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Everyday, I tell myself, "I can do better". I avoid one problem today, but it hunts me tomorrow. The past has threw grudges into my head that when I try to forget, I can only remember. The more I try and tackle it, the more it tries to consume me, for I'm merely a smaller part of something much larger. When I try acknowledging my actions, one part of my mind thinks otherwise, and that confusion throws me off-balance. Am I someone who deserves life?, what am I doing wrong?, is life even.. what I thought it was? Anyway, I knew Suicide wasn't the answer, and when it came in-between life or death, life really is something I had to be patient with., no matter what happened, because a book doesn't end halfway. When I wanted to be someone/something that stood out from others, I knew there was someone who thought the same. Everything I did, I knew someone had already done, and I no-longer feel special, but feel as if I'm just an ant, following in another ant's footsteps, headed toward the same miserable path, with the end of the road being death's door. No-matter what I accomplish, I'll never find what I truly want, everything's just canon at one point. I have but no choice to accept this reality, since I can't live the impossible, and wait for death to come to me, that's just Life. Everything I'm saying right now, no one cares, and it's not like it'll change my problems, it'll only cause more. Hate me, though the both of us are of the same species and are both headed toward what's unknown. Let's pretend this never happened, laugh, drink and eat, influence others, keep our thoughts to ourselves, and die with no one in our debt., let them figure it out themselves, and they'll repeat the endless loop, just as our mother and father hoped to do for us. Rather keep it peaceful, than let them hurt their selves, only to blame others around them for the less. Why?, Because it's hopeless... I'm glad I'm not Immortal because I won't get to see another sad ending. -Moder

@lizzherbet

Ай бұрын

Wow....that was deep. And I hate to admit it but I relate to most of it...especially the part where "When I try acknowledging my actions, one part of my mind thinks otherwise", "Everything I did, I knew someone had already done, and I no-longer feel special", and "Let's pretend this never happened, laugh, drink and eat, influence others, keep our thoughts to ourselves, and die with no one in our debt." It's like...I feel useless, but I know I'm not. It's complicated and everyday it feels like I'm constantly arguing and debating with myself without a means to an end. So to end it and calm down I just try not to think about it and live life normally, hang out with my friends....but the thoughts never go away completely...so every day I feel like a hollow shell who's just...empty...confused....that was once filled with hope and innocence....but now...just....gone

Listening to this dark music is like a journey through my emotions. It's like the music is guiding me through a maze of feelings

A wonderful playlist ! Thank you.💜

May you find strength. May you find peace.

Wow, this is truly fantastic! 🎉✨ The sheer brilliance and wonder of it all leave me in awe. 🌟💫

Hey youtube, don't forget to invite me at your funeral 💙 to be together till the end

ох..я даже не заметила как уснула. Спасибо за шикарное видео.

Wow . Its so fantastic

2 of my songs are here! thank you!

amazing

Thanks! A lov you 🖤🫂

We live eachday, a cycle until you draw your last breathe, yet i cant find the right people that love me, i wanted to be a footballer but i dont think thati can make it that far, each night i picture myself playing professionally until i wake up for it to be a dream, i dont know what to do anymore, no matter how hard i try to to my school work its too hard even with lessons, i dont think I'll ever be who I'll ever want to be in life, i just dont know what to do, i listen to this type of music bec im lonely and got no one to really talk to, i only smile at everything while my pain and sadness just creep up on me each and everyday, i almost committed suicide once, but that wont be any better bec i wont go to heaven so i just exist watching everyone being happy😪😓💔

@StoneReed-ii9pc

Ай бұрын

I've felt the same way for years, although I've never met someone with the same mindset, i was starting to believe i was completely alone, hit me up if you wanna talk about it, who knows, it could be a step toward healing for the both of us.

@user-eg9vj9fl1q

29 күн бұрын

@@StoneReed-ii9pc i would like that.

We'll always be there 😢

how was your day today? 😊

@silence_b

Ай бұрын

Not bad, but not good. 50% 50%

@TimaYz3

Ай бұрын

50/50

@Pa9_gaming

Ай бұрын

I have birth day today

@anuragchikara8281

Ай бұрын

​@@Pa9_gamingHAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!! I HOPE YOU FIND AMAZEMENT AND JOY EVERY WHERE YOU GO

@tae.97............009

Ай бұрын

@Pa9_gaming Happy Birthday🥳🎂🎊🎉. I pray that you will be very happy throughout your life and may God fulfill your wishes.😊

Alone Space 😮

I feel like I have to hide this part of myself so people don't see me for the person I show them

Amazing... Sorry, where can I find a photo like in this video? Thank you)

Really? Your funeral? Obviously I dont know your situation, but I pray for you........... Made me sad but I liked it anyways..... Just saying

@gqdThinky

Ай бұрын

imo, it's probably just for the title..

@ShreyanshGupta-ir5wc

Ай бұрын

Right, ​@@gqdThinky I never took the titles this way

This reminds me of listening to the ambient channel back in 2013 when I was a freshed faced young doomer. Lovely!

@alonespace.no1

Ай бұрын

You are like me 🥺

❤

💔💔💔

Hello, who knows which AI can be used to create pictures like the one in this video?

Reasons not to like me