It is important to get off that kind of mindset, because it never ends. Once you get published, then it is 'I only got published once, am I a real author?' "My last book was years ago, am I still a real author?" It never ends. An author is someone who writes books, publishing is just how you get paid. As long as you write, you are a real author.

@vapx0075

10 ай бұрын

Top comment.

@thesamuraiman

4 ай бұрын

Good point

Hey guys! Just wanted to say that I know this was a more negative video, but please know that I’m totally fine! I filmed this awhile ago and am feeling much better about these issues since (no I have not sold my book lol, but a chat with my agent about our submission plans and some factors in publishing that have been slowing the process gave me some good perspective!) but still wanted to post this video since I know a lot of people currently in the querying or submission trenches can probably relate.

@anwarpsychiatrist4629

10 ай бұрын

please more of these negative videos about publishing worlds, becuase these are really tragic for the writers.

@anoadance

10 ай бұрын

Glad to hear it. If you have stories to share, then write them. That they are shared with only a few, does that take away the joy of writing them? Thoughts of self (doubts, buying into the measurement of progress the world says is successful or unsuccessful) always dampen the joy of existence. You have an agent. I think that's cool.

@african_chris

10 ай бұрын

Glad to hear that you’re okay. 🫶🏼🙏🏼

@AdamFishkin

10 ай бұрын

We know it'll happen. Or at least I do. What makes the difference for you isn't just talent ... you also clearly have the discipline and professionalism that are key to surviving the process. You're aware of the dangers going into it, and even though the chaos comes through in your vlogs, you treat the chaos with a level of self-control I sometimes envy. It's also a well-known fact that fate is a bitch. We aren't "destined" to the life and career we deserve so much as on a waitlist for it. 8 billion humans scrapping for the long end of the stick? That level of blood and sweat only comes from a fundamental flaw we'll never fix except by chilling out a little.

@hjkluoijljoiu

10 ай бұрын

I’m glad you are okay. I’ve only read one story by you and I liked it. You are a good writer and your work deserves an audience. As you know well, traditional publishers aren’t the only way to get a book out.

"I feel like I'm in a race. I don’t know who I'm racing against. It just feels like I'm losing." Lifelong writer, stuck in the query trenches, struggling to stay positive... this is so me! You nailed it. We've got this, bud ❤

Unsolicited advice from a book coach who exclusively coaches and edits and who isn’t interested in publishing herself: Your feelings are valid and understandable, but if you can stop caring how other people perceive you, you life will be infinitely easier. You are an amazing human being who is putting herself out there and helping other people who are struggling. That is huge. Regardless of your publishing history, you are awesome and people will still listen to you and love you. Because you help them. Listen to people like me who encourage you and want to know your journey, and dismiss the critics and the self-pressure. Self pressure is a creativity killer. 💖

@RaymondHulha

10 ай бұрын

This.

@carlajenkins1990

10 ай бұрын

Shaelin, hang in there. I'm not setting the world on fire either.

Perspective: You're hella young. You have a good stable job. You have an audience on youtube. You have multiple books. You're going to be MORE than just fine. You're going to be a huge success, but the downside is that it might not happen as fast as you want it. And if anyone is judging you they are either naïve about the process and not a judgement on you, or just really trying to get you down when you need to be in good spirits to be creative. So don't fall for those pressure-traps. No one who supports you will make you feel pressured at all. And as for your own mind, tell it to chill.

@kuku_rydza

10 ай бұрын

It seems like these days there is so much pressure to be successful at a young age, don't you think? Not only with writing/publishing but with everything you might do. There are so many people in their 20s just flexing their fame and wealth on social media (and giving advice on how to earn 10k+ a month) and after few years it is starting to feel like a norm. Even though we all know it is not.

Your getting a novel published has, to me, ALWAYS been a forgone conclusion. It’s always felt inevitable. You’ve published short stories that have gotten you some decent fucking accolades iirc. Your advice and insights have been an actual lifesaver in terms of the spark I still hold, as a 38 YEAR OLD UNPUBLISHED WRITER WORKING SINCE 19 YEARS OF AGE. Maybe you haven’t published a novel yet. But you’re not even 30. You have more than enough time. And “you have real talent” is an objective statement. Like your name has been in print, both as an author, and also as an author who has achieved a position of undeniable merit. What’s less objective is that myself having read your writing… you are an extraordinary wordsmith. Your ability to weave together emotions and transport me to an almost magical realist state of mind, it’s incredible. You’re an incredible writer. The next step is ONLY a matter of time. You’re going to get there. I will wait for as long as it takes, and then I shall celebrate the inevitable day, apart from but also with you.

I'm 49. I'm desperately trying to get better to get published. Or self publish. Or anything. I just started really writing 9 years ago. As Zyzz used to say about work out bros: We're all going b to make it! I believe in you. I believe in everyone reading this. Keep at it. We're all going to make it writing family! ❤

@bj71000

10 ай бұрын

Zyzz 🥲

You’re such a great writer (your short stories and snippets of your books are so intriguing), and a nice person. You’re really amazing. I was telling a friend few days ago that with my latest novel I have no doubts about my writing abilities, I have accepted that not everyone will like my writing but I’m received a lot of praise to be certain that I’m a good writer. You’ve helped me in understanding this. Your videos were a pillar to me when I was at my worst. YOU ARE A DANG GOOD WRITER, Shaelin! Published or not. You’re a pretty good writer. 🤞🏼❤️ Lots of love and light. 🙌🏼❤️🕯️

@ShaelinWrites

10 ай бұрын

Thank you so much and good luck with your novel!! 💛

Shaelin, I've written 6 novels. I sent my first query in January 2014 and I have yet to even sign with an agent. I'm a few years older than you and until recently, when I would think about my writing journey, I would feel so ashamed, like I was literally the worst writer possible. The thing that helps me most is actually talking about my writing because it helps me realize the shame and embarrassment is coming solely from me, not from anyone around me. Respect comes from trying, not from succeeding. I have enormous respect for you ❤

@zack_feldman

10 ай бұрын

And you ought to remember that of the people who attempt to write a novel, few ever complete a single one. Good on you for completing work, and for continuing on! Well done.

@elizabethcoylewrites

10 ай бұрын

@@zack_feldman Thank you! That's what I keep telling myself. I feel confident that the more I write, the more likely I'll write something publishers want!

I've never witnessed such heartfelt, extensive, and positive comments on any other KZread channel. That speaks volumes.

Much love, Shaelin. Publishing is so rough, and is often exhausting and disappointing. Thank you for posting this and being vulnerable with us, it helps us as writers to participate in conversations like this. That being said, this isn't about us as an audience, this video, I hope, will be healing for you. We believe in you and know how skilled you are, we're here for the journey! Manifesting some good news for you soon that can bring some satisfaction. Thank you for showing us your journey, Shaelin. We love you!!

It’s nice to know that others are going through what I’m going through. You’re a wonderful, talented teacher. You’re value is enormous and whether or not they picked up your book it’s not a reflection on how good you are. I’m almost 50 and I’ve written seven novels, and pitched to agents, queried, spent so much money on editors but I’ve come to peace. I have written books I can be proud of even if they don’t go into print the way I dreamed. I have wanted to be published for 35 years. Someday it will happen I really love you. Your video’s are great and things will come together.

You have done the work, you've written the book, written some of the best short stories I've read, and are a phenomenal KZreadr by age 26. If you were to self publish tomorrow you'd have thousands of people buying your book. You've chosen to go through the publishing route, so it's out of your hands now, waiting for other people to pick up your work (buyers time and time again get it wrong and don't pick the best book). It doesn't takeaway from what you've achieved!

As an aspiring author who hasn't gotten to the querying and submissions part of the process, I can't relate, but videos like this do help prepare me. It helps aspiring authors break out of their unrealistic expectations or naivete earlier in the process which is probably easier overall. So thank you for sharing the harder parts of your journey. Much love from your community 💛

I don’t watch your channel because of expectations about your career. You are one of the few creators posting actual, meaningful content I can’t find anywhere else. I want success for you, but that has nothing to do with why I continue to seek you out. Whether you post writing advice, vlogs, or sharing your journey like this one, you always have my full attention. It is our published stories we want to be remembered for, and I have no doubt you will be published. But I wonder if you have any idea what your teaching has meant to serious writers, both here and on Reedsy. You have a gift for writing, but also for teaching writing! Your own methods, like six-arc structure, to me are the real gold. Your own ongoing journey is also incredibly validating, whether you’re cresting a wave or deep in a trough ❤

For what is worth, the moment I read one of your short stories I knew you're a talented writer. As "part of your audience", that's all I care about, your talent. Best of lucks with your book.

Your feelings are totally valid. Everyone’s journey and timeline is different. It took Lindsay Ellis 10 years to get published and she has a huge following. Brandon Sanderson wrote 13 books before one of them got published. Even super successful authors often have long journeys getting to publication. Also, think of how many bad books there are that do get published. Quality of writing does not equate to publish-ability. I’m positive your writing is much stronger than the majority of stuff that’s out there. Definitely keep writing new books, not only a great way to keep busy and practice your craft, but when you do eventually get published, and I am confident that you will, publishers will inevitably ask, “do you have anything else?” And you can be like, yes, here are all these other books I have ready to go. Totally normal to feel discouraged, but keep at it, you will get there.

You've got a buyer here as soon as your book is published! Truly, you're not behind. You're much further along on the path to your dreams than most people ever get. And you're bound to get to all the destinations as long as you keep steady on the trail. You know your process, so don't let others define "how it's going" for you.

I think it’s important to remember that as much as people enjoy your videos, they are all strangers with their own complex lives and when they aren’t watching your videos, they aren’t thinking about you. They don’t care (in a good way)if you fail. They will cheer if you succeed and some may even be spiteful if you fail, but no one really cares

@RaymondHulha

10 ай бұрын

That is absolutely not true. Don't speak for everyone like this please...

@trinity3272

10 ай бұрын

@@RaymondHulha what’s not true? You saying you spend every day thinking about the fact that shaelin hasn’t published a book yet?

@RaymondHulha

10 ай бұрын

I sometimes think if Shaelin has a new video out and I hope she is doing well. And I bet others do as well.

@trinity3272

10 ай бұрын

@@RaymondHulha well yeah that’s not what I said, I said people aren’t constantly thinking about whether or not she has published a book or how long she’s been on submissions

@Kahepadu

10 ай бұрын

You said "no one really cares". This is simply not true, I certainly care and am looking forward to reading her book. I think a lot of people do - just have a look at the comments.

I imagine once you’ve started the tradpub journey, things feel fast paced. Although I can’t empathise with this yet, you will learn to find your own creative pace to make your art. I know it feels like this now, but it really is a bubble. Not to invalidate your feelings, not at all, rather it’s to make you feel a greater sense of freedom. Inner freedom. Shaelin, I could say you’re miles ahead of most people producing content, writing so prolifically, and just being such a source of help and light for so many budding writers online - but this would negate my point. These things are undeniably true, but this hole you find yourself in requires affirmation from within which, I think, will only come with time and more experience. As always, Shaelin, thank you for your honesty, integrity and most of all, your light.

Everyone's falling behind. We are grown up to believe we need to achieve early, grow early, make money early, or we are nothing. But THIS ISN'T TRUE! We are allowed to take up space, to grow, to go at our own pace. For instance: I always tell people I'm a writer. I love writing, I want to write a novel, but really my only writings are partly-finished novels and vent poetry that i don't even show to those around me because I'm embarrassed of them. I've been so stuck in writer's block and an inability to write how I'd like to that it makes it so difficult to see people around me making money off their dreams so quickly. But that's okay. It's hard to realize, but it's okay!! Also, screw everyone else anyway. Your worth is based in YOU - not what you do, how well you do, etc. I'm a writer and I will write a novel someday, gosh dang it, and no one is going to stop me, not even myself

Thank you for sharing your honest thoughts and feelings, Shaelin. I'd just like say that I'm confident that the vast majority of your subscribers respect and support you, like myself. We are here because we respect and appreciate your takes and advice, so major props for keeping it real! It's great that you seem to be kind to yourself - you are a talented writer in a tough business. I wish you the best going forward, and good luck on your journey! After all, it has just barely begun

I've never commented before, but I've been watching your videos for years. To me, you have nothing to prove because your advice and videos have had a huge impact on me and my writing. Even how I listen to books has changed. I spot so many things I wouldn't have noticed before. I can pinpoint the parts that leave me unsatisfied or parts that have been done really well. Take your time. I've been working on one story for almost four years, and I am completely tearing it down and reworking it from the ground up again. But each time it had gotten better for it. Your videos have played a big role in that. I'm so sorry that the channel that has helped me so much has been causing so much stress. I want to add my voice to say I'll be glad to wait as long as it takes. Regardless of how long your publishing journey takes, what you've already done has made a huge impact, and you will get there. I'm not worried. I can wait as long as it takes. Thank you for everything you've done.

I always try and remember that most of my favourite authors 1) didn't publish their first book until they were in their late 30's AT LEAST, and 2) many of them take YEARS in between each book. But every time I pick up their new book, even if the last one I read was 7-10 years ago, I feel like I'm reading an absolute masterpiece!

I am only a year younger than you, but I feel that impatience with getting out there. Just this week my first poem got accepted by a literary magazine, and while that is so exciting, the intense feeling of being left behind gnaws at me. I totally get where you are coming from! Hang in there!

Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. I'm sure the vast majority of people asking are just excited and want to read your book, but I can definitely see how that adds pressure when your ideal timeline isn't working out. Wishing you the best - fellow unpublished writer at 26

My favorite books, by my favorite authors (Nathan Hill, Khaled Hosseini), have taken YEARS to write. The best books take time, in my experience. And, like you said, 26 is REALLY young. You have a long and bright career ahead of you.

'Time has been weird.' Isn't that the truth! I've enjoyed listening to you talk about writing and your process for years now. It's still a pleasure to see you have posted a new video. I have to say the idea of rejection feeling accumulative really resonated. Can I just take this opportunity to tell you that there are still days I think about 'I Will Never Tell You This.' Wishing you all the best.

Shaelin 100% the pace you are proceeding is fine. I'm rooting for you, and I absolutely respect you as a writer and a teacher. You're literarily tremendous. (Not literally tremendous.) I know you'll succeed.

Hey, I know multiple mid-career published authors who were unable to publish their first books, but broke through with a subsequent book THEN were able to sell the original book. So even if this one doesn't work out, and it still might, you are on the right track. My advice is you absolutely need to keep writing books, this is the right thing to be doing! None of it is a waste.

@vapx0075

10 ай бұрын

Yes, I was so happy to hear she'd moved on to write more.

You have been such an inspiration and this is difficult but appreciated hearing the transparency and frustration with ourselves, expectations, the process, and reception as well as our own lack of progress or fulfillment. Believe in your dream and voice and let us not give into the current reality or let resentment or remorse be our fate

I wish I had the right words… but here’s what I have: 1) what you’re saying makes complete sense and I 100% understand why you feel the way you do; 2) you’re not wrong that there are horrible, weird people out there; 3) I’ve never questioned your ability to write, because you’ve more than demonstrated your ability through the advice on your videos; and 4) a lot of us (me included) love you as you are and we really aren’t thinking “why isn’t there a published book yet?!” My thoughts towards you are usually something along the lines of “yay! Another video!” And “wow, that was really helpful!”

I think all of your feelings are natural and of course valid. No matter what happens you are a writer. You have published short fiction: you are a writer. You have written multiple novels: you are a writer. You have an agent who believes in your work: you are a writer. I have no doubt that you will have a novel published because you are a writer. You don’t have to prove your bona fides to anyone.

I can relate to this sooo much. Thank you for sharing your feelings. I’m 36 and started writing 3 years ago but feel so inadequate and impatient even though I’ve published 3 short stories. I also have a novel draft and am dreading going out on submission with it + however many more novels I might write in hopes of getting published. I’m sharing this to add to the voices that all feel the same. The writing/publishing world is sooo competitive but we seem to mainly see the winners and good news on social media, which doesn’t help. In reality, it’s a long slog. We just have to keep at it and have faith. You’re an incredible writer and admire you so much. Thanks for making me feel less alone today. ❤

This is such a relatable sentiment. I graduated from college this year after dealing with all the pandemic stuff throughout my engineering degree which brought my writing to a screeching halt. Now I'm trying to find my stride again and it's so hard to feel like I'm behind of where I wanted to be, and to not be daunted by all the other steps. Thank you for the reminder to be gentle with myself, and I hope you're able to find peace with this all too.

In lives with you I've heard some of your writing and have loved things you've come up with off the cuff. Keep writing, maybe this book isn't the right one now, but your next one will be. You will 100% do this I have no doubt. You're ahead of a lot of writers, especially at you're age, just having an agent 🥰

This came at the right time for me. I am feeling very behind but I have so many WIPs that I feel I can ever “catch up” with the publishing world. I appreciate how open and transparent this video is - sometimes it helps to see someone else experiencing the same thing to know you’re not alone and I don’t think this being a more negative video makes it any less valuable. To me, it inspired me to know I’m not alone, I can go at my own pace and that’s ok. ❤

Shaelin we know you are a great writer and a gem on this platform because your advice has helped hundreds of thousands of people! I know you and your KZread channel have helped me! 😂 We are rooting for you ❤

The fear of stagnation / decline that comes from unresponsive publishers is extremely real. The only way I’ve dealt with it has been by focusing on metrics within my own control (x submissions per week, a short story every two weeks, x words on the big WIP per week, whatever). It’s a numbers game when you get down to it, so it helps to make more numbers go up.

Sending so much love! I have listened to your channel for a long time, and wether you're published or not, you have helped me and a lot of other people in our writing journeys. You give good, helpful advice and inspire others. I do get what you mean with this stress. I think it's normal to feel pressure from other people when you are on social media and let other's in on your dreams. But try to see it as you're young, you're talented, you have time.

Umm hi friend, thanks for posting this. First off, there's nothing wrong with you. We were warned about the writing ~~biz~~ and this is why. I don't respect you less because you haven't published, I respect you more because of videos like this. I've read your stories, you're a great writer. That you're able and willing to be this honest about your career is respect-worthy on its own. Nobody worth your time is disappointed in you. I've also been writing since I was little, always thought I'd be a published author by now and yet here i am in my thirties and I haven't even finished a book. The disappointment and embarrassment I feel on the ~daily~ is immense. Is anybody where they thought they'd be at *insert age here*? It's life. If we've achieved like... 40% of what we wanted to, that's a solid score. Keep at it.

It’s honestly so encouraging to hear that you can have a great book that has nothing wrong with it and still struggle to gain that acceptance. It takes a lot of pressure off of my shoulders, because I am also struggling with feeling like I’m being left behind in an industry where experts say you have to go fast to succeed.

Can't speak for anyone else but I just started watching your channel a little while ago and I think your advice is good on its own merits. It never occurred to me to even question your status in terms of being published. I think you earn respect with your obvious expertise. I hope for your own sake you get published but from where I am I appreciate and enjoy your teaching whatever the case.

I... completely feel you. I don't really have anything super productive to add, just: I'm sorry you're going through it, and us the audience cannot be helping in making you feel secure in your own journey. Regardless, I believe many of us will be rooting for you for the entire time you getting something out there that you're truly proud of ends up taking. 💜

I so appreciate you being so open. It's so helpful. You are the best, Shaelin x

I think everyone feels behind? Like, to me, I see you as SO ahead in your writing career. Already killing it. Your skills, thoughtfulness, maturity. In reality, I don’t think anyone’s behind - as long you cut out comparison and external expectation. I’m 30, and I know you’d never tell me “don’t bother trying, you’re already too old” 😂. Because no one is ever too old to pursue their dream.

@luisaah5707

10 ай бұрын

Hey I am joining the 30s Club here😊

You kidding? It is through your videos that I first got a sense of what it takes to be a writer, and all the bits about structure, plotlines, pacing, and a ton of other stuff. Sure I knew about the struggles of famous writers (how else is art created) but your journey is what grounded my naive ideations and dreams, and tempered my expectations... I'm like 4 years older than you, but I learn from you as though you were a sister, a well-read, learned, and wise sister. Whenever I'm despairing or losing faith, I watch your videos and learn, and that little spark or 'Aha' moment I often get is what keeps me going. I'm nowhere even close to where you are, I'm damn sure. And definitely far, far away behind the curve. But where I feel sympathetic, as I'm sure many do, is that sense of impatience with the slow turn of time and perceived progress when it comes to writing and publishing. I guess it's the deal we all make with the devil. Like most writers, I'm well aware that writing is not as fast-paced as other arts, like music or painting or what have you. But people who know me, who see me struggling everyday (people who're not writers, or even readers for that matter), including my family and friends, do not exactly get it. And they ask: "Oh hey, what's up with the book you were writing like 4 years ago... Oh, you gave that up and started another one? How's that going?... Yeah, I know, it's not easy. But don't you think it's been too long?" etc. etc. They don't know that my life belongs to the written word, and time matters diddly. For as long as I'm typing, and thinking about my characters, the conflicts, the stories, the themes, and reading, I am inwardly fine, just fine, so please don't bother me with questions about when, and leave me to tend to my dreams. I know I'll stick with it my whole life, even if I have to continue slogging through a 9 to 5 to earn a living, even if I have to make sacrifices daily, and be frustrated, and have days when I wonder why the F did I choose this. But it is fleeting. I have learnt not to overthink these phases. For I, like many of my brothers and sisters in suffering, will never be content with just living a life and moving on. We are writers. We aspire for the immortality of art. We bleed and bare our souls on the page. And if it means trading a few decades of our lives for it, it really is the easiest bargain to make. I hope with all my heart that good things come to you, which I know they will. And if it takes a year, or ten, or twenty, then be resigned to it. Do what you do best. Write stories that no one but you can write. Eventually, when you'll be the rockstar author that I know you to be, and all those years of hard work and self-doubt will be repaid to you, with interest. Take heart. Sincerely.

I’m rooting for you Shaelin!

Also I just want to say how much I love your writing channel ❤. Your content is educational, motivating, inspiring. I love to follow you in your personal journey, and I learn so much from you in every video. To me, you’re unlike any creator on KZread. If you ever quit your channel, I’d still be so thankful for your incredible backlog.

sending you all the love and good vibes, Shaelin!! thanks for posting this honest discussion - I know most of the writers in my immediate circle are feeling this exact same way right now. there's definitely something to be said about the pressure of "writing publicly", worrying about how other people are perceiving our writer journeys, publicly "failing" etc. but publishing is so wacky and slow, now more than ever, and I'm sure you know it's not a reflection on you at all. your published work speaks for itself! I'm not even on sub yet and my agent also warned me that editors are taking a long time to get through their backlog (trying to level my expectations before I even start the process lol... 😭) I've no doubt we'll all get to hold your books one day! 💛

@ShaelinWrites

10 ай бұрын

thank you!! failing publicly is tough and was why I wanted to keep my publishing journey as private as possible but…here we are because I can’t help over share😅 it is good to know I’m not the only one - none of my close writing circle are at this stage so sometimes it starts to feel like it’s just a me problem even though I know the industry is just totally wack right now

Thank you for always supporting us in our writing journeys. We will happily support you in yours.

Just wanted to let you know that I’ve learned SO MUCH through your videos and really appreciate all the time and energy you’ve spent on your videos!! 🥰 You’ve made me feel a lot more confident in my writing and just having fun with it. You’re a really positive, supportive voice in this (what feels like a) very elitist circle. Thank you ❤

i love how vulnerable you became in this video / bless you/ and I pray for your future success

Thank you for your candor Shaelin 💟 Keep your head held high! You're a polished and disciplined writer, so publication will come one day

Thank you so much for being honest in this video: it's so relatable, as someone who's been writing the content of this book for 7 years and been actively working on it since the pandemic started. I feel the urge to make it perfect before I start querying and it is so anxiety inducing! I'm learning it's okay for us to feel the negative emotion and not try to fix it. I keep also just trying to change my metric for success whenever this kind of thing happens, but the publishing industry is so disappointing. Sending much love; thanks for building a community of writers who feel supported by your honesty and journey. Also remembering to self that once my work is out in the world, it's no longer just mine, so that's another feeling as I grapple with the potential haters one day lol.

I relate HARD to feeling stuck/disappointed in where you're at/like you're falling behind, and it's actually really reassuring to hear someone else being vulnerable enough to publicly admit to feeling that, so thank you for sharing this. I'm only like a year older than you and have been been writing & dreaming of having published novels since I was a child, but first uni and then fulltime work has really sapped my energy for writing so I don't even have a first draft and the disappointment in myself for that is REAL. From my perspective, I know publishing can be slow and everyone's journey with it is going to be unique. But also perception of time is Weird and much like I constantly forget it's not 2019 anymore, I hadn't realised you'd been on submission as long as you had! So I for one was like "well, publishing is slow, of course it's not published yet". Anyway I'm rooting for you and I look forward to reading Honey Vinegar whether it's published in one year or five (or twenty but hopefully you won't have to wait that long lol) :)

Shaelin, I get it. I grew up wanting to be an author and everyone in my life knew it, so the pressure of expectations from other ppl paralyzed me for a while in my 20s. I've had to adjust my own ideas of success etc. I have absolute confidence that you will publish and that you are a fantastic writer. I'm sorry that your KZread experience has made things tough for your writing journey. But you can trust that a lot of us believe in you and support you sincerely and wish all the best for you. No matter when or if you publish!

I think this is a common feeling for writers in their mid-twenties. Like you mentioned, there is a perception that you should be able to have an income, be published in major magazines, or publish a book, or else you're either not a talented writer or you don't take your craft seriously enough. But twenty-something is still so, so young. Your feelings are valid, and you should also be proud of all you've accomplished. You'll look back on this video when your book has been sold with so much joy and accomplishment. I started watching your channel 7 years ago when I was in high school, and I recently moved across the country for grad school to get my MFA in creative writing. You're still advancing in your career and impacting people by inspiring them to follow their dreams.

@ShaelinWrites

10 ай бұрын

I think this might be a common feeling for everyone in their mid-20s haha😅But thank you so much, and good luck on your MFA--that's amazing!

I'm glad you chose to talk about this because it shows that the road to publishing isn't perfect no matter how good you are and how hard you work at it. There's always going to be moments of doubt regardless of what stage of the journey you're in. Lots of us consider you a great writer even if you haven't published yet. Honestly a lot of the time it seems that publishing has so much to do with luck, having the right book at the right time, and other things that can be out of one's control (e.g. who you know, trends, etc.). There's no surefire way to do it.

@Nate1975

10 ай бұрын

Yes it’s never guaranteed no matter how good you are and yes, it takes years on submission and then, if you are lucky, it might happen. Luck does play a part in this oddly regardless of how hard one works

There is no way we don't see you as anything other than a writer. You practice your craft. You brilliantly teach your craft to others. We all know that the traditional publishing route is fraught with challenges. I would go as far as to say it is broken. The fact that you have not yet published your book is not a reflection on you or your abilities. I have given up several times trying to traditionally publish fiction. Turned to self-publishing. Then I write another book and try again, fail, and walk away. Like you, I have several books sitting in a file on my computer instead of on a bookshelf. Very frustrating.

Shaelin, you won't believe that I've been struggling with the exact same thing and though I'm a little younger than you, almost 18, I thought I'd publish a book before I'm 25 and seeing how hard it is and feeling like my book isn't good enough, I won't ever get there. I feel so bad for you, but I really pray YOUR dreams will come true! 😊❤

I completely understand where you're coming from, even where on my end I'd like to be more in the screenwriting end. The more I learn about the business and legal aspects, and even what format you specialize in, locations, meetings, and all the caveats, the more it feels like....wow how is this going to happen alongside of living my life, or life events in general? I have faith you'll get there, you're persistent and everything you share with us, helps. hang in there!

I needed to hear this today, in the querying process and was just having this conversation with my writing coach… thanks for the vulnerability 🙏🏻

I love you Shaelin. Very much. Thank you for all you do.

I really admire you opening up about this. I can relate because I've been considering starting my own channel where I'd make content centered around writing advice. My only hold up is I feel a bit like an imposter since I haven't had a book published yet either. Then I see channels like yours and it helps me realize that as long as your passion is on display and you offer sound advice, people will appreciate your content. I know I certainly do.

Listen. You owe NO ONE an apology. You're 26. That's INCREDIBLY young, shockingly young. I've been trying to be a writer since I was 12. I'm 36. And it's only recently that I've actually felt like a real writer. I'm still a baby, really. It's no big deal. We'll get there. Just keep going. But if you let other people get under your skin, it won't happen for you. You must create for yourself ONLY. You've got this. But don't rush it.

I’m not a writer myself , but as someone in the creative field , what really resonated with me ,is what you said about “ interpreting things out of (your) control as a personal failure” as I am really familiar with that reality. I think dialogues about this are very rare , and need to be discussed more. I applaud you for bringing that up , and sharing your frustrations. I also hope to start a “career” as a creative soon. I think my use of quotations might be telling of my current attitude, however.

You give the best advice that I’ve come across. I KNOW you’re going to get published. This struggle is just how your story goes.

You probably won’t see/read this but I sympathize with this SO MUCH. It literally felt like you were reading my mind. I wrote my first book when I was 14. I started my very first round of querying EVER when I was 15. I’m 26 now; got my Masters in English / Creative Writing, applied to an MFA program but had to drop out because of pregnancy/ Covid/ job loss/ etc. and now I’m working as a middle school teacher. I wrote my latest book in 2019, put it down for a few years and I’m 50% into my second round of revisions. I’m like you; I am a perfectionist and I take very long to finish a project. Its been accepted for a pitch session in November and I’m hoping I’ll get an agent, but It’s been taking forever. I also feel like I’ve been working on my writing for years. I’ve been published in magazines, got my degrees, etc. and it feels like I’m losing too. I also have struggled getting consistent feedback from readers. And I also feel the need to prove myself so that people don’t just see me as a teacher and forget that I’m a writer. But seeing this video and seeing how your words echoed my own thoughts reminds me that everything happens for a reason. I don’t know what that is yet, but I just wanted you to know you’re not alone. I’ve read some of you’re work, and it’s definitely helped a lot of my own writing. You’re actually good, seriously. You’re going to get there, don’t worry. It’s just a matter of time. We’re rooting for you!

I’m willing to wait until the end of time to read your book, Shaelin. A good story is worth it. :)

Thank you… so much for posting this. “The speed at which you write has nothing to do with skill.” I felt that, because it does feel like that is the general consensus… the imposter syndrome is so real too. I did not even know you had published works and was just reading what was online. I will check your description and happily support any of your work. Your writing is beautiful. Keep at it, it took Brandon Sanderson something like 10 or 13 books before he had success. He kept trying is the important part and I think with enough exposure you will easily be successful too.

Thanks for sharing that video. You are right, there are many other people going through the same thing or similar. Things will work out in the end and I can’t wait to hear that the book finally got published 🙏🏾🙌🏾

This sounds really hard. Thank you for sharing your journey and inspiring so many of us 💛

What you do is beautiful and authentic, Shaelin. Getting published is a detail…

The idea that querying is harder than being on submission is totally flawed. It's the survivorship bias phenomenon. I can't imagine how tough it was to open up about your experiences and feelings, but I'm so grateful you did. Your channel is truly a gem.

What a great post, difficult to watch, difficult to see your struggle. I learned a lot. Somewhere there’s a pithy quote about a writer’s world: the loneliness of writing, living in one's head, harrying perfection, the indignities of reaching one's limited skills and talent and mustering courage to plow ahead, all of it bound up in worry, overthinking, and wild swinging hope and plundering despair. It’s a grind. When I started writing a book (now in third draft), my chief concern was that it was too important to me; consuming, an obsession bordering on neurosis. Four years on, that sword of Damocles still hangs in my writing spot, real now as it was then. Shaelin, I can’t help think that once your book is published - and it WILL be published - there'll be a new set of doubts: promotion, pricing, blurbs, font, paper, cover. Sales! It’s maddening. And human. The writer’s lot. I value your channel. I’ve watched it for years and I hope it still informs you as it does me. Hands down, this is your best post yet. So brave!

I had a book go out on submission in 2018 that just never found a home. It's awful, but it happens. Then, last week, my agent got a response from one of the publishers he sent it to back then, saying it was a close call but they were rejecting the book. It took FIVE YEARS to get that response, and it was still a rejection! The publishing industry can be ridiculously slow sometimes. Fingers crossed that an acceptance is coming your way, even if it's coming slowly.

Submission is so difficult and I found harder than querying because you’re so so close to the dream coming true/the goal achieved. You’re just one yes away. So it feels so so much more agonizing. Especially because, like you seem to have experienced, acquiring is not just about liking the book and that’s hard. I only popped onto YT when I knew I’d sold something so I don’t really know how it is to have that pressure of people watching the prepub journey, but it’s kind of one of those things that doesn’t stop. Like, you publish one book and then people wonder when the next one is coming and so on and so forth. So whatever strategies or things you can manage to get in place now, I find, is really helpful. Though I know much easier said than done 😅 it’s hard not to think about the opinions of other people. Especially if you have a large platform where people feel very comfortable demanding “results” from you

@ShaelinWrites

10 ай бұрын

Oooh you really hit the nail on the head with the "just one yes away makes it so much more agonizing." It really is a "the closer you get, the further you feel" situation. And haha I had a sinking feeling that this type of pressure would never go away, but hearing it from you, I will definitely start mentally preparing now 😅

@LiselleSambury

10 ай бұрын

@@ShaelinWrites yeahhhh, I feel like as an industry, so many of the same hardships repeat in publishing just at different stages. So the sooner you can develop coping strategies, the better. Like you said, it doesn’t get easier, but I feel like it helps me manage better and I spend less time in the sad pit of despair and self doubt

This really hit home. I've been stuck for...a year? Two years? On the last 4 chapters of my novel and it's a million different reasons beating me down on finishing it, including the idea of the struggle of publishing. There's this feeling like I'm falling behind and failing, even though I know it's not the case. Hearing you talk about this helped me rethink how I'm letting my stresses weigh me down. Thank you for sharing your thoughts ❤

We totally love and support your work. Let's hope this year your book will get published. And we will get our signed first editions soon ❤😊. #keepgoing.

From Jami Attenberg’s recent newsletter: I am just trying to be honest with all of you. Peaceful and nervous, nervous and peaceful. This is my tenth book and I still feel this way! There is no guarantee of anything. We remain unsteady forever in this career, but we do it because we love it and when it’s right, and everything is working, it’s the only thing that feels quite like it.

@rivermay109

10 ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing this

I understand! I feel behind because I'm maybe a year or two older than you but haven't even started querying yet, so I think everyone feels it on some level 😅 you're not alone!

I wrote the first of my numerous books 20 years ago. I was a kid then, but I'm a few years older than you are. I write genre fiction and started independant publishing at 23. Ten years ago. I've yet to really break in financially, so sometimes I catch myself in the same sort of dilemma. Nobody has to tell me it's taken a long time. I know (For my stuff) what I'm doing wrong, but it's taking a long time to implement the changes I need to make. This video helped remind me of that fact. Rejection can be brutal, which is one reason I went indie. I probably don't need to remind you that you're seeking traditional publication with a literary-fiction project, which both can increase the slowness of getting the book edited and released. I think you're on point here with what you said about the state of the industry and the world. Cut yourself all the slack you can, and good luck.

I know how you feel. I started as an 8 year old and I’m now 28 so I feel so disappointed that I’ve not “made it yet” and every now and then that can really hurt. You’re further along than me and many others, celebrate the achievements you have, write something else while you wait, and enjoy the journey as you’re on the road. Good luck with subs x

Dear Shaelin, I respect you because I listen to your voice concerning writing. I am a new wanna be writer and have viewed your insights over and over. Your short story and story beat coverage is top grade. Very relatable teacher. Good look with Honey Vinegar... I have been working 8 years on my own story. Thank you for your service to the writing community.

"It's really hard to be gentle with myself when I feel like other people aren't giving me the same grace" ----> love that quote, seems to me like this cuts right to the core (not that I'd be qualified to tell)

Shaelin, you are an inspiration to me and so many others. Please try to ignore the rude, obnoxious people who wish you ill. Please write them off completely. Too many of them take pleasure in seeing others suffer. They are not worth your time, energy, or consideration. You will never be liked by absolutely everyone. Even if all the most beautiful things happen with Honey Vinegar, some will automatically trash it. Regardless of your book deal. Regardless of awards and positive reviews. Regardless of copies sold, etc. You are such a thoughtful, considerate, passionate human being. You have exposed yourself and your journey for all to see and learn from. This has been an immense achievement. Others automatically feel the need to tear down success. I respect you and appreciate your frustration with getting published. It will happen. Please don’t allow the unreasonable, unsupportive trolls to have so much impact on your psyche. Cut them out. You will never please those asses wishing to see you fall. Follow your journey. Give yourself more than the grace you feel you deserve.

I'm sorry to hear that other people's perceptions are so important to you. I recommend doing what you think is best for uou and associating with people who dont judge you based on your novel progression. Best wishes.

I don’t know how much one comment can really do to reassure you, but I am so far from watching these waiting for you to fail. Of all the writing people I follow on KZread, you really stand out as someone who is committed to their craft, to learning and growing. You consistently offer advice that feels less weighed down by opinion and personal taste than others. I will cheer any success that comes your way and my only real expectation is that you will write the books you want to write. Publishing involves so much luck and so much less depends on quality or originality than we are lead to believe. You are still young. Life is long and you will make a lot of books. Just keep moving forward, regardless of speed.

I think your fears of judgement & people waiting on your failure, or wondering what's taking so long is valid. Humans are some of the best and worst individuals we can currently meet. It also makes sense to have a more negative writing relationship per having a platform as to not having one. Having a platform, one that is growing and about a subjective subject is like having a cloud over you. There are so many opinions and so many perspectives, plenty of which are pointed towards you in a negative way. The statement "I feel like I'm in a race but I don't know against who." Is incredibly valid. I feel that way about many things in my life. I think with you losing the sense of your own hard work, is showing you might need to slow down. In this video I can feel your thoughts racing at a mile a minute, take a breath, slow it down. Comparison is the death of creation, I have absolutely no doubt that your book will be excellent. As you yourself also believe. That book will be published when it's meant to be published. It's on its own timeline and so are you. While I do understand the factor you stated when it comes to the writing world being less gentle. Keeping your gentleness with yourself is key, and it sounds like you're trying to do that. That's all you can do, feel your emotions, experience them fully, but remember you are doing the best you can, and that is quite literally all you can do.

Hi Shaelin, thanks for the very honest video. It's hard to push back against external expectations about what makes us successful. As an academic, I've seen plenty of people fail to get jobs and then see themselves as failures, because of the mindset within the academy that success looks like only one thing-- tenure track at a research institution, then success in the journals. A lot of these "failures" are people that others outside the profession would view as brilliant successes-- PhD's, super-knowledgeable, publish research, teach at college (even if it's just community college or whatever). But they can't escape internalizing those external expectations of their peers as to what counts as success. This is always something that's difficult to navigate, and I don't have a magic pill to help you out, but I would like to say that as someone who is just now trying my hand at writing fiction, you are a great success and inspiration to me, and I wish you the best in navigating your life in a way such that it always seems that way to you as well.

I am emotionally invested af and will be celebrating like crazy when you get published. I was 11 when publishing a novel became my dream, and I told everyone, which I regret. 32 now and I only write in secret. There was an emotional toll from acquaintances who would ask how a novel was going, and though I know it was only to make polite small talk, I would feel humiliated and like I had let them down. I've always wondered how many people I used to know must think I'm a failure. You're doing so much better than I am. So many of your advice videos have struck chords with me when dozens of others haven't. Any (miniscule) portion of your audience who want you to fail do NOT matter, just web dwellers who feed on feeling superior while achieving nothing for themselves. Even if takes years longer, you rock.

This is a courageous video! Thank you for sharing your feelings! They are absolutely legitimate and normal. This is a crazy field. It’s at least as challenging and emotionally taxing as being an Olympic athlete.

I’m just starting out and finding your videos very helpful. I am 41 years old just for perspective. I obviously can’t relate to the specific challenges you’re going through. Maybe I’ll be there by the time I’m 60. ;). What I can say though is stop worrying about what other people think and how other people feel. If it’s just a waiting game now, pour that energy into your next project and have fun. It’s a job but it’s also a calling right? Thanks again for your great videos.

honestly in reality, in a lot of artistic industries, I think it can take a while for things to come out or be published, but most of us are exposed to stories of relatively quick success so that's what we come to think is normal and expect of ourselves and especially of others. Now obviously like you said you've been writing for almost 2 decades so that is hardly 'quick', but in terms of how long your book has been out in the world trying to get published, that isn't very long at all (at least to me? I know famous authors who've had award winning books on subimission for literal years. 10 months doesn't immediately sound like a long time to me). That's not to invalidate your feelings - feeling impatient, disappointed and weighed down by pressure are all natural parts of the process, because you're experiencing all of this in real time, and it's hard. But I think seeing things from bird's eye view can be helpful and give perspective, at least for me. That's why I've always liked the phrase 'it took 20 years to become an overnight success', the eventual success often overshadows the years and years of work and of frustration and impatience and disappointment that was experienced along the way, because we only see the end result. It also overshadows the relevance of taking your time to develop a skill set or a creative venture to the point where we can be proud of it when it goes into the world. That is NEVER something we should apologize for. I think it's honestly unreasonable for any of your viewers or anyone else to put pressure on you about when you're getting published, as if that is something you have complete control over. You''ll get published when you get published. All you can do is put time and effort into whatever will help that process along, and fundamentally WHEN it happens doesn't add or detract from the quality of the finished book.

I'm waiting for the day to buy your book. I've never wanted to buy the book of those who write on KZread until you! I have faith. As someone who works (kinda) in publishing and is querying their first book, I understand how slow publishing is. It's post covid. It's not your fault at all. Everything is slower now

Shaelin, I’ve been watching your channel since 2017 or 2018 and I’ve always been impressed with the educational value of your videos and the depth and passion you have for the craft of writing. I am 10 years older than you and as a screenwriter and novelist/short fiction writer, I definitely had not found my voice as a writer yet when I was 26. I didn’t even start getting my short fiction published until 2020 because even though I was used to rejection from screenwriting, I did not know much about publishing short stories. But I have learned so much from watching your channel and seeing your journey! Maybe it’s because I’m more familiar with publishing and am a writer myself (I have a lot of author friends and am also a paid beta/sensitivity reader and also have a short story in a traditionally published anthology coming out next month)-but I never once thought, “what’s taking Shaelin so long?” As someone who teaches writing workshops, I also see you have a gift for teaching/educating/mentoring. I hope HONEY VINEGAR finds the right editor when the time is right as I’m sure it will. I will be querying soon and I also feel like I’m falling behind. This video helps me feel like I’m not so alone, even though I’m not on sub yet. Thanks for sharing your vulnerability with us! I hope we get to read your beautiful queer novels someday! 💜

@ShaelinWrites

10 ай бұрын

Thanks so much and all the luck to you with querying!!

I relate. I have always been a writer and loved it. Being an author is the only dream I remember and I've had it since I was a kid. I encountered an author I respected in my early 20s and they offered to read my work. I was stunned. They said they loved it and wanted to help me get it out...but they ended up really wrecking me as a writer and fractured my relationship with writing. I'm 35 with nothing published since that situation. No agent. I thought by 35 I'd be established. It's a rough field. You're doing awesome and I'm cheering you on.

This video really helped me put things in perspective

Sorry that your having these negative thoughts. I know how this can spiral. You and your channel have meant a lot to me and others. I've learned so much. I haven't published either. Can't wait to read Honey Vinager🙂🙂🙂