A Wonderful Day Alone - Quarantine Vlog | Toxic Tears

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Important! - I want to make it clear that while doing this I was still extremely careful and stuck very closely to social distancing rules. I was literally further away from people during this than I would have been in my own back yard, I stayed out of areas that others were gathering in, and crossed the street if I needed to pass by anyone. I needed a day out for the sake of my mental health, but we all still need to do everything we can to stay away from others and stop the spread. I hope you're all safe!
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  • @emilyhedgehog547
    @emilyhedgehog5474 жыл бұрын

    Everything you do reminds me of a friendly witch in a children's book, you even have a black cat.

  • @carmencitap99
    @carmencitap994 жыл бұрын

    Imagine looking out the window and spot a lovely cottage goth lady with a picnic basket and flowers... I'd ask her to be friends once lockdown is over

  • @Wild-Moonchild

    @Wild-Moonchild

    4 жыл бұрын

    Same

  • @TheGothicKratos

    @TheGothicKratos

    4 жыл бұрын

    agreed 😄

  • @itsyourfriendlyneighbourho7281

    @itsyourfriendlyneighbourho7281

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yeah same, I’d wanna join

  • @shogpei7054
    @shogpei70544 жыл бұрын

    This made me feel so warm and cozy. I want to bake little snacks now and have a picnic in the sun. 1000x yes to more little vlogs.

  • @Infiniteio

    @Infiniteio

    4 жыл бұрын

    Yes more vlogs... we love you kaya!!!

  • @pennywisethedancingclown2702
    @pennywisethedancingclown27024 жыл бұрын

    That would actually be really cool if you did videos in your different fashion styles and the hobbies that go with it. Like a mini series.

  • @kellyv6075
    @kellyv60754 жыл бұрын

    This is so wholesome. You'd LOVE Guernsey. It's a little island like a fairytale with beautiful forests and an amazing history of witches folklore and being known as the land of the dead to the Normans 😍

  • @chantelleosborne8068

    @chantelleosborne8068

    4 жыл бұрын

    Hail from.jersey its neighbour 😂😂

  • @maneskinnnnn7190

    @maneskinnnnn7190

    4 жыл бұрын

    this in uk?

  • @kellyv6075

    @kellyv6075

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@chantelleosborne8068 helllooo neighbour! 😁

  • @kellyv6075

    @kellyv6075

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@maneskinnnnn7190 technically in Great Britain but not the UK haha. In between England and france, closer to france

  • @TheGothicKratos

    @TheGothicKratos

    4 жыл бұрын

    that sounds really nice :)

  • @Amber-jy9wf
    @Amber-jy9wf4 жыл бұрын

    This video was so peaceful, it honestly put me in such a nice place since I can't really leave my home right now. It made me want to dry out some flowers. Good thing I have a ton of daffodils growing just outside lol

  • @Gooberpotomous
    @Gooberpotomous4 жыл бұрын

    When you put it into words it sounds strange, but it's definitely a thing: new aesthetic brings with it a whole life style. I'm glad you're open to a change (even when I know it'll be good for me, change freaks me out--ALL the anxiety) and I'm happy you're starting to feel better

  • @nekobat1962
    @nekobat19624 жыл бұрын

    That was so soothing and relaxing. I was so bored and stressed, but seeing a picnic under the trees made me happy. The plant music was so hauntingly beautiful.

  • @rubysclera9021
    @rubysclera90214 жыл бұрын

    I see makeup and fashion as another form of artistic expression. You want to feel calm, cottagecore/happy kitchen witch is what reflects that! Be happy, relax! Love you!

  • @jaimereynolds258
    @jaimereynolds2584 жыл бұрын

    Your floppy fabulous hat reminds me of my dream. I one day want to own land and have an apple orchard. Just walk around in my floppy hat with a basket while tending to my trees lol

  • @adriennegonzales2636
    @adriennegonzales26364 жыл бұрын

    Cottagecore... witchy lifestyle vids... herbalist recipes... all hitting the spot right now, I agree!

  • @greenoniongirl143
    @greenoniongirl1434 жыл бұрын

    I just want to say you’re a big inspiration to me! I’m 14 years old and exploring gothic and alt music and clothing! You’re so pretty and seem like a really cool person!

  • @gothempress

    @gothempress

    4 жыл бұрын

    She is such a genuine sweetheart and good person. You have found a good role model. You sound very lovely too!

  • @ronnielera7122

    @ronnielera7122

    4 жыл бұрын

    Mwahahaha welcome to the dark side! (Pun intended)

  • @kelliesmith2411

    @kelliesmith2411

    4 жыл бұрын

    A bit of a tip: don’t be afraid to just go for it. I see all over the place, people being afraid of doing something or experimenting and I say: if nobody is getting hurt just do it either you like it or you don’t but you’ll never know unless you try♥️

  • @IPONJ
    @IPONJ4 жыл бұрын

    I have a strong feeling you're helped lift the spirits (or raised the dead, not sure yet) for a lot of people. You should be very proud of yourself. I am. I know it doesn't feel like it now, but one day you will know just how much you've helped people through this mess. Cheers little one, and good vibes. Good vibes to all.

  • @Celestial_Kumiho
    @Celestial_Kumiho4 жыл бұрын

    Girl I identify so much with the things you say and the way you feel. You and Jake are a huge inspiration to me and you make me feel like I’m not alone.

  • @mr_selfdestruct
    @mr_selfdestruct4 жыл бұрын

    I totally feel you on the "clothes arent just clothes" statement. I always need to have a specific mindset for what Im wearing! Like a certain mood or aesthetic.

  • @Nivgrace
    @Nivgrace4 жыл бұрын

    You’re so pure and must be protected at all costs 😭

  • @floydpinkerton1703
    @floydpinkerton17034 жыл бұрын

    For some reason I laughed when you said "I also picked up, like, a clump of moss." I think because that's exactly the kind of thing I do. When I was a kid, I used to pick up every rubber band I saw on the pavement lol

  • @AngelLeosAdorkableUniverse
    @AngelLeosAdorkableUniverse4 жыл бұрын

    These out and about videos of you alone at a park or wherever have always been my favorite. They are so relaxing! I love them!

  • @witchyotter9820
    @witchyotter98204 жыл бұрын

    I absolutely love this video. All your videos give me the “warm wholesome feelings” one would get from talking with a lifetime long friend. 🥰🖤🖤

  • @didithegob7381
    @didithegob73814 жыл бұрын

    I'm about to go to college and I can't wait to experiment with the goth fashion, I already love the music and literature. I hope you read this and know how much you have inspired me since I was 12

  • @MareaRayneOleander
    @MareaRayneOleander4 жыл бұрын

    Yes!! Mini series of your different moods would me very much worth watching!

  • @gothempress
    @gothempress4 жыл бұрын

    I love how happy you looked sitting in the sun! You deserve those moments and don't let anyone take that away from you. You were being safe and it does a world of good for your mental health.

  • @fizzlecat3663
    @fizzlecat36634 жыл бұрын

    I love that you put here comes the sun by the beetles in the background, it made me smile!

  • @Luna11111
    @Luna111114 жыл бұрын

    Your the most loveliest person I love how pure you are. Sending you love and healing for difficult times. It saddens me someone as sweet as you feels so much sadness. ❤️❤️✨❤️✨

  • @laurettadelmar2781
    @laurettadelmar27814 жыл бұрын

    It was nice that you spoke in a really soft voice for the whole thing. Made it even more enjoyable to watch. I wish more people would do that

  • @AmandaJoyZimmel
    @AmandaJoyZimmel4 жыл бұрын

    I completely understand associating different perfumes and smells with different periods of my life. Every time I get a new one, it's like the beginning of an era for me.

  • @ninjamuffinattack3494
    @ninjamuffinattack34944 жыл бұрын

    The music makes me feel so happy and soft

  • @cheyfrost
    @cheyfrost4 жыл бұрын

    Honestly, my brain works the same. With certain style I change what I do most often, and other activities, etc, basically what you said! So you're not alone to think like this! I also like styles that are so opposite from each other it's crazy

  • @michellekelly-anne2716
    @michellekelly-anne27164 жыл бұрын

    You could grow the moss in your bathroom, I made a moss patch with fake toadstools with little cute fairies and knomes in a corner of my bathtub/shower rack. 😊

  • @melaniemurphyofficial
    @melaniemurphyofficial4 жыл бұрын

    You've just introduced me to 'cottagecore' (I'd never heard this word before) and OH, MY GOD. I love it I love it I love it I love it! This video was so lovely x

  • @empanadani
    @empanadani3 жыл бұрын

    A picnic. Alone. Outside. Sounds amazing.

  • @moonshybat
    @moonshybat4 жыл бұрын

    I really wish these videos got more views, I love them so much 😭 they are so relaxing and peaceful

  • @theoriginalbelfrybat1319
    @theoriginalbelfrybat13194 жыл бұрын

    The return of the queen!

  • @donniebaby
    @donniebaby4 жыл бұрын

    I've never had a picnic like this... This makes me want to! 🥰

  • @stonehouseitunes2058
    @stonehouseitunes20584 жыл бұрын

    Fuck this warmed by heart so much I'm in a puddle of happy vibes. Seasonal Affective Disorder kicks me around but the sun out here, and seeing you enjoy the sun over there just gives me a big ol' smile

  • @orbitalmucus7875
    @orbitalmucus78754 жыл бұрын

    This is the kind of cottage core I can relate to. 🖤

  • @blairsbaby97
    @blairsbaby973 жыл бұрын

    I'm a new fan. I started watching you about a month ago and quarantining has only gotten harder now that I have unfortunately gotten covid-19, but just watching your videos has made staying positive a little easier and brought so happy to this not so happy world. I wanted to thank you and I really appreciate you. I hope you continue to keep make videos and send blessing for you and Jake. ❤

  • @Midwesterngothmom
    @Midwesterngothmom4 жыл бұрын

    I have the same thing with fashion and my lifestyle changing! 🖤

  • @VioletWood
    @VioletWood4 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for making this video! It was so peaceful and full of joy. Just what my heart needed. You’re so sweet and I love watching your channel. Thank you! 🖤

  • @annahoang6289
    @annahoang62893 жыл бұрын

    Now that's a wonderful way of spending the day🥺

  • @tiffanyg2102
    @tiffanyg21023 жыл бұрын

    ugh your witchy/goth/cottage core aesthetic is to die for.

  • @MandyMoon999
    @MandyMoon9994 жыл бұрын

    I needed this video. Your garden style and videos are the best and make me so happy inside

  • @trinapenuliar5451
    @trinapenuliar54514 жыл бұрын

    This was such a nice video. I love that you're so yourself, it's really inspiring. I've been struggling through bad feelings during quarantine too, so ideas on soothing things to get into is so helpful!

  • @V01D.mp3
    @V01D.mp34 жыл бұрын

    That was such a lovely video, Kaya! Thank you for taking us with you on this little adventure. 🖤 I would also love to hear you talk about your different aesthetics and moods / hobbies connected to them. That really spoke to me. 🌻 take care

  • @ghostlyvel
    @ghostlyvel4 жыл бұрын

    This was really relaxing to watch and inspiring! Thank you 🖤

  • @livingkings

    @livingkings

    4 жыл бұрын

    👻 🐇

  • @meagain177
    @meagain1773 жыл бұрын

    This was such a lovely video. It is so nice to see people promote self care and self awareness. You can see it your face just happy, content you were spending a day just being. I hope you do more of these videos in the future even after quarantine is over.

  • @gemmahamilton2565
    @gemmahamilton25654 жыл бұрын

    This was soooo relaxing to watch 😍 do whatever you need to do to stay happy during quarentine. I too struggle with staying in. Nature and going out for walks definitely help with my mental health so I totally understand where you're coming from. Take care lovely lady 🖤

  • @aurorarora5929
    @aurorarora59294 жыл бұрын

    I absolutely love cottage core ! I wish I had a garden. 🌼🌿🌱 loved this video

  • @honeybearchan123
    @honeybearchan1234 жыл бұрын

    I'm doing pretty well staying safe as of lately until yesterday I cannot stop myself from going outside to plant flowers and my veggies. But vlogs like this felt extremely calming and was a must need! Please do another one soon but also be well and safe.

  • @kellyv6075
    @kellyv60754 жыл бұрын

    Want you to know that I'm nodding along and smiling while I hear you talk about fashion aesthetic being a whole set. And your whole video tbh. And I just think your whole vibe is rad. I think we'd be friends

  • @stranavolpe
    @stranavolpe4 жыл бұрын

    Hey Kaya! Actually I would LOVE a video about all the different aesthetics/moods you have been or are going through, and what they've been "accompanied" with beyond just the clothes ^^

  • @steeliahmann3276
    @steeliahmann32764 жыл бұрын

    This was the wee slice of pleasant i needed today ❤ thank you, you have rejuvenated my soul a little

  • @247kelz
    @247kelz4 жыл бұрын

    So wonderful to see this. I've been worried about you beautiful lady 🖤 what a perfect little adventure. Sending you lots of love xx

  • @The_pendrag0n
    @The_pendrag0n4 жыл бұрын

    5:00 do that video! I feel the exact same! I’d love to see yours!

  • @vampireotaku4172
    @vampireotaku41724 жыл бұрын

    It blows my mind that this quarantine is worldwide. All the way in America I feel connected with you and Jake while watching your videos. Like so far away we experience the same struggle.

  • @mrsmetalhead666
    @mrsmetalhead6664 жыл бұрын

    omg i loved this! i bet you felt great after being out in nature for a while, it does me wonders but since all the craziness its hard to find anywhere to be alone and peaceful, there are literally more people out now then ever before! i just want to be alone in nature :(

  • @thewellbeingscymru7764
    @thewellbeingscymru77642 жыл бұрын

    I've just found this video after the latest video you posted. You have randomly appeared in my feed but I'm super inspired by this video! Totally immersing yourself in an aesthetic and creating days full of joy sounds wonderful and something I'm going to try and do more of. I love it. ❤️

  • @margaretrodriguez5533
    @margaretrodriguez55333 жыл бұрын

    I would so love to wear that perfume. Thunderstorms actually put me in a better mood.

  • @leighnicole100
    @leighnicole1004 жыл бұрын

    This was so lovely and wholesome and you can tell you needed and enjoyed that sun and time out in nature!

  • @rosyteadeer6729
    @rosyteadeer67294 жыл бұрын

    so glad youre doing better Kaya! I was in a bit of a mood from being stuck in an apartment but this video cheered me right up

  • @brittanywiggins3247
    @brittanywiggins32474 жыл бұрын

    This made my soul so happy. It was much needed, thank you for being so lovely. 🖤

  • @kyle-to6xm
    @kyle-to6xm4 жыл бұрын

    ok but i love this so much, its so wholesome. youre just like a little gothy witch in the woods and i love it

  • @headshot959
    @headshot9594 жыл бұрын

    I'm so glad to see you again and that you're feeling better. I miss you. That video was so peaceful.

  • @ashleywhitney2839
    @ashleywhitney28394 жыл бұрын

    i been having an rough time in quarantine but your Vlog reminds me how much i love to read in the sunshine even tho its been snowing you made my day so much better, so i think when i am feel down I am going to make my self feel petty and read a book next to my window so i can get sum sunlight . and thank you for making my quarantine sweet and happy,

  • @tattoomeagain
    @tattoomeagain4 жыл бұрын

    This video filled my heart with joy and hope. It gave me hope of a silver lining after all this is over.

  • @moonspinner1946
    @moonspinner19464 жыл бұрын

    A grand way to spend a Spring day in a beautiful spot hanging out with the great Goth Queen. Cheers

  • @lodemaiofslovakia
    @lodemaiofslovakia4 жыл бұрын

    Never heard of cottage core! That was cool. Definitely lends to cottage witch vibes. Made me happy to see you out enjoying yourself!

  • @kaelandavid8084
    @kaelandavid80844 жыл бұрын

    Stay strong kaya!! If your like me and have been stuck at home with your other half, it can be grueling. Both of you keep your head up and keep that smile going strong. All the best love to you and Jake ❤️

  • @rachchchchchch748
    @rachchchchchch7484 жыл бұрын

    Hey girlie, love this video! It was really lovely, you always inspire me to get back to nature. And whenever I get super tired from being in the sun I'll either drink a bunch of water or a pedialyte if it's really bad and it helps sooo much. Love you, stay magical 💜✨

  • @tattastrophicwitch6337
    @tattastrophicwitch63374 жыл бұрын

    I’ve missed you! And I love that you put here comes the sun in this...🖤

  • @royaljester9918
    @royaljester99184 жыл бұрын

    This is so comforting!!!

  • @breeonnaoberg1771
    @breeonnaoberg17714 жыл бұрын

    Yeah this is what i was hoping you would do. Aesthetics are a lifestyle, and you have so many. Id love to see more videos of what you do when you're feeling gothy 💕💕 love your videos. I hope doing stuff you love made you feel better!

  • @purplejanew
    @purplejanew4 жыл бұрын

    Yes please to more vlogs! This was indeed a very wonderful - and relaxing - way to spend some time with you. Thank you xxxxx

  • @kelliesmith2411
    @kelliesmith24114 жыл бұрын

    The whole rabbit hole thing I completely understand except for I do it with anime, games, and music. I go into this hyper-fixated state to where that one thing basically takes over my life and that’s all I watch/cosplay/listen to until something new comes along and it’s back to square one. And it never goes away I just do the same thing to something else

  • @MerryMoss
    @MerryMoss4 жыл бұрын

    I know this is an older video (I'm catching up ^^) but I would LOVE to see a video-mini-series where you talk about all the different styles and sources of information that you like & talk about/show the different hobbies and things that go with it. I would seriously LOVE that - 'cause I'm also like you, where it's not just about the clothes, but about EVERYTHING around it... music, foods, hobbies/activities, make-up, locations... yeah ^^

  • @JF0x
    @JF0x4 жыл бұрын

    Absolutely loved this, thank you. So calming.

  • @romantichorror5289
    @romantichorror52894 жыл бұрын

    What a lovely, delicious, and relaxing day. Thank you for taking us along.😊

  • @meeriplathan5564
    @meeriplathan55644 жыл бұрын

    I definitely found a new feel-good video! This made me so relaxed and joyful, I love the homey witch vibe. And no wonder you were so tired, you did so much stuff and filmed most of it! The bread looks amazinggg. I'm so relieved that you're doing better. Spring is unquestionably my favorite time of year since the weather gets better and the nature wakes up again after a long time of seasonal sadness. I can't wait to see the first bumble bees and being able to show off my bumbly tattoo on my foot!

  • @gforskli4307
    @gforskli43074 жыл бұрын

    Thank you. I wish I could go out. It was nice seeing some nature and it all looked lovely.

  • @jooknf
    @jooknf4 жыл бұрын

    This was a great bday present! Its hard for me to get out and about where I live too many people. Thank you for letting me at least virtually enjoy a outdoorsy day.

  • @brittanygeisler8474
    @brittanygeisler84744 жыл бұрын

    I personally would love to see a video of you explaining all of your aesthetics!😍

  • @Dreamerkaty
    @Dreamerkaty4 жыл бұрын

    This video made me so happy, it looked like you had a lovely time, we’ll all get through this! Keep smiling :) xx

  • @KreeZafi
    @KreeZafi4 жыл бұрын

    This is the sweet wholesome content I need!

  • @Taylor-ki2hg
    @Taylor-ki2hg3 жыл бұрын

    i am so late watching this video but it gives me so much comfort and joy and peace 💞

  • @ozvioletbutterfly
    @ozvioletbutterfly4 жыл бұрын

    I really enjoyed this video,and i coule really see you were in your zone! You resonated so much energy and peace.x

  • @chrismcwilliams3552
    @chrismcwilliams35524 жыл бұрын

    What a lovely day! Thank you for taking us with you✨💕✨

  • @blondeinblack1550
    @blondeinblack15504 жыл бұрын

    This is exactly what everyone needed, thank you so much 🖤

  • @Motherofpearl_
    @Motherofpearl_4 жыл бұрын

    Ooh I would love a video about all your different styles and everything that comes with it. It sounds really fascinating

  • @Marasovsbuttcheeksareblu
    @Marasovsbuttcheeksareblu4 жыл бұрын

    I just love you u are an amazing person. You made me cry with happiness. I’m going to see if I can get some plant music to see what it is like I think it will help me as I’m not feeling so good at the moment but watching that helped me. All the best to yourself and Jake n hope you have a good move to Barcelona.

  • @user-bw4mk7fc8c
    @user-bw4mk7fc8c4 жыл бұрын

    This video is so relaxing and fun🖤 I was having hectic day... night.. I work night shifts... and found you while watching one Jake's videos. Definantly subscribing🖤

  • @gabriellacarstens
    @gabriellacarstens4 жыл бұрын

    I've been watching your videos for so long now!! you are so amazing .

  • @hannahkozlovic1715
    @hannahkozlovic17154 жыл бұрын

    if you can, please do more videos like this! i fricken love the aesthetic and it was very calming and wholesome and lovely and i was sad and stressed before but now i feel happy :)

  • @PeachBlawesome
    @PeachBlawesome4 жыл бұрын

    I love cottagecore because as it has picked up it has more and more become more than just a fashion and lifestyle trend, there is now music to go along with it or the vibe in the genre that people from that seem to have been inspired by or are inspired by. I like goth music but I definitely wouldn't consider myself goth, but cottagecore would be very nice if it became a subculturey thing like Goth is, and it seems to lend itself well to not just light colors, but I've seen a lot of people do the pastel goth like thing (where softer more pop bands with macabre undertones are listened to alongside goth music, as well as the pairing of pastel colors with goth aesthetics) where people are mixing their love of the goth subculture with cottagecore, and it's beautiful.

  • @averiesoto4042
    @averiesoto40424 жыл бұрын

    Yay!! Great to see you! Your videos are the best and they are really helping me get through quarantine here in the U.S. Keep it up! Sending much love!! :)

  • @Ragnaran
    @Ragnaran4 жыл бұрын

    This was such a soothing and wholesome vlog, I’m really happy you had such a nice day and decided to share it with us

  • @waxestlowa732r6
    @waxestlowa732r64 жыл бұрын

    Good to see you in better health!🌸

  • @HeavyMetalCrone
    @HeavyMetalCrone4 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for this video. Just what I needed during quarantine today! 💜

  • @northerlyartemis
    @northerlyartemis4 жыл бұрын

    Awww so great to see you happy again Kaya! More vlogs would be brilliant!

  • @jessicaharrison4719
    @jessicaharrison47194 жыл бұрын

    I really related to this video, especially the beginning. Today was the first day I finally felt a little bit better after a week of feeling anxiety and upset. I loved watching your lovely picnic. I have been working on a lovely shawl that has a skull motif, and tending my sourdough starter like a beloved pet. Your strawberry swirls look lovely! Hope you continue to feel better.

  • @cheyfrost
    @cheyfrost4 жыл бұрын

    Also, thank you for making this nice relaxing video, brought back some nice moments in nature in silence. Good times 😌

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