Appreciate how honest and real you are... lot of courage 💪

You're a beautiful person inside and out. Bipolar is tough but you are tougher ❤

I'm so glad you are talking about this. I've lost a lot of friends and have no contact with family (although they were abusive, manipulative and negligent). I have a really hard time making friends and trusting people and I always feel like I'm a burden or that I'm just not worthy. It sucks 😞

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

Yeah...it's such an isolating illness. 😞

This is beautifully spoken❤ Thank you for sharing this view because yes he is doing and saying hurtful things. I’m still here for him trying to be the best supportive person I can to my friend (ex boyfriend, together for 5 years) who is sick right now. I care about him.

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

Yeah, those bad things we say always come from a place that doesn't exist. It is not deep down feelings, it's just that we are terrified, delusional, we believe untrue things and react to that by being verbally abusive to those that are trying to help us. Thank you for being you and a good friend. It's hard but try to ignore those mean things, they really don't mean anything. ❤️

Steph, I just freaking adore you and this channel. One of the few real people, vulnerable, and not 'acting for a camera. You are so authentic and easy to connect with and relate to. The part where you spoke about people telling us we need to just pray etc. I've had that, I even had some crazy pastor want to do an exorcism on me. All I needed (and wanted), was support, understanding and help. Bipolar runs in my family, I experienced the worst and the best of my mom, it traumatised me badly, I still wear the scars, but I always knew the real her when she was not ill. The kind, gentle, loving person, and I held on to that. Now that I'm the one with the highs and lows, traumatising friends and family, I can only pray for one thing, not that the demons leave me, but that people can look past it, and love and know me for the real me, the true person I am, and not judge me on my behaviour during an episode. You always make me cry, but in a good way, because I feel less alone, to know there is someone else who just gets it..

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

😅 Oh no! I don't want to make you cry. I cry all the time when I'm reliving this stuff! I almost got through this video without wanting to cry lol! The religious stuff is really annoying. They don't do that to anyone with any other illness, just us and it's ridiculous but people are just people. I think most people are just hypnotized and those that have extreme empathy are just more aware of the bad stuff in the world. I'm glad you are here!😍

@Chinelle1711

Жыл бұрын

Thank you for making me (and others I'm sure) feel so welcome, and at home through your channel. Sharing your experiences and life. Reading your description on your channel, there was not one word I didn't relate to, every feeling and thought, my heart skipped beats reading it. Google methods of un-aliving myself, wishing I could be normal, not "over-sensitive', a 'drama queen', 'faking it for attention', 'manipulative' or 'crazy'.. The daily struggle I have to face each day feeling and feeling like the most important part of our being, our brain, is broken, or that my thoughts and feelings therefore cannot be real. Feeling like a burden, the embarrassment of picking up the pieces after an episode, and saying sorry. And then my illness is used against me or coupled with some major gaslighting for me to do what people want to do, if I don't, "have I taken my medication today", God forbid I have an emotion, then I'm ill again. Some days un-aliving myself feels like the best solution for others and myself, but there U go being dramatic again, I need to take responsibility, my illness is no excuse for my behaviour or actions. If only I could control it. And yes, I did take my medication, but the stuff just never ends. I wish you had some sort of online support group, it helps to know we are not alone.

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

@@Chinelle1711 I can do a live. Would you be interested in that? I relate to everything you said. I'll make a post and see if anyone wants to join. I have a topic too.

@Chinelle1711

Жыл бұрын

Steph, that would be amazing! I'll keep a look out for it, or for a message. You are very special. Thank you.. ps. I am also vegan, totally get it!

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

hell yeah!! Vegan family!!! ❤️

Thanks for sharing again. Hope your day goes well

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

Thank you! You too!

Have a great day steph

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

Thank you Joey! You too. 😁

I love you're content, it is very well done and informative. Please look into the lense and not the viewfinder on your Camera as it looks like you are talking to someone to the side and not your audience

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

You know I noticed that too. I think it was the way I had my phone positioned. I'll work on it. 😁❤️

I been losing friends and family.

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

Yeah, I feel like that's standard for us. We just have to cling to the people that do stay!

Subbed I Lao have bipolar one I also started making videos about it too ❤

@BipolarPerson

11 ай бұрын

I'll check it out!

Hey ❤ do you have experience with quetiapine? I’m recently trying it xx

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

No, that is actually one of the few drugs I haven't tried. I only snorted it in jail once (Long story there is a video about it) I have heard a lot of people talk about it and take it. I've heard it's amazing for some but some people hate it too. But that is the thing they all affect us differently. The important thing is to monitor your side effects and make sure if you have any you tell your doctor. There are so many medications you just have to find the one right for your body and make sure your doctor is listening to you. Changing meds can be a pain but it's necessary. It gets easier once you find the right medication. ❤️

@rachaelmclean341

Жыл бұрын

Okay thank you so much ❤

@rachaelmclean341

Жыл бұрын

I can’t believe it’s taken me 37 years to realise I have this! I’ve only experienced psychosis and delusions twice a good 5/6 years ago so I’m hoping that never happens again..,, can totally relate to this video too! I remember apologising to people about my hurtful actions I felt so terrible and I didn’t even know I was unwell at that point just thought I must be a horrible person 😢xxxx

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

As long as you stay on top of it and on meds you should be okay. I think it helps if there are people around to notice if something is wrong. A traumatic event can trigger an episode. I've had to adjust my medications so many times.

@rachaelmclean341

Жыл бұрын

@@BipolarPerson yes very true !! I’ll stay extra vigilant particularly if I experience a traumatic event thank you 🌹🌹🌹

How long have you been married and how your husband is dealing with your diagnosis?

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

Jeff and I have known each other for over 25 years so it's kinda different than most people. When I got sick he learned about bipolar and forgave me. Now I think he would like me to do more at home, but since my medication is working everything is great! I did havr anger spells before and I'm sure that was hard on him.

Uhmmmmm just found out my boyfriern is bad

@BipolarPerson

11 ай бұрын

☹️ I'm sorry.

Thank you. Newly dx’d❤