tldr i'm so shit at being by myself wbu

@brih9613

3 жыл бұрын

yes i suck at that too

@azure7510

3 жыл бұрын

everyday. honestly, what is going on.

@jacksondominique4518

3 жыл бұрын

I'v suffered from depersonalisation since I was 8! But never knew the words til I've discovered your channel, things are still hard but you gave me words to express my state to my friends... So I thank you and love you 👌🙏

@laurenhowell39

3 жыл бұрын

I’m the worst at it, I literally go insane

@gina4612

3 жыл бұрын

If you’re bad at something, just means you might need more practice ✨

"even my bones feel lonely" me: ...........bonely....

@Giga-lemesh

3 жыл бұрын

I had the exact same thought

@jeanz638

3 жыл бұрын

👏👏👏👏👏

Humans are naturally social creatures!! Needing other people to “function” is in our genes!!

@emmaberger3748

3 жыл бұрын

Yes! Even introverts :)

@oyemate8647

3 жыл бұрын

I’m going mental here. I can’t function without others and the worst part is that my friends seem to be doing amazing

@mina1954

3 жыл бұрын

@@oyemate8647 I feel for you mate

@harryjamessmithmusic7762

3 жыл бұрын

most humans are! lol / only asocial and anti-social people have a different opinion! lol

@micheal2458

3 жыл бұрын

Not true of everyone! There are definitely people who function better being alone most of the time and having human interaction in doses, rather than being with people most of the time and having alone time in doses :)

The dodie dots are slowly becoming my favorite thing in the universe. I haven’t worn makeup in years and they make me want to start again xD

@emmanuel5876

3 жыл бұрын

🥺 Yes 😳

@ladypinkymoe7574

3 жыл бұрын

They aren't 'dodie' dots. People have been doing them for years. They do look nice tho

@samihahamzayeva9113

3 жыл бұрын

DODOTS

@samihahamzayeva9113

3 жыл бұрын

or DOTDIES

@alyssamontero4410

3 жыл бұрын

DODIE DOTS

It’s funny that you mention the way Americans speak is so full of life. I’m American and I’ve always enjoyed the way British people speak because of how calm it is

@oyemate8647

3 жыл бұрын

Being polish i love both: you, Americans sound so confident and happy, its so bubbly, but then the british sound so sofisticated and inteligent, i love it

@wrenmorgan783

3 жыл бұрын

@@oyemate8647 you're so sweet

@D4NC3Rable

3 жыл бұрын

I ship this

@laurenhowell39

3 жыл бұрын

@@oyemate8647 aw I love that

“even my bones feel lonely” ouch

@kitkatqueen321

3 жыл бұрын

literally hit the nail on the head on how I've been feeling for a long time

@nicole_1747

3 жыл бұрын

I felt that :(

@xaezaolt519

3 жыл бұрын

This hit me so hard that I had to write music

it’s like i’m unintentionally pushing away all my friends and i HATE IT

@kinleyanne1124

3 жыл бұрын

tHIS

@ashnorwood8976

3 жыл бұрын

Me toooo

@justwannabecloser

3 жыл бұрын

YES. And I’m always overthinking it. Am I a bad friend? Is it because of covid? Is it because I just got married? Am I pushing people away? Are other people checking in and putting in more effort than I am?

@claireelizabeth8276

3 жыл бұрын

Ikr!!!

@SIGSEGV1337

3 жыл бұрын

I've been doing that my whole life and I'm not sure how to stop.

dodie 2017 I am depressed today: “I have to be kind to myself” 2020 being alone more than usual: “and I know, I know i have to be kind to myself.”

@emma-ou8de

3 жыл бұрын

i go back to that video all the time

@hunterduggan4237

3 жыл бұрын

this made me feel some typa way 🥺🥺🥺

me: *being alone with my thoughts* my brain: YOU ARE NOT REAL WHO ARE YOU CRISIS CRISIS WHATS A BODY SAD SAD SAD

@justmemyselfandi3131

3 жыл бұрын

Man, imagine putting all our thoughts together in one big mental mush and it's all just internal noise pollution...

@sagerinii

3 жыл бұрын

@@justmemyselfandi3131 yeah.....

@Christine.Baraka

3 жыл бұрын

How did this make me laugh so hard but cry at the same time

@Smo1k

3 жыл бұрын

You are real. Everything else may be open for discussion, but You. Are. Real.

@francesgrice808

3 жыл бұрын

i have never related more to this

dodie's ability to be so honest about her feelings and experiences and to explain it all in such a wonderful way is always such an incredible break from the crazy crap in the world, and was just that even before the pandemic. i'm always going to be so grateful to her for being a light in the dark times i've had over the years, for being an inspiration in my own music, and for taking the time to raise awareness for DPDR (which i otherwise wouldn't have gotten diagnosed). i don't normally leave comments like this, and i'm sure she gets loads just like it, but i've been thinking about it a lot lately.

@lottie990

3 жыл бұрын

oml i agree i love ur comment and i agree so much!

i just noticed how long dodie's hair is now-

@couchpotatoe91

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah, it's awesome isn't it?

Holy shit. Being alone is one of the worst feelings.

@sleeping_beauty322

3 жыл бұрын

Living like that my entire life, huh

@waterright8484

3 жыл бұрын

@@sleeping_beauty322 well I hope things turn around for you, but also yeah... I spent so much time feeling alone when I was young and then when I got into high school I learned that your in control of your own life and I’m not gonna say it’s like a snap of a finger and woah my life is all turned around now, but you gotta try and work hard. And you gotta do it for you, because I may not feel like it now but your an amazing person *yes I am fully aware I don’t know you at all in anyway* but regardless you are you, and yeah I’ve gone on my own tangent no one asked for but ... who cares. I’m alone and to all the people that are alone right now, things are gonna be okay because bad feelings fade and that’s all I’ve got to say. I wish everyone a lovely day

“even my bones feel lonely” “it’s so quiet” dodie you better make this into a song these would be beautiful lyrics

@erinparkes9916

3 жыл бұрын

She has it just hasn’t been released yet! It’s called lonely bones

@triniy

3 жыл бұрын

@@erinparkes9916 it's SO GOOD!!!! kzread.info/dash/bejne/h2mgpLCJe8LZf6w.html you can listen to it here

@erinparkes9916

3 жыл бұрын

@@triniy OH MY GOODNESS thank you!!

@ivystarlight17

Жыл бұрын

@@erinparkes9916 It’s been released!

@FrizzellDSouza

4 ай бұрын

I'm watching this three years later and I actually GASPED when she said that because Lonely Bones is now one of my fav Dodie songs ever.

why do we trick ourselves into thinking that giving ourselves a break is something to be guilty of??? we’re all growing humans and that growth is beautiful and individual and unique and we all need space and time and ROOM TO GROW !!! god i hate the human brain sometimes

@hafsaz4513

3 жыл бұрын

Sometimes it's because our parents conditioned us to think that 🙃

@aknee3042

3 жыл бұрын

I mean, when we grow up in a world that is constantly telling us our worth is entirely based on our productivity and career, it feels like you are failing and falling behind when you stop to breathe - even if it’s just for a second. But we’re alive!! And that’s beautiful!!! It really is important to push against what we’ve been told and remember that we live in a really very big universe and we are actually so very small but that’s not a bad thing!!!! It means we have so much freedom and choice and awesome power over our own lives. Please; if you want to sit down and watch a film or sleep for one hundred hours or take a day off to learn weaving; don’t let anyone stop you. It’s just not worth it. We have our entire lives to get on with everything else and taking a break won’t change that. In fact, it’ll make the rest of the time feel a whole lot better. And I know this is long and weird but I guess what I’m trying to say is, what is the point of a life if it is not to experience the world through the things that we find fun and interesting and exciting? There isn’t anybody on this planet powerful enough to take that away from you, even though they think they can. So just fuck it and take that break you sexy bastard.

@cottagebirder

3 жыл бұрын

Because of hustle culture sadly

GOD IVE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS TOO literally where does time go? i just go on autopilot and go on my phone and it’s november now? like is this how i’m gonna spend time? :((

@dr.pragyaverma4082

3 жыл бұрын

This thought terrifies me

@esme_melody

3 жыл бұрын

same like... i know it’s good to “take a break” and not feel guilty about it, but this (endless scrolling, autopilot for weeks) doesn’t feel like a break, it feels like im opting out of existence, and it’s terrifying

@bert1029

3 жыл бұрын

@@esme_melody omg this is exactly how I feel! My friend’s keep telling me to “take a break” and I keep saying “well I’m sort of ALWAYS on a break!”

@foebe5874

3 жыл бұрын

@@esme_melody I've been trying to describe exactly this for months and couldn't find the right words. You just did it perfectly

@micheal2458

3 жыл бұрын

@@esme_melody Yes, opting out of existence! Exactly!! And it's so hard to break out of it 😢

“At least I’m not maybe killing people” Well said

dodie humans are NOT MEANT to be alone! we are highly highly social animals, our brains literally do not function in isolation. you are not a bad human for struggling with isolation and loneliness. we have evolved as pack animals and our brains are wired to require social interaction. you are not broken or weird, you are a human being

@maneskinnnnn7190

3 жыл бұрын

not everyone is the same, some people do prefer being alone. I love being alone, and can be alone for months without feeling lonely, remember everyones brain is slightly different. Not everyone is in the majority.

@graceprda7540

3 жыл бұрын

word.

I’ve never realised how important people and the presence of people around me actually is. I spend my time sinking more and more into depression while trying to drag myself out of bed for work sometimes. And nobody knows when its going to end. It’s so painful. I am really lost.

@kinleyanne1124

3 жыл бұрын

i feel this, i’m here for you

@jennarene2532

3 жыл бұрын

!!!! i used to think of myself as more of an in between of extrovert and introvert but now i KNOW i’m an extrovert. i miss meeting people and learning about people and seeing people just .... be people and living their lives uhhh it hurts not to go outside and just LIVE

@XxKeevezxX

3 жыл бұрын

ur definitely not alone in feeling this, i feel the same. it has been such a tough year :( sending love

@skylarsa

3 жыл бұрын

Honestly go out for a coffee and strike up a conversation with the waitress! Wear a mask of course, and take your coffee to go so youre not sitting in a restaurant for a long period of time but really just go be interactive with people! We need that genuine connection with people and we can do that 6 feet apart and keep everyone safe and meeting strangers is one of the best things and as humans we desire making connections! I recently went on a roadtrip, was by myself in my car the whole drive and slept in my car, but every rest stop or even random hikers who I met on the trails, having small conversations with strangers again was so welcoming. And we can still keep everyone safe by wearing masks and keeping distance!

@michellemarie9526

3 жыл бұрын

You are not alone. I am feeling the same way as well. We singletons have to stick together and show each other support :)

Ow the feeling of missing out ur youth during the pandemic,,,,,,, hits hard. I'm 15 and feel like everything's passing by and I'm not only missing out the fun things but also missing out on vital growing up lessons hhhnnhgwgg

@savannahsmiles5263

3 жыл бұрын

Same I’m a senior at 17 and I get that .

@vanillerygarden

3 жыл бұрын

I know that feeling. I wasn’t allowed to do much when I was a teenager and I was alone quite often. Maybe that’s why I don’t „suffer“ so much under current circumstances, but social interactions stress me out.

@Ketetheawesomeness

3 жыл бұрын

Honestly you're only 15, I feel like I missed out on a lot when I was younger bc I was too worried about everything. Things will get better ❤️

@Jessica-kb8jf

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@Artemisdianaxxx

3 жыл бұрын

I understand this feeling but I promise in even a few years one year or two years won’t feel like a huge amount. And everyone else is going through the same stuff and you can catch up together

“The way Americans talk is so full of life...” I’m American and I was just thinking that I hear people say they love so many different accents and we must sound so awful because I don’t hear people say that about ours. Small victory for me today to enjoy that kind statement when I’m feeling, also, alone.

god as someone who hasn’t seen most of their friends in person since march, it hits different :(

@AmberWoodMusicx

3 жыл бұрын

i’ve not seen a friend for over a year, i get you. tho at this point i’m just used to my own company and it’s okay

@samwalker7866

3 жыл бұрын

I haven't seen my best friend since the beginning of March.. i live with my family and since both of my parents are in the "at risk" category we don't go out and see anyone except our neighbors a few times. I never thought as a shy more introverted person that I miss people

yes even just watching a movie feels more productive than scrolling and scrolling

@AmberWoodMusicx

3 жыл бұрын

100%

i like how she reassured everyone that she's alright; just generally not liking the whole alone thing.

I feel like the world sells to you the fact that you need to learn to be all alone and be okay with it but it's only human to crave human connection, don't beat yourself up for not liking being alone, it's okay to hate loneliness and it doesn't mean you're broken

@dianeaishamonday9125

3 жыл бұрын

There's a balance to be struck, though. Certain actions need solitude to be fulfilled, like meditation for example. We need to learn when to be alone and when to connect with others.

@camshoutsnever

3 жыл бұрын

@@dianeaishamonday9125 yeah i get you, thing is I'm not a lonely person at all and even tho I *can* be by myself I don't like it, I would much rather spend time with people

@greatvibesss5353

3 жыл бұрын

so true i feel terrible not wanting to be alone because social is full of people saying learn how to be alone

It’s weird but i was literally crying about not having anyone to talk to when i saw this video and something about you talking about being alone genuinely made me feel less alone.

@michellemarie9526

3 жыл бұрын

Same. This was really honest. Bless her for making people feel less alone in their loneliness.

Had a huge fight with my mum this morning. She’s super toxic and I’m not doing good. Been a fan since 2015 tho and you’re like an older sister to me, so I feel a bit better.

@daniguimaraes4453

3 жыл бұрын

Sorry to hear about that, honestly. I really hope things get better ❤️

@zoedoudt9386

3 жыл бұрын

praying things get better. love you

@picketfenced5771

3 жыл бұрын

You’re so cute and toxic parents suck but you’re doing amazing!!!

@yuuri9064

3 жыл бұрын

That really sucks, I'm sorry. Virtual hugs

@Novaelline

3 жыл бұрын

I'm afraid of becoming a toxic parent. I have a 6 year old. Some advice from the kids of today would be much appreciated.

lots of reasons for not looking after yourself even though it’s “easy” - not being able to get up because depression -not thinking about it because you’re constantly trying to distract yourself because at this point it’s a habit - not feeling like you deserve to be looked after -not thinking it’s necessary or you’ll do it tomorrow -not wanting to be a bother (i’m sure there are others but i can’t think of them right now)

@plestrange511

3 жыл бұрын

Some of these hittt

the queen’s gambit is the BEST YES DODIE

I don't know, just... thank you for making this... much love

“No one can be independent of other people completely, so why not give up the attempt, she thought, go running in the other direction, depend on people for everything, allow them to depend on you, why not.” ― Sally Rooney, Normal People

I stopped attending school fulltime 3 years ago, and it has made me feel more alone than anything else.

@noelle9853

3 жыл бұрын

jdjshdje i love your pfp

What you're saying at 2:22 brought this para from Normal People straight into my head: "No one can be independent of other people completely, so why not give up the attempt, she thought, go running in the other direction, depend on people for everything, allow them to depend on you, why not." I love that book so much :)

"Even my bones are lonely" gOD you have such a way with words. sending all my love

i saw that i’m on my phone for around 10 hours and it made me panic cuz it feels like my life is wasting away and it’s so lonely.

this video reminds me of why I love church so much! It's literally a group of people who are willing and able to communicate with you and build up a community, even when the only interactions are online for the time being :)

this exactly describes how i’ve felt this year. i haven’t been able to put it into words but this is exactly it

same, being alone SUCKS but at the same time i’m now back at school and the pressure and stress of that and the anxiety and weight that comes with it, i have now decided is so much worse than the numbness i was feeling a few months ago except me then would have done anything to be me now, no matter how bad it feels as long as it was real.... but that’s life i guess

why do i feel like i could just sit here and listen to dodie’s voice forever, whether she’s singing or just talking🥺

I've deleted social media two weeks ago and it's been really good since now I'm more porductive and I don't focus on other people's 'perfect' lives while scrolling. I did keep KZread though since I learn a lot from it and watch music, enjoy art or videos in general and I find it more fulfilling than just scrolling through tiktok or instagram.

I love love love being alone when I want to be, but feeling lonely is one of the strongest, most overwhelming feelings I’ve ever felt.

The fact that you called my accent "full of life" made me smile. I like UK accents so much cause they are so peaceful and calming and welcoming lol

hearing you talk about americans makes me feel a bit less embarrassed of being one myself 😂

@micheal2458

3 жыл бұрын

Same!

After being alone (+depersonalized) for so long, I forget something like the "outside" of my flat exist, but somehow I also tend to forget that an "inside" of me exist (e.g. the space to think or feel or process things in my mind), so I am just floating in the weird space inbetween

I’m sad and this made me not sad

The pauses and change of pitch in her voice really do be taking me back to “arms unfolding”

"even my bones feel lonely" wonder whether this idea might've evolved into a song...

the most relatable video yet. i think the combination of not having a job + not being able to see friends + seasonal depression = a highly depressive & low energy vibe around the house. it’s absolutely exhausting. it does feel good to be heard though, i’m sorry it sucks for us rn, dodie. but we’ll muddle through like we always do.

how about you move to an isolated cottage in the scottish highlands with no wifi for 6 months? could work

@camilleherrera5344

3 жыл бұрын

hey i think i might steal this idea real quick

My husband was in the room when we heard “so full of life” and we repeated it simultaneously in surprise 😂. Thank you for the compliment but just know that I love listening to people in the uk for the exact same reason!

so we can all agree we are obsessed with queen’s gambit.

i work so much better by myself, but it’s comforting knowing someone is there. it’s nice to have an option instead of being forced to be alone

queen's gambit is also an awesome example of the different periods in life that we go through. beth goes through so many phases of loneliness and longing--this is just one chapter on the way to greatness & we will get there someday soon!

I laughed quite hard at the "really? you never mention it!" part and I feel bad for that... Sending love, dodie!

"recently I like to put on American news" every American: why

this was exactly what I needed to hear from someone I’ve looked up to for so long.... seeing dodie struggle with the EXACT same panicked and lost thoughts I’ve struggled with the past 10 months in “quarantine” shows me I’m not alone. because I can see influencers post “you’re not alone we’re all going thru it!!” but that shit doesn’t do anything good. this did

ive suffered trauma myself and after having gone through that and come back to watch your videos, and hearing you also suffered trauma in childhood and in relationships, i realised your whole image of being more childlike is something i have as well. i sink back into my 'childlike-self' because it gives me an illusion that i am gaining my childhood back in some way, since it was taken from me from monsters who like to inflict horrible things on other people. all of the way you speak and actions you make are childlike but not in a bad way... just in a way that seems as if you don't realise you are always trying to get your childhood innocence back... i do that too. i feel understood in this way when i watch your videos. i could be completely wrong about this btw. i promise i am not being one of those people that is diagnosing or saying This Is Who You Are! but it is something i have noticed that i resonate with completely and know is because of trauma i have gone through, and is possibly the same for you. have you noticed this? and also, am i right? does anyone else know what i mean? sending so much love. you have no idea how much you have helped me in my life. especially during school.

how can i feel alone when i spend every waking second laughing hysterically at my own jokes?

as a depressed introvert and someone who spent the last 4 months constantly high, I relate to this way too much (dw im getting help now)

That is also why I scared of silence, all of my childhood I’ve been taught to either stay quiet or trouble. But also that silence meant my parents were disappointed in me, I cannot sleep without noise, it’s nerve wracking and It makes my skin crawl

The spotify sleep timer thing has made my life immeasurable better cause even when I'm going to sleep i need to play some music and not let the silence in

the snap opening brought me so much NOSTALGIA and had me thinking back to watching your videos a long time ago you soothe me so much! i recently got diagnosed with anxiety, depression, and depersonalization derealization disorder and started meds, you are so wonderful and have made a huge impact in my life thank you so much i love u

SHE'S BAAAAAACK the past two weeks have felt like forever aaaaAAAAA also the coloring in this video is... just so comforting and beautiful ALSO also I feel you - I guess I never realized how much I actually need people to function until now, when I'm by myself all the time :/

I’m living alone at uni and I agree with all of this, I’ve been on the phone to people all day long and it is so quiet and silent when we end that call, I’ve never noticed how quiet it is before when I could go out and do things and see people

Goodness, I completely understand! The pandemic on top of switching school programs, being at the cusp of graduating and moving abroad for college has really settled me into depression. Just the pressure of it all and the inability to seek comfort in friends has just been, frankly, suffocating. Times are so warped now, and although there’s so much to be thankful for and blessings a plenty since although you’re alone, you’re alive and well, that doesn’t negate the heavy feelings that everything else gives. Good luck and Godspeed, Dodie, and everyone else! The times are pretty poopy, to say the least, but we’ll get through it! I believe in you!

i love you dodie. thank u for using ur platform for good.

* lonely bones enters the chat *

I'm way older than you and it's hard too. I really feel for the younger generation. I wouldn't have coped either. This should be the finest time of your life! You need others to share, experience things with, challenge you, laugh with, bounce off... and we are human. Humans are a social species.

this is so relatable though, i’ve been feeling this for months but especially the past week and it’s so nice to know that we feel lonely but all of us feel lonely and to see you struggle with it but also be hopeful? and know that you can take care of yourself and stuff? that’s lit as for getting out of that rut- what helps me is daily (or just as often as you can like start with once or twice a week or smth) asking someone if they can hang out or even just like talk on the phone or just sit outside in your seperate fields of grass and hang out so you’re at least talking to someone and you’re not alone. i’ve had so many good conversations that way and have felt a lot better the rest of the day

It's quite scary when your scrolling to avoide listening to your thoughts and then your brain decides to put a video on that echoes it's thoughts. It scared me enough that not long into the video I saw what was coming, got spooked, lept out of bed, had a shower and am now making a cup of tea whilst watching the rest of the video, so cheers :)

The Queens Gambit and The Devil of All Time, literally my latest two quarantine obsessions they're great.

yea im feeling like that to, i just zone out all day long and just avoid all situations, its so horrible, and its scary when it randomly kicks in and i get this massive anxity feeling like in my heart

hey. i've been alone 100% by myself for like 3 months now and I love it. I've always thought that solitude is so looked down upon and always have wondered why people never learn to be by themselves. These are the most obvious tips but it's literally what I do: - work (always good to keep your mind off the crazy world outiside) - fun breaks (watch movies, sit down and read) - just playing music and singing non stop for hours until you need to do something else hope this helps

I was just reminded why I love her voice so much

Yes. I am a music video director, and all of the bands that I work with can't afford / aren't very motivated to make new music right now. But mostly, I've realized that my fast-pace lifestyle interacting with lots of different people is what I miss the most. I literally get a weird high whenever I'm in a room with more than 3 people lmao. Thank you for being a voice for all of us. This will end, hopefully SOON. x

@mckennaparker4593

3 жыл бұрын

Number 1: I love your music videos Diego ❤️ Number 2: this will all go away soon like you said, keep at it luv x

@VidsRndm

3 жыл бұрын

I miss gigs most than anything and I miss your music videos 😢

@DiegoLPedroza

3 жыл бұрын

@@mckennaparker4593 Thank you so much for your kind words x

@DiegoLPedroza

3 жыл бұрын

@@VidsRndm I MISS CONCERTS MORE THAN LIFE

@DiegoLPedroza

3 жыл бұрын

@Jerry Sanders This genuinely means a lot, thank you for taking the time to check my work

The sigh thing was perfect. It's so true

the sigh, and the pure look of desperation. i feel you. man, it is tough.

being alone gets rid of the safety blanket of bouncing off of other people. it takes being alone to realise how hard it is to be alone with yourself. and yet it also takes the safety blanket of thinking you’re independent when you realise if left to your own devices you are barely even a human being

@kinleyanne1124

3 жыл бұрын

oUCH yeah

@doddleoddle

3 жыл бұрын

truuuulyyy

@doddleoddle

3 жыл бұрын

this hugely

To dodie and everyone else: I keep reminding my students that nobody on the planet has ever been through anything like this. If you are struggling, feeling isolated, lacking motivation, anxious, afraid, depressed, stressed and/or otherwise struggling - good! That means you're human. If you weren't struggling right now, that would actually be weird. Even if you feel alone, you're not. There are millions of people in the same situation. 2020-2021 will be a loss. Just own it. The 1918 Spanish Influenza actually lasted from 1918-1920. Until we get a vaccine, our best option is physical distancing. Just known you're loved, you're missed, and there are people who can't wait to see your smiling face on the other side of this.

@doddleoddle

3 жыл бұрын

Why is it that i always procrastinate to watch her vids and then feel sooo much better when i watched it .. it is like a really small therapie session for me personally and always hits home so bad

i love how honest you are, thanks for this!!

"I have no idea how to get out of this rut...well I do...it's probably just to try harder, isn't it? *growling noises*" HAAAA yep. This entire video was very resonant with me. I feel the same. I've found myself frequently asking, "why do I need other people so much??" Someone advised me recently that maybe it's just innate. Not wrong or bad. Just how we're made. Sending you love and grace! We'll get through the door of this together.

Needed this thank you

your colour pallets in your vids make me smile

There is such a difference between having some alone time and being forced to be alone, not having someone to physically reach out it draining

“Really? You never mention it”. Holy shit that made me laugh out loud 😂

awwww hi love 🥺 we’re all here for you 🥰 edit: also yes. I completely understand. I feel the need to fill every blank space with music or tv or podcasts or scrolling on insta.

I needed this, it’s so comforting knowing I’m not the only one going through this. Still sucks big time but we power throughhhhh

I dissociate too, and hate being alone. If I'm alone and spaced out I do not feel safe. There's patches of time in my life where I don't know what I was doing and that terrifies me. It's so much easier to be with someone and stay busy

The part about putting on background noise to drown out the “soul sucking silence’, I felt that lmao I’m addicted to KZread for this reason, not in the way some people describe where it feels like chillen with a friend because it’s distinctly different from that but... For that reason you described lmao I’m someone who generally, and *genuinely*, enjoys my alone time and bonding with myself, but this year stripping the agency of choice away... Ugh.

This feels like a callout but in a good way lol

Being alone and being alone with thoughts are two very different things that need to be recognized. Being alone with thoughts is good to do but not for a long period of time. Being alone (I find it best when meditating... not to be cringe) is so calming for relaxing but is only good in moderation as all thing should be. Take some time for yourself and be kind to yourself like dodie said! I hope this helped someone ❤️

Thanks so much for posting this, youre voicing a lot of my current situation and its nice to hear this.

title is a lockdown mood

I always thought non-ameicans didn't like american accents omg

your videos are so comforting and help me get through so much. thank you

seeing u upload again has been so good 🥺 i love ur videos sm!

Me: no Im good with being alone by myself. Dodie: without phone. Me: oh shit...

I know you know this already dodie, but just a gentle reminder that we love you 💛

dodie you were right on time. my brother was having a fit and he was throwing and kicking things and we stressful. thank you so much for bringing a light and sharing your own struggles with us

yesss, i love amanda and her vid, hope more people will watch her vids !