it all and leave this planet. That has been my thought process often on for the last few weeks. I’m trying to fight it. But it’s really hard to do. With a lot of chronic pain that won’t go away. It has been getting worse and worse. My health is terrible. I just don’t want to suffer anymore.

Ahh…this song 09/22 The Egg in Albany NY…Justin got down on his knee, took my hand, and sang a couple verses to me. Kissed my hand and hugged me too 🥹💙

@BLUE_OCTOBER-TRIX

7 ай бұрын

Yeah, every time I meet him he remembers me. This will be my eighth time seeing Justin. It will be my 10th concert though to see them. I couldn’t meet him twice because of the Rona. This also will be my fifth time at the venue. We are going to the rave in Milwaukee. It’s on December 3. I cannot wait to see him again. The first time I met him I told him how he was my inspiration, my sobriety. He told me he was proud of me to be proud of myself. He told me that I mattered to him, and that he cares about me. He said he believe me, he gave me a big hug. Then he told me a prayer. Then he told me he loved me. Every time I see him he remembers me. He congratulate me on another year sober. He always tells me he loves me and gives me a hug. Then he says a new prayer for me. Every time I want to use again. I think about what he told me. It is helping me to keep me six years sober. Thanks to Justin I would not be here without him. I guarantee I would’ve died. Messing with all those street drugs. Every time you use it’s a Russian roulette. So I want to thank Justin. Without his inspiration, I would not be here. I suffer from bipolar, anxiety, panic, attack, ADD and PTSD on top of that. I have my drug addiction issues. It’s really hard sometimes. When I get really low with my depression. I want to use. to get rid of the pain. But then I think about what Justin said.