Adam Calhoun ft. Mesus - Dying ( Official Music Video)

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Lyrics:
Oh I think I'm dying
I will [?]
Oh I think I'm dying
I wish I was all around
Oh I think I'm dying
I'm gonna keep it real, whatcha know about takin' pills
Poppin' these xan-, panic attacks
Losin' my mind, feel like I'm dyin', ha
I can't believe what I'm sayin'
You thinkin' I'm playin', I'm diggin' my grave right now
I'm crazy, you'd probably kill yourself
If you knew the shit that I was thinkin' about, ha ha
How can I breathe, cuttin' my sleeve
I'm watchin' it bleed
Maybe that will take the pain away
No more rainy days
You talkin' to me?
Just let me be, I need some sleep
Why you think I cut so deep?
You'll never see what's underneath
Please I need some peace
I'm gonna keep it real, I'm gonna speak how I feel
When I'm drivin' feel like swearvin' the wheel
Right and a left, you think that I'm playin'
I'm treatin' every song, I'm writtin' my will, yeah
This one right here's for everyone out there that's like me battle depression
Been to hell and back and I can tell that I go back and just can't learn my lesson
Coutin' my blessin's but suck at the math
So every blessin' I keep cuttin' in half
So all of my problems keep addin' up
While my solutions keep cuttin' in half, yeah, yeah, yeah
Know that they hate me, they say that they love me
Don't call me crazy but I need the company
So fuck with me though, yeah
Oh I think I'm dying
I will [?]
Oh I think I'm dying
I wish I was all around
Oh I think I'm dying
I'm gonna keep it a mil, last year I made a million
Still it ain't change how I feel
Still fuckin' with the same bottle of pills
Went from my brothers basement to a house with no payments
And dealin' with fuckers that I wanna kill
I gotta chill, I don't know how
I wish you could feel, what I'm talkin' about
I'm all by myself, talkin' out loud
No one can help, I feel like I'm drowin', ha ha
Shit is so cold, I'm losin' control
I'm losin' my soul, but I know I never sold it, no
Devil must have stole it, yeah
And that motherfucker is gonna have to deal with me
If I go to hell I'm takin' over
I'm gonna keep it a secret, I ain't gon' tell nobody about these thoughts that are creepin' into my mind
So you think that I'm fine
You think I'm cryin' wolf when I say that I'm dyin', ah
I ain't gon' tell nobody that I'm scared of keepin' guns in the house
I ain't gon' tell nobody that I actually put guns in my mouth
Fuck you know about
Russian roulette with a loaded gun
Handle of vodka and still ain't drunk
I cannot tell nobody that I'm suicidal, no I just keep it bottled up
Bottle of pills are the [?] razor play, [?]
Cross my heart hope to die, jump in [?]
No I'm not fuckin' playin', [?]
Thinkin' it's just a game 'til I blow out my fuckin' brains
Oh I think I'm dying
I will [?]
Oh I think I'm dying
I wish I was all around
Oh I think I'm dying

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  • @UpchurchOfficial
    @UpchurchOfficial5 жыл бұрын

    HOLYYYY SHIIIIT 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

  • @cajunsniper573

    @cajunsniper573

    5 жыл бұрын

    Ryan Upchurch upchurch 🤘🤘🤘 love you brother. Keep listening from Louisiana.

  • @crazyboehle1

    @crazyboehle1

    5 жыл бұрын

    Upchurch and Adam need to hear another song with y’all!

  • @JoH-bu5nz

    @JoH-bu5nz

    5 жыл бұрын

    sup Church man 😀

  • @SheldonGoff

    @SheldonGoff

    5 жыл бұрын

    Exactly

  • @Kaizer357

    @Kaizer357

    5 жыл бұрын

    Ryan Upchurch #RHEC You should do a song such like this other than don’t come knocking 🤣, we all know you’re going through shit daily

  • @elizabethfabricius376
    @elizabethfabricius3764 жыл бұрын

    I'm struggling with PTSD as a vet. This shit is beyond real.... Thank you for this cuz it makes me feel like I'm not alone.

  • @danfry7999

    @danfry7999

    3 жыл бұрын

    Praying for u thank you for your service

  • @jessiegerdes7256

    @jessiegerdes7256

    3 жыл бұрын

    Facts

  • @rnflnardone1202

    @rnflnardone1202

    2 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for your service too many of us struggle with PTSD hang in there it's not gonna get any better anytime soon. The traumas gotta stop but the only way we stop it is to stop the sin.

  • @josephrainbolt3849

    @josephrainbolt3849

    2 жыл бұрын

    I'm a vet too...I feel you.

  • @BigJake328

    @BigJake328

    2 жыл бұрын

    Your not alone sis we're here for ya. PTSD is an SOB just keep push. Call on your brothers when the demons come and we'll fight them together

  • @REDBANDITOFFICIAL1
    @REDBANDITOFFICIAL15 жыл бұрын

    Been dealing with suicidal thoughts since I was a little kid. I can't fathom how much I relate to this song.. especially the lyrics "they say they love me, but I know they don't mean it" and to keep it bottled up. Never being able to tell anyone for fear nobody wants to be around you for it. I have a wife and 2 beautiful baby girls. I live and breathe every breath I take for them. If not for my babies, I would've been by now. Thank you for coming out with this! Hold strong!

  • @mattwright2954
    @mattwright29543 жыл бұрын

    Dude made this 2 years ago...and im just hearing it today....still just as real. Fire bro

  • @badasssportsman8258
    @badasssportsman82585 жыл бұрын

    Just when I thought there was nothing to get me through the hard times I’m in.. thank you Adam. Sincerely.

  • @Backflipspagetti
    @Backflipspagetti5 жыл бұрын

    Thanks Adam. I deal with the same shit with no meds. 47 years a prisoner on earth. Paradise became a prison and prison became my home. Dont worry im digging now. Digging out to save me. See what your therapy does to me! Im Trying to drop lines. Anyways, Thanks again for being so open about something that's been taboo to talk about. Unlearned people see it as weakness. But great strength is achieved in the fire.

  • @brandybrantner5332

    @brandybrantner5332

    5 жыл бұрын

    Same here hunny

  • @jasontucker8847

    @jasontucker8847

    5 жыл бұрын

    Facts! Through the ashes builds new life!

  • @user-ph7wz7dq6w

    @user-ph7wz7dq6w

    3 жыл бұрын

    Cures are on the way..research med beds..all evil being brought down including big pharma mafia..good times ahead..god wins

  • @anonymousformysafety4941

    @anonymousformysafety4941

    3 жыл бұрын

    Amen

  • @user-hi6fv3zb7s
    @user-hi6fv3zb7s8 ай бұрын

    The truth is a deep wound. However trying just to survive is a constant bleeding wound. There's no cure for the pain, only numbness. Then there's times no matter how hard you try you just can't get numb. Those are the days you Pray come as far and few between as possible. Thank You Mesus and Adam for this cut

  • @zacckeglee6341
    @zacckeglee63414 жыл бұрын

    This song is for all of us that carry the weight of the world on our shoulders and smile on our face, just because we carry it well doesn’t mean it isn’t heavy

  • @rickoaks2768
    @rickoaks27685 жыл бұрын

    6 psych ward visits in a year over depression. Never heard a song that connected so deep. Adams a true artist and I'm so glad for this music

  • @mountainmangaming1160
    @mountainmangaming11604 жыл бұрын

    To real this is the fifth time watching in a row my heart hurt listening to it cuz this is my thoughts 100%

  • @TinkDayzeepetal

    @TinkDayzeepetal

    4 жыл бұрын

    You're not the only one hon..

  • @gotskinn

    @gotskinn

    4 жыл бұрын

    Bob S is very much right. EVERYTHING changes. The pain caused by not stickin it out is brutal to your friends & family. kzread.info/dash/bejne/d5uqz7xtk5yoZJc.html

  • @TinkDayzeepetal

    @TinkDayzeepetal

    4 жыл бұрын

    @Gregory Austin You're not alone hon..

  • @TinkDayzeepetal

    @TinkDayzeepetal

    4 жыл бұрын

    @Gregory Austin Thank you.. >blush< ☺️ I meant it.. Sometimes it helps knowing that you aren't the only one that is struggling hard. I've been going through a lot & it makes me question what I ever did that was so wrong to deserve all of it.. My best friend committed suicide (she put a shotgun in her mouth and pulled the trigger). She was 17 & we were inseparable. A few years later, my younger brother died suddenly from malignant hyperthermia & it was a week from his 25th birthday. Then, I was engaged & I got pregnant, however, I lost the baby in the 2nd trimester. I learned that I had to have surgery to have my uterus, fallopian tubes, and my ovaries taken out. Now, I'm with a much better man & we got married, however I'm unable to give him children..😔. Then, my sister-in-law was killed.. And then exactly a year later, my older brother & last sibling committed suicide & I found him dead in the bathroom the next morning.. He was 34. Then, later that same year (last year) on Christmas morning, my older brother's son's mother comitted suicide & was found dead in her bed that morning. Also, my Grandmom had died on Christmas morning. Christmas was also my older brother's birthday. I don't celebrate that holiday anymore. Then, on New Year's day my NaNa passed away. I suffer from PTSD from a horrible incident that happened to me & also because everyone I love either dies or goes away.. There's a lot more, however, I think I said enough for now.. I certainly hope that you are hanging in there.. People do care.. You're not alone.. Our problems may not be the same, however, we are both moving forward under terrible circumstances.. It reminds me of a lyric that I've always loved from a Tori Amos song.. "Hold on to nothing as fast as you can.." ~~❤

  • @fjvilla1

    @fjvilla1

    4 жыл бұрын

    🙌

  • @davidheinrich1517
    @davidheinrich15173 жыл бұрын

    Mesus OMG what a man. His music speaks volumes. Along with Adam Calhoun they killed this cut. The REALITY of living in 2020

  • @mentalhell6669
    @mentalhell66694 жыл бұрын

    How tf am I just now hearing g this song a year later

  • @easttexasbarbellclub

    @easttexasbarbellclub

    4 жыл бұрын

    Same

  • @_Kere_

    @_Kere_

    4 жыл бұрын

    big TRUE

  • @jordanadams7475

    @jordanadams7475

    4 жыл бұрын

    Idk man but this song is lit

  • @damongates7814

    @damongates7814

    4 жыл бұрын

    Right!! I feel the same

  • @theodorallert842

    @theodorallert842

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@damongates7814 Thats legit how I felt 9 months ago. Popped on my playlist exactly when I was feeling this.

  • @somedude1590
    @somedude15905 жыл бұрын

    New calhoun and church in the same 24hrs !? Damn this the christmas that keeps on giving !

  • @The_knifeaholic

    @The_knifeaholic

    5 жыл бұрын

    Some dude hell ya I was thinking the same thing

  • @AlwaysHonestReviews

    @AlwaysHonestReviews

    5 жыл бұрын

    Thank God for Church and Calhoun the real country artists this country needed.

  • @tiffanymartin-jm9sk

    @tiffanymartin-jm9sk

    2 ай бұрын

    Y’all know this song is mesus and Adam not upchurch?

  • @jessiegerdes7256
    @jessiegerdes72563 жыл бұрын

    I can't stop listening. As a ptsd disabled veteran this hits home. Pills more pills can't tell the truth about how you feel. This is 💯💯

  • @evangristwood7456

    @evangristwood7456

    11 ай бұрын

    Thank u for your service

  • @steve41776

    @steve41776

    8 ай бұрын

    Thank you for your service sorry for your sacrifice

  • @edwardsheets926
    @edwardsheets9265 жыл бұрын

    You have no idea how close to home your music hits. I suffer daily from more issues than I could list. . Daily antidepressants daily anxiety 4 sleep meds just to rest 5 hours. You know that feeling when a preacher has a sermon and it feels like he is speaking directly to you. ... Well this song just did that to me.!!!!

  • @maddie7275
    @maddie72754 жыл бұрын

    Thank y’all for this. Mental illness still has a stigma attached to it. Songs and representations like this bring to light our struggles and shows that there are many of us. We are not something to be ashamed of. 💚

  • @olivebranchtreecare1000
    @olivebranchtreecare10005 жыл бұрын

    The message needs to be told Daily! You are not alone and your life matters. It’s not the weak that can relate to this song it’s the people that isolate themselves. You can be the strongest one in the herd and if you get isolated and look up and you got 8 Lions standing there. They’ve been stocking you and you didn’t even know it. It’s about community. It’s about family. It’s about friends. You are not alone and you do matter. I got to be honest with you Adam there hasn’t been much out there to be a fan of. But between what you and Upchurch have been doing. It’s inspiring! Keep up the good work! And good luck with your training.

  • @69himmel

    @69himmel

    5 жыл бұрын

    Check out Tom Macdonald if you haven't yet. He is fire also... he does stuff that matters also..

  • @jenniferrider5931

    @jenniferrider5931

    4 жыл бұрын

    🤫🤦

  • @bittemoke

    @bittemoke

    3 жыл бұрын

    Jelly Roll also make music about life and depression. real life struggles he had and still have, and you can clearly hear that he puts his heart, soul and emotions into his music to the point that you can feel them. and i can relate to alot of what he rap and sings about from my past aswell. so i highly recommend you check him out aswell. hands down one of my favorite musicians.

  • @WhoTFisJustinTime
    @WhoTFisJustinTime5 жыл бұрын

    Broooooo.... this is DOPE!!!!!!!

  • @buckallen6548

    @buckallen6548

    5 жыл бұрын

    WhoTFisJustinTime? .

  • @justinkeim8096

    @justinkeim8096

    5 жыл бұрын

    No, whats dope is the dope 10 year old kids are watchin their parents do and they dont have a voice in the court system, yet on youtube they can listen to my boy adam cry ab bs mental illness...boofuckinhoooo...worry ab the kids and they future, not ur past...crybaby...GET A FUCKIN HELMET

  • @benwishard1718

    @benwishard1718

    5 жыл бұрын

    I thought that was you in the video 😂

  • @stephijay9940

    @stephijay9940

    5 жыл бұрын

    Might just save me

  • @semi.g

    @semi.g

    5 жыл бұрын

    @@justinkeim8096 what ?

  • @mattsweitzer6302
    @mattsweitzer63025 жыл бұрын

    As many times as I have listened to every single Calhoun song and every cossetti song. This one still hits home the most. Sober or drunk it brings a tear.

  • @austinbass2677
    @austinbass26773 жыл бұрын

    Verse 2 mesus. One of the greatest verses of all time

  • @americanmade1004
    @americanmade10045 жыл бұрын

    That s*** is pretty heavy man

  • @Derickhart

    @Derickhart

    5 жыл бұрын

    If you only knew

  • @justinkeim8096

    @justinkeim8096

    5 жыл бұрын

    Bs cry ass dude...

  • @ericacanada9068

    @ericacanada9068

    5 жыл бұрын

    It's heavy af, but bad AF! AWESOME DUDE FR!!

  • @tawnypettigrew274
    @tawnypettigrew2744 жыл бұрын

    Dear LOURDES!! Everything you mention has made me feel I am not crazy nor alone with this state of mind.I am the same non one gets it no one understands which makes you feel even more crazy!! It's a fucked up place too be when the ones who LOVE you can't even listen or try to understand a thing you have to say..it aint even 10% of the shit that goes on 24/7 in my head, I can't even get any relief of what inside of my head cause my head hits the pillow here it comes again but in another place dimension not even sure what it really is only thing I know when I wake up I feel like I need to sleep again just to get a break from this bullshit that makes me crazy on a daily inside my head. Whhoaa!! THANK YOU THANK YOU! For this! I am crying tears that have needed to even shredded a long time ago!💙💥✌🙌👍💓

  • @AnonymousJuggalo
    @AnonymousJuggalo3 жыл бұрын

    I've watched this hundreds of times. It hits home every fucking time. It is tough just being here. Everyday is a new battle.

  • @candicepeterson2432
    @candicepeterson24325 жыл бұрын

    Found this right after the man who raised me passed!!! A couple weeks ago, youu have saved my life!!!! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING U DO

  • @Ellis157
    @Ellis1575 жыл бұрын

    PAIN GIVES YOU STRENGTH WITH OUT PAIN we are nothing

  • @staciespain821

    @staciespain821

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yes for sure

  • @jamescoffey2947
    @jamescoffey29475 жыл бұрын

    All day everyday brother. Speak that truth. Keep on killin it

  • @ashleytraughber6200
    @ashleytraughber62005 жыл бұрын

    I think I speak for everyone, that deals with Mental Illnesses, that this song is on point! Ppl who don't deal with Mental Illness have NO CLUE what it's like to struggle with the ill thoughts of the mind. I'm 35 and just recently started dealing with depression, after movin from TN to IL. The winters fuck with me so bad! Depression runs in my mothers blood line, so I watched her suffer on and off with it growing up. Struggling to keep her head above water, raising 3 kids on her own! I have so MUCH respect for her and what she gave up to make things work for us as a family bc her own mother gave her and two siblings to someone else to raise . So the way I see it is that she could have continued tht cycle when her and my father divorced when I was 5. She had 2 kids and was pregnant with their third, all by the age of 20 yrs old. When she would have her boughts of Depression, I remember tellin myself tht I'd never be like that. Well I'm eattin those words! Lol! All we can do is remember that it might take us down for a min but it will NEVER keep us down! And that we are NEVER ALONE! So many folks suffer from depression and other mental illnesses and there is ALWAYS someone willing to listen and help. My Great Auntie, my Mom's Aunt, killed her self from depression as well, after tking Prozac, so this topic ways heavy on my soul. If anyone that's reading this needs someone willing to listen, just give me a shout and I will respond. We all are ONE with this earth so we need to be there for our own! Much 💜 to you, Adam & Mesus, for bringin this subject out to shine more light on it. I seen y'alls preformance in Madison, last week and 💗 it! Will definitely come to another show!

  • @0707moto
    @0707moto5 жыл бұрын

    """The devil have to deal with me if I go to hell I'll take over""" damn one hell of a song great job on this one.

  • @deadmeme6104
    @deadmeme61045 жыл бұрын

    Depression and anxiety at the same time is no joke

  • @leeanntaylor1622

    @leeanntaylor1622

    Жыл бұрын

    Fr

  • @Itz_sprinkled_portal

    @Itz_sprinkled_portal

    Жыл бұрын

    I got both

  • @cajun1253

    @cajun1253

    Жыл бұрын

    No it’s not a joke. It ruined my family … tore in in 2 all because 1 person couldn’t see themselves as worthy of love n not just from me , they couldn’t see themselves as worthy of love from their 2 kids either 😞. Got so bad that it made ‘em leave their family and kids. The depression and anxiety is horrible but the ripple effect they cause is mad crazy. It’s something most people don’t see or truly understand.

  • @nscriven28
    @nscriven285 жыл бұрын

    Number one baby keep it up

  • @lightninglb
    @lightninglb5 жыл бұрын

    Adam Calhoun you literally took what's going on in my brain put it into words. Brother the hell we go through is tough to say the least but the more we get the word out hopefully better times are ahead.

  • @JustanotherJoe-ys2vh
    @JustanotherJoe-ys2vh6 ай бұрын

    I could honestly say this happens to a large percentage of men. “Real men”Thanks Adam and Mesus! ✝️

  • @harleybooth7327
    @harleybooth73275 жыл бұрын

    Never clicked on a notification so quick. Love the work Adam 👍

  • @bluecollartoker1503

    @bluecollartoker1503

    5 жыл бұрын

    💯💯💯💯😂😂😂😂

  • @orincolvin6184

    @orincolvin6184

    5 жыл бұрын

    Same here

  • @JammyD3014
    @JammyD30145 жыл бұрын

    THIS!!! such bars i felt everything down to my soul, spoke to me in a way a therapist never could had me feeling stuff i never should!! quickly becoming my anthem!!!!!!!

  • @jacoba.bibybiby5776
    @jacoba.bibybiby57764 жыл бұрын

    Sounds like I'm not the only one. Real talk the only thing that keeps me tethered to this plain of existence is my children and every day i thank God for them.

  • @hughjanus9136
    @hughjanus91364 жыл бұрын

    When I was 21 years old I put a pistol to my temple and pulled the trigger, it was a dud, only burnt my temple, I took it as a sign it wasn't my time, I had many great years after that that I was glad I lived. Don't let depression rob you of your future and times to come.

  • @damongates7814

    @damongates7814

    4 жыл бұрын

    I feel that too real my dude to sad I was 9 and 11 when it happen to me

  • @Eagleeye537

    @Eagleeye537

    4 жыл бұрын

    Good thing it was a dud, most people don't get a second chance to rethink what they are doing. I had fought my depression for so long putting knives to my neck, choking myself out with sheets and put guns to my head. Depression sucks Upchurch and Adam pushed me mentally to not go out like that.

  • @ethand.7801

    @ethand.7801

    4 жыл бұрын

    Dude I'm not even sure of god is real but if he is he was definitely there for you that day

  • @maddie7275

    @maddie7275

    4 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for being here

  • @raidermaxx2324

    @raidermaxx2324

    4 жыл бұрын

    i know a dude that blew off his entire lower jaw with a shotgun and lived.. his life is worse now than it was before.

  • @meredithgrubb7031
    @meredithgrubb70314 жыл бұрын

    Ive never ever heard any other artist describe what ive been thru like this. Theyve tried but its never the same. This is some real shit.

  • @megansardis602
    @megansardis6025 жыл бұрын

    This is so great, I have a TBI and suffer from multiple mental issues, I feel this song hardcore. I'm sad we can relate on this subject. Love you man!!

  • @megansardis602

    @megansardis602

    5 жыл бұрын

    @Michael Corleone I try my hardest to be the me I was before that horrible morning and I do it for my kids too, was 2 weeks pregnant with my first when I was hit and having her with me still and healthy at 11 I am thankful for every breath and try to make the best of each moment with my family. Thank you for your kind words.

  • @stumpydevil3508
    @stumpydevil35084 жыл бұрын

    This song speaks truth for me I am a father being alienated from his kids as I am recovering from a amputation.. Stay strong everyone who is suffering

  • @roberthoffman6415
    @roberthoffman64153 жыл бұрын

    Bro your music hits home more times than not your music helps so many of us deal with a lot of stuff. Sometimes its the reality we need that we are not the only ones thinking it.

  • @KlassiKemcee
    @KlassiKemcee3 жыл бұрын

    Every so often I come back to this master piece!!!! 🔥🔥🔥💯

  • @pattymcgovern5521

    @pattymcgovern5521

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yep

  • @lucky13driver
    @lucky13driver5 жыл бұрын

    Adam I needed to hear this...good to know I'm not alone.

  • @odinspride545
    @odinspride5455 жыл бұрын

    Adam Calhoun has came a long ways ,he raps about real life shit .I love him and Upchurch rapping together.

  • @bobbistevens5648
    @bobbistevens56484 жыл бұрын

    Adam, I think you must be one of the very bravest of men, to put such raw feelings out there. To let people see the aren't the only ones who feel this way. Thank you and God bless.

  • @PerpetualAphid0
    @PerpetualAphid04 жыл бұрын

    jesus christ, this is too real right now.

  • @cannon1103
    @cannon11034 жыл бұрын

    This song hits home so much, living with demons from PTSD depression and the loss of brothers in Iraq this is legit how I feel all the time

  • @liamdodoveci

    @liamdodoveci

    4 жыл бұрын

    Steven cannon all the best man

  • @anthonychesery3841

    @anthonychesery3841

    4 жыл бұрын

    Let the King bring you center my good man walk with the power in you to be you. Praying for you

  • @Danny-vk3xb

    @Danny-vk3xb

    4 жыл бұрын

    Chills everytime bro, but today I have to take care of my family, I do that by going to work tomorrow...

  • @awest4775

    @awest4775

    4 жыл бұрын

    Salute warrior. Your not alone in the fight. Praise the lord your here your purpose is out there.

  • @creekin4lifemo313

    @creekin4lifemo313

    4 жыл бұрын

    Yeah same here. i should probably stop drinking now.

  • @citizentactics5227
    @citizentactics52272 жыл бұрын

    "They say that they love me but I know that they hate me though,they call me crazy but I need the company so fuck with me though " I've felt that since junior high

  • @jREm3dI
    @jREm3dI5 жыл бұрын

    People just don't understand it man. You don't even know how much this song has helped me at least for now. But it won't be long. It's never lasting.....

  • @americanswang95
    @americanswang955 жыл бұрын

    To show the gravity of this....If you truly have had a gun in your mouth and glad your still here ...hit the 👍 I'll start it off with the first like .Got love for YALL💪🇺🇸💪🇺🇸💪🇺🇸#WEALLMATTER

  • @wildershoney2439

    @wildershoney2439

    4 жыл бұрын

    Never went THAT far but struggled for 3 years with deep depression, 2 months no shower in the bed, so I feel this.

  • @jaronchatman4229

    @jaronchatman4229

    4 жыл бұрын

    We overcome my man, no other way but to conquer those demons and persevere 💪

  • @erinerussell07

    @erinerussell07

    4 жыл бұрын

    Never a gun in my mouth. But been ambulanced to a hospital and admitted a few times on overdose. Had my son. Will never try again. Won't have him grow up without a mother.

  • @Gutslinger

    @Gutslinger

    4 жыл бұрын

    Not in my mouth, but to the side of my head.

  • @joshcooney4951

    @joshcooney4951

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@wildershoney2439 I've pulled a Mesus, and played Russian Roulette with a bottle of vodka hoping I wouldn't wake on several occasions. Both artists have suuuuch good lines in this. I know a lot of people that take pills that say it helps a mil, but still feel down

  • @donovancarriker8846
    @donovancarriker88464 жыл бұрын

    The bearded wonders... This shit is 🔥🔥🔥... I need a whole album of this... Call it beards unite... Keep spitting truth

  • @Bru44

    @Bru44

    2 жыл бұрын

    I think an album from these two would be nice I think Mesus should’ve been on the brave with Tom and Adam at least on a song!

  • @ghostshellz752
    @ghostshellz7522 жыл бұрын

    Sometimes that’s just how it be! Salute Adam Calhoun! 🙏💪🫡

  • @soniareilly5618
    @soniareilly56184 жыл бұрын

    Not too often in life you happen upon a genius with a purpose and messages to spread. I don't think you realise just how crucial your music is right now. Racism was a masterpiece with a message. I was listening to 'Dying' and I totally understand depression but I'm too strong a person to allow it to beat me. It gets to me, won't ever bury me and will never be my undoing... Keep up the pure genius Adam 👍

  • @shirleyallen5178
    @shirleyallen51784 жыл бұрын

    I have probably listened to this a dozen times. I've been trolling for reactions cuz it's like that's it! They nailed it! And wat I kno about that is...u can't kno it ...unless u live it. So thank u. #respect

  • @derekbedford9833
    @derekbedford98335 жыл бұрын

    Glad i have you and upchurch. Keep up the good work. True FREEDOM and hapiness is the key to my mental health. Keep up the good fight your a patriot and you have tons of fans.

  • @ryanhansen1758
    @ryanhansen17585 жыл бұрын

    Never lose your grip. Ever. You're needed in this world. You have a path sir, swerve and hit shit along the way for fun but stay on it.

  • @lorimorgan7718
    @lorimorgan77185 жыл бұрын

    This is a whole new level of truth and understanding. You don't fail us Adam ❤ thank you

  • @brittnierene03
    @brittnierene035 жыл бұрын

    Love ya Adam!! 😊🌠❤

  • @erikmarrz4551

    @erikmarrz4551

    5 жыл бұрын

    You need to make songs

  • @loganr3884

    @loganr3884

    5 жыл бұрын

    Brittnie Rene well hello again

  • @brittnierene03

    @brittnierene03

    5 жыл бұрын

    @@erikmarrz4551 that's all I wanna do too, ironically was writing earlier lol😘🙏🌠

  • @brittnierene03

    @brittnierene03

    5 жыл бұрын

    @@loganr3884 hello there😊

  • @krakka8132

    @krakka8132

    5 жыл бұрын

    Brittnie Rene the queen! 😇#BRITRHECQUEEN

  • @joshkirkpatrick5792
    @joshkirkpatrick57925 жыл бұрын

    Love u man keep them coming u deserve this 😎😎😎

  • @jasoncorbett9843
    @jasoncorbett98433 жыл бұрын

    I understand 💯% Brother. Everyday life for me since as far back as I remember... And everyday I get Stronger !!! Cause I'm a solder this world will not defeat me !!!! I'll take it all on the chin with a grin. Seems like this song came out my head. Your music touches and helps a lot of people. Thank you.

  • @kathleenyoungg9279
    @kathleenyoungg92795 жыл бұрын

    Adam your like a father figure to me I suffer from depression and anxiety and I use to cut 3 years ago there’s not a day that goes that I don’t think about doing it again but when you said you suffer from mental illness I realized I wasn’t alone you give me hope and make me want to stay positive in life and keep going now mater what keep fighting 💕💕

  • @GTEntertainmentLive
    @GTEntertainmentLive5 жыл бұрын

    Just reacted to you for the first time like 2 hours ago, then you drop this heat!!! Reaction up very soon!! Keep working hard Adam and keep that head up, big things are coming in 2019!!

  • @ljtravis7410
    @ljtravis74105 жыл бұрын

    I love your music it's the best also when you need to get pumped for a soccer game

  • @Twitchyone858
    @Twitchyone8583 жыл бұрын

    Thank you both for speaking about your personal issues. Your songs speak to all of us fight the same battles.

  • @matthewcline5040
    @matthewcline50405 жыл бұрын

    Adam you don't how much you kept me looking forward and moving on. Thank you. Your such an amazing dude.

  • @zakerybabcock1954
    @zakerybabcock19545 жыл бұрын

    it helps knowing that my favorite artist feels how i do

  • @zanesmith7469

    @zanesmith7469

    4 жыл бұрын

    Same

  • @rebeccakuchta395
    @rebeccakuchta3955 жыл бұрын

    Love it, video is perfect!!!!! Awesome way to start the year!!!! 💙🤘

  • @jacquelineray6025
    @jacquelineray60255 жыл бұрын

    This hit home brother. So many days I have to quiet the beasts inside my mind. Meds don't help, so I run until they're to tired to scream anymore. I tried suicide once, but by grace I'm still alive. Thank you for this song. I remember I'm not alone.

  • @jessereacts7500
    @jessereacts75004 жыл бұрын

    I am perplexed.... how is this NOT BEING PROMOTED! This MESSAGE needs to be heard by the masses

  • @mishterpreshident

    @mishterpreshident

    4 жыл бұрын

    Real $hit don't get promoted in today's media environment.

  • @Santos-ek8md
    @Santos-ek8md5 жыл бұрын

    Showing my love for 1 best to do it! Keep it up man!

  • @greggorywinters3385
    @greggorywinters33855 жыл бұрын

    Keep up the good work Adam your amazing

  • @Sugar87Tits
    @Sugar87Tits3 жыл бұрын

    When I feel it I listen to this in my truck, and cry like a man. Then, I have the fuel to get through the day. Thanks man. No guidance is hard now that im in my 30s.

  • @stevensyck7740
    @stevensyck77405 жыл бұрын

    Brotha .... i love you man for your strengths and not giving a shit about being sensitive. Ive been threw stuff in my life that would tear whole communities down and loss like most couldnt imagine and have seen every person around me die in one way or another. Took care of my dieing mother also for many years. Never once have i had family or blood that cared even about my well-being as a human let alone any other aspect of my life. They just sat back and watched and took everything they could from me, even my grave next too my father. But im just glad i dont have to answer to god when i die for what ive done in my life like they will. I lived by my heart and that has made me the man i am. My PTSD and other diagnoses lol are just things that people label. Not what controls me or makes me ,just out comes of other people's decisions in life that i had to man up a deal with alone. Your a light that many people need in their life.

  • @bigwilly1547
    @bigwilly15475 жыл бұрын

    Love it brother. I walk around everyday with a hot round that has a dented primer just to remember God has a better plan for me. Keep it up, your lyrics make a difference to me everyday.

  • @richardwhite231
    @richardwhite2315 жыл бұрын

    New favorite KZreadr. Merica

  • @socialpsycho184
    @socialpsycho1845 жыл бұрын

    As someome who has a mental illness diagnosis.. And who watched your video where you spoke about your struggles with anxiety and depression.. This song cut deep.. And i can imagine comes from a very real, very dark place. Can't imagine how difficult making this was.. Giving something that can be very crippling at times a voice.. A window into something, some of us, have trouble explaining to the ppl close to us without sounding completely nuts.. Thanx for this dude. For some it's a song.. For others.. It shows that even if we think we are suffering alone.. We not.. We have trouble remembering that.

  • @apex_demon9063
    @apex_demon90635 жыл бұрын

    Man...iv listened to this song like 13 times in a row..it hits me in a spot deep down..thanks Adam for this song...really good..keep on this good track brother...

  • @richardalvis4695
    @richardalvis46955 жыл бұрын

    Someone will listen to this and finally snap. Its a depressing song and many will listen. Many depressed people. Not all are as strong as you so far are. Good luck with your demons and skeletons. Ive been battling them most of my 51 years. Thing is, they just keep coming.

  • @billhigh3119
    @billhigh31195 жыл бұрын

    Awesome bro keep up the great work Love it

  • @sarahchildress5962
    @sarahchildress59625 жыл бұрын

    If there's ever been a song that says what I can't get out, it's this one. Thanks.

  • @jeffc1199
    @jeffc11995 жыл бұрын

    Adam Calhoun this song is my life word for word it's hard to keep ur head up but after watching this video helps me to know I'm not the only one going through it hope you and upchurch come to Houston TX soon would love to meet yall

  • @AmphibiousWarrior573
    @AmphibiousWarrior5734 жыл бұрын

    Wow, that last verse from Mesus. I had to sit and think for minute. I mean, I'm not suicidal...at all, but I felt the pain in that verse. And why does Mesus have less than 200 subscribers on his channel?

  • @devilzadvocate7735

    @devilzadvocate7735

    4 жыл бұрын

    No clue... cause dude spits fire!

  • @AmphibiousWarrior573

    @AmphibiousWarrior573

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@devilzadvocate7735 Well that subscriber list sure changed in a hurry. Thank you Nick Cannon.

  • @shawnallen2469
    @shawnallen24695 жыл бұрын

    🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥keeping them coming. I love your music bro.

  • @sicknick6080

    @sicknick6080

    5 жыл бұрын

    Shawn Allen aux/bluetooth still trying to program the vcr huh

  • @sicknick6080

    @sicknick6080

    5 жыл бұрын

    Shawn Allen sorry forgot a gay emoji so here's Ddon lemons 🤓

  • @shawnallen2469

    @shawnallen2469

    5 жыл бұрын

    @@sicknick6080 do what

  • @shawnallen2469

    @shawnallen2469

    5 жыл бұрын

    @@sicknick6080 I'd rather have a CD not everybody's vehicle has Bluetooth

  • @KH-xe4ji
    @KH-xe4ji5 жыл бұрын

    Brother this song. Had been on repeat.this song has been helping me through some tough tines. Ive been listening to it in this hospital bed and its hits deep at home . nuch love man.Amazing song

  • @SisterChristian74
    @SisterChristian745 жыл бұрын

    Speechless. This is so on point! Thank you both! We all need a reminder we're not in this alone.

  • @ottepedersen9219
    @ottepedersen92195 жыл бұрын

    Ya know like a lot of your work but this.... this...... this is the best you've done!!! Fuckin badass!! That beat,your words,and the kind of old school Manson crazy house vibe in the video! You've out done yourself!

  • @johnhouske7854

    @johnhouske7854

    5 жыл бұрын

    Otte Pedersen agreed!

  • @americanswang95
    @americanswang955 жыл бұрын

    Mesus Great job spittin on this one .Games stepping UpUpUp 🇺🇸💪Get it Fam .Deep as Hell !Thanks man this was 💣 #Weallmatter Fam

  • @richardwgould
    @richardwgould5 жыл бұрын

    Awesome song. I totally relate. Dealing with PTSD I have gone through all of this. Thank you guys for speaking truth.

  • @herbboggs7024
    @herbboggs70245 жыл бұрын

    I wish I didn't relate to this song. But every time it makes it's rounds thru my playlists, I can't help but turn it up and scream it out the window. Keep doing what your doing Adam. We are listening.

  • @wh1t3d34th
    @wh1t3d34th5 жыл бұрын

    OMG dude you can spitt bars

  • @codymccrillis2280
    @codymccrillis22805 жыл бұрын

    First like.. badass song man i love your songs keep the badass songs coming.. from Mississippi

  • @mattd6128
    @mattd61285 жыл бұрын

    Damn bro its like y'all crawled in my head and said the shit I can't put into words when I'm asked what is wrong or what I'm thinking. I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression now for about 20 years and I still can't put into words what stews in my head.thank you Adam ,man thank you for all your music you Church and big Murph keep me on my grind everyday just didn't realize how much I'm not alone thanks for keeping me sane.

  • @lachanfallNr35
    @lachanfallNr355 жыл бұрын

    you'll never see what's underneath, PLEASE! I just need some PEACE that line hit me in bleeding heart. thank you guys for this real music. it is more than appreciated. Please keep up the good work

  • @sarahchapman4856
    @sarahchapman48565 жыл бұрын

    First hell yeah been waiting

  • @sarahchapman4856

    @sarahchapman4856

    3 жыл бұрын

    @Adam Calhoun Boy if you do not go get lost with all these shenanigans! I believe this is the third or fourth time that you are posting to my comments on Adams page, I bet you would really shit your pants of Adam called the number that you keep posting all over KZread! Fuck You Mike !!!

  • @vStatisticz
    @vStatisticz5 жыл бұрын

    2019 off too a great start

  • @ch3w3yfpv42

    @ch3w3yfpv42

    4 жыл бұрын

    Jon first time listener here in 2020 lol and its off to a great start as well 🙌🏼🙌🏼

  • @yellow.wrldjay
    @yellow.wrldjay6 ай бұрын

    One of the best collaborations on this side of rap

  • @coltgentry6703
    @coltgentry67035 жыл бұрын

    Man I tell you this song really hits home, battling depression anxiety and anger problems since my granddad passed in 07.. finally gonna get help this week

  • @tjwarren725
    @tjwarren7255 жыл бұрын

    Awesome song

  • @tjwarren725

    @tjwarren725

    5 жыл бұрын

    Songs speaks majorly to me

  • @macmac3374
    @macmac33745 жыл бұрын

    Got the notification and couldnt click fast enough. Keep it up brother.

  • @newswithzachary4277

    @newswithzachary4277

    5 жыл бұрын

    Mac McNally as always

  • @jerrydamron1588
    @jerrydamron15885 жыл бұрын

    Adam this hits me deep. Between past addiction, bad breakups, divorce and feeling alone in the world. I give my all to those around me but feel like I'm an outcast. Your music is real your videos speak to those around you. Keep up the awesome work you do. 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸

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