I misread Ed’s titlecard as “producer” instead of “protector” and i was just like yeah

@TheEntropySystem

4 жыл бұрын

😂😂😂

@gbrown932

4 жыл бұрын

Lol I did the same

@sleepy-emerald

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so glad I’m not the only one that’s done that-

Honestly Kim-Kim's evolution into such an informative and cool young adult is so astounding, not to say that she wasn't cool before y'know, but before there was always an air of sombreness & bitterness. What she must have gone through in terms of loosing her life must have been unimaginable but I'm so Fucking Glad that she has really come into herself now. I'm just wanting to show some support and big love to her in particular. Hope ya doing well my g x x

i cant stop laughing at the "quote from kim kim 2020" bc our system does basically the same thing in our head when we jumble our words im cryin thank you for that --salem & cas

"As we learn about ourselves so, too, shall you learn about us" 😂😂😅😭 Oh Kim Kim, you are universally adored by our system -Emi

That sounds like Jessica. She looks like a person who would want a party at her funeral 😂😂😂

@lydiaboll2872

7 ай бұрын

“You better throw a party on the day that I die.” - George Ezra, ‘Green Green Grass.’

Secondary suggested title for this video: Abigail takes over the world! 🥰

@peaceofapuzzlebfg

4 жыл бұрын

I love that!

I love your system so much. Hearing that Kit and Lito considered integration feels saddens me a bit because I love them individually but as a whole, but if it's the choice they feel is best, we'll totally support your decision 100% 😊❤ We love you guys!

@hadassahkraushar9988

4 жыл бұрын

Exactly!!!

I saw Abigale when she went on Twitter her first night. I had no idea she had that much...power, I guess? She seemed very sweet, I hope you guys can get to know her better!

@CuriosityRocks

4 жыл бұрын

Sophie H. Yep me too

@nika5318

4 жыл бұрын

She was online?

@softie.girlie

4 жыл бұрын

@@nika5318 From what I saw, only for an hour or so a while ago? She was looking for friends, many people steered her offline and Wyn (I think?) was able to help her out after that. It was late at night so not many people knew what had happened by the next morning

@ds93

4 жыл бұрын

Sophie H. Oh I remember that! I went straight to the replies ready to start shooing creeps away but everyone was very sweet in trying to get Abigale off of twitter without supervision 😅

I could tell you seem a little different on how you're talking to us and I wondered if it was because of Jessica. She will be missed, even though we didn't get to see a lot of her, but I hope the little Jessica that went into everyone will only bring good things, as she's a nice person ;;

The fact that Lito is feeling like he should fuse.... saddens me. Sweet happy Mexican man, things will be ok.

"she's a little bit of an enigma" what? Ed and Oz have a daughter now? :P :p :P :P Bad joke is bad.

@fairycat23

4 жыл бұрын

I was thinking the same thing 😂

@TheEntropySystem

4 жыл бұрын

You’re such a dork and I love you 😂

@nerdyvalkyrie9230

4 жыл бұрын

I would just like to say, that was also my first thought when Kim Kim said that

@confusedwhale

3 жыл бұрын

It must have been difficult for you when Lito left. I'm sorry for your loss.

The quote-by-Kim Kim moment made me snarf rather loudly. Keep laughing. :)

The thought of Abigale running thru the inner world causing chaos made me laugh because basically that’s what 3 year olds do.

We are the Kintsukuroi no Sekai System. It means “Golden Healing (Repair) Universe.” We just wanted to encourage Leto to feel better about coming forward and celebrating being the delight that he is. We have a member of our system who is a Vulcan and comes forward when there’s an emergency and a logical approach is needed. We all have our reasons for being and Leto is a joy to watch.

@pegtheshrek9512

4 жыл бұрын

I just wanna say that I love your system name, its very positive and inspiring! And you are absolutely right, Lito ist a joy to watch and listen to, I hope he will feel more comfortable being out and will enjoy life more and more! 💚💚💚

For a moment I forgot I was listening to and watching Kim Kim. She has grown and matured so much. Thank you for continuing to share your journey with us.

That's the type of fusion my husband did with his system a few years ago. He was the long term host and didn't know he had DID. Massive derealization episode, all amnesia walls fell and then he shattered and was picked up by the others.

seems like Jessica gave you all a parting gift, a little bit of happiness and lightness. I wonder if that was her choice, if it was, think of how nice of a gesture that was. Many blessings to you all awesome peeps, Andrew and your cute pets

i remember when abigail posted! i was so worried about her, i’m glad she’s okay and happy!!

the day/night cycle change is fascinating to me, as is everything about the inner world you share. i love hearing about these sorts of things! it makes me hope i can get more in touch with my inner world, my headmates make it sound like such a fascinating concept... when i'm not fronting i just fall asleep on a "couch" 😂 ~ Barb, host of the Swingset System P.S. That one edit at 1:00 is such a mood

What a lovely way for her to make her mark. I loved learning about Jessica. She will always be amazing♡

Your brain is a superpower all on its own! I am betting that there at unlimited possibilities when it comes to alters, fusion and headspace configuration. As an outsider I’ve been watching the DID channels that have been going through fusion and my armchair observation is that it seems like the systems that have fused been improving in maturity, growth and quality of life. It seems to make sense.

When Jessica fused, did she also fuse with Karen or did the anti-fuse bubble work? If she did get a bit of the Jessica glitter was she okay about it? I’m happy to hear that even though a new (old?) alter appeared that you all are still doing well! I hope she’s also doing well as part of the system, maybe we can meet her someday. Happy new year!

@TheEntropySystem

4 жыл бұрын

Karen didn’t change one bit so the bubble seems to have worked! -Wyn

@jsundt9024

4 жыл бұрын

The Entropy System yay!

Has anyone been able to talk to Abigail and ask her about where she lives? I hope these changes aren’t too stressful for everyone!

@TheEntropySystem

4 жыл бұрын

We hope to but we haven’t gotten the opportunity yet. -Wyn

I have had a fusion like that. But the tweak was a calming feeling from an early protector/caretaker. Thank you for speaking on this!! I didnt know it was a thing until you said it and like yes thatis what it was! Eureka! Lol

I wonder if Abagale was actually a part of Dr.Main. It sounds like both are a positive part of your systems personality. Dr.Main came forward to help you during a hard time, and now she fused and shared her bright demeanor with you, and Abagale was a hidden alter that came forward as a core part of Dr.Main. If your genealogy for Abagale is correct, it sounds like Dr.Main was a adult shell for Abagale, and she was left after Dr.Main fused with everyone.

“hoo. dont like doing that!” god thats a whole mood

I really love hearing more about integration and fusion :) much love to our new friends! 💕 I love these type of system update videos, and I wish you all the best with new head mates!

Welcome Abigale!! (Abigail?) I’m so happy you’re here thank you for helping my fav system to function. Hope we can officially meet you soon!

It's so amazing that you feel comfortable sharing with us, and I feel so thankful for that. Allowing us to learn grow with you is such a gift. ❤️❤️ Thank you Entropy~

I’ve been so excited to learn more about abigale!

"As we learn about ourselves so, too, shall you learn about us" -Kim Kim 2020 IM CRYINGGGGG!!!!!

All of your videos are amazing but we’re REALLY looking forward to this one, since it’s something we don’t know much about. Plus it’s something that makes us nervous and your info always puts us at ease.

thank you for this video. it's so comforting and validating to see discussion about this type of integration, because it's not talked about and it's been predominantly what we've experienced. it's excellent to have a point of reference to show people in contrast to some of the other (granted, equally excellent) videos about integration on youtube to say "yes THIS" rather than "this, except not really". thank you so much for continuing to put out quality content. i hope things are going well and you all can learn more about abigale and the forest soon!

I hope Abigail is able to stay happy and not gain bad memories and all the trauma processing is truly done

Really interesting video, thanks guys! Was looking forward to hearing your perspective on these changes. Hope you’re all well 😘

The woods part is interesting. We have like a wood/forest surrounding our innerworld and only a few protectors can go there. Few years ago we had 2 big traumas and it caused the innerworld to like explode I guess 🤷🏻‍♀️ anyway the protectors started searching for everyone since we all kinda vanished and in the woods they found like 6 alters that hadn’t been around for many years and one still chooses to live there away from the rest of us today. no one else goes there since the woods are marked as dangerous . The fusion thing is interesting too. We have alters that are connected but not fully fused and it’s like on a scale depending on what’s happening depends on who of them fronts . It’s like they share a mind even though they are still separate people in the innerworld hard to explain

Whenever I think you’ve got it all down and configured... there’s always more, what with the forest. So delightfully mysterious. I think deep down when I find myself fascinated by how your world works, some part of me feels that there’s something to learn about myself there too.

I wonder if the system being made aware of fusion and thinking about it makes it more likely to happen? It's been really fascinating watching fusion happen like dominos across the whole DID/OSDD YT sphere after Riven from TeamPinata formed

@annabelcrescibene4257

4 жыл бұрын

Cinnamon Bun I think Nin and Riven formed on the same day

@cinnamonbun2251

4 жыл бұрын

@@annabelcrescibene4257 Depending on which timezone you look at, yeah. IIRC Chloe helped Evan and Seth through it via phone call, went to sleep and woke up as Nin

@stormweaverwitch

4 жыл бұрын

i think the awareness is helping to lessen fear of it. if it's going to happen in a system, it's going to happen, but i do think that the system's comfort level with the concept helps. so if anything, probably all the educational channels being so open about their experiences is helping systems who were previously quite scared of fusion integration become more acclimated to the idea of it happening in their own systems.

@TheEntropySystem

4 жыл бұрын

Jessica choose to fuse very soon after a commenter asked why she hasn’t chosen to do so already, which likely wouldn’t have happened if not for dissociadid and piñata’s videos so there’s definitely a correlation. I think seeing it happen in other systems puts it at the front of the mind of alters who may have been afraid to do it otherwise. -Wyn

@cinnamonbun2251

4 жыл бұрын

@@TheEntropySystem and Storm Weaver, that makes sense. If it's helping so many of the systems who make videos, imagine how many non-YTer systems have had healthy new fusions occur partially because of everyone being open and informative about it :)

So Jessica didn't so much fuse, as... diffuse into other alters. That's cool.

Really interesting. You seem healthier and happier.

that kim kim quote had me howling 😂

I am glad you all have day and night now! I was hoping for this for you all. But your system knows what you are all ready for. I have learned to trust that I will learn things and things will change when we are ready. I trust the brain and body to do that. We were dx'ed DDNOS probably now OSDD in the mid 1990's.

So what if Abigail is the healthy you that is able and strong enough to exist in the unknown (woods)? It sounds to me like a step in the healing journey. I sure hope it is and that you all find a way to feel good and handle whatever comes next.

Jessica isn't gone. She just.found her place in the system :) what a sweet gift she gave you.

Thank you for sharing your journey as you continue to learn and grow! We always look forward to your videos! We wish you the best as you navigate these changes

I get so sad when your videos end! I can’t get enough of all you wonderful beings

I loved seeing the intros and the pictures of how everyone sees themselves!! That was quite cool:)

I realised today that I was different. One of your explanations of how fusion felt, sumed it up perfectly, thank you so much for sharing your different experiences. Spent all day trying to find the answer.

I really like this new intro ❤️it's so nice to see you all. Also love the t-shirt

The editing! Thanks for creating such special videos for us to learn through

Thank you for sharing your experiences the way you do

You mentioned, "there's no guidebook." Would you consider going back to see a therapist to talk through these changes and the ideas of fusing?

@TheEntropySystem

4 жыл бұрын

If we feel like we can’t navigate it in our own we will but we feel ok about it right now -Wyn

Lito makes me so happy! He always puts a smile on my face. I wish he would make more videos.

Wow! It’s been a while since I’ve watched a video from y’all but I must say Kim Kim has grown so much - she speaks in such a mature and eloquent way (not that she didn’t in the past - it’s just so apparent now!) wishing you all the best

Idk why we became aware a several months ago, splitting doesn’t make sense bc a lot where there before. I think he may have given himself to us so we could be aware or more defined ig? We have always prayed to be remade as we were intended to be, whole and complete, no more struggles and bad choices we can’t control. “Let me dissolve me in acid, I want to cosmic mud, and begin to grow again, blossom in a new way” and “I pray for God to crush me, break me up into pieces and start over again” have been our favorite quotes the past year and the Litany against fear from Dune, which I highly recommend recommend for a mantra against fear and template for other things. Omg, looking back we’ve always had quotes and shit about our conflicting and dynamic thoughts, feelings, likes, ideas, etc. Like that radically both Dr whatever split dude, saint and sinner and resurrection, light and dark, Hecate, etc etc. Yearning to be whole but also wholes. I feel so dumb rn, like wtf, we’ve had signs on signs on signs about the OSDD.

I'm so glad you guys are doing so well with Jessica fusing with the system and little Abigale is feeling happy and safe. You're all doing a great job 💕

Love love love Lito!!!!! Would love another cooking video.

Hola Lito! I just wanted to let Lito know that I've really enjoyed watching his videos before he decides to integrate, if he ever does! I've always connected with the Lito from Sens8 a lot, and I thought Lito (from your system) was amazing since the first time he appeared on the channel. I was very sad to hear about him struggling in the last video, and hope he is doing better now. Anyways, you guys do what is best for you! Will support your decision!

Thank you for sharing ❤️, learn something new everyday

Thanks! We really enjoyed this!😊💗

I thought Mistletoe also spread out like glitter?

@RainbyFIN

4 жыл бұрын

I believe Mistletoe integrated/fused with two alters, not with all of the system

@loveme_or_not5295

4 жыл бұрын

She integrated with Kit I'm pretty sure.

@TheEntropySystem

4 жыл бұрын

She fused with Kit. Her fusion seemed to go into me, too, but in hindsight I think my temporary mood changes were just the emotional fallout of the system mourning her absence. -Wyn

Integration, system and fusion it really makes me see this as a multiple operating system computer almost. As if one was running Windows, mac and Linux but finding universal file types to send emails and install programs on all servers and os. I have no idea why but that's how this makes sense to me and it is absolutely beautiful.

Hi Entropy System! I’m Ezra (and I’m Koalla!) and I’m a recently appointed host for our system, co fronting with Koalla! who is just a joy. Our core, Jacob, and some of us that front the most are *just* discovering that we are a system and this whole journey... how can we find support? We definitely feel like we need all the support we can get...

wow. I do not have DID and I somehow relate to Jessica sprinkling herself on each of you. Of course I don't 'get it' because I don't have DID, but I'm so grateful for your energy to talk about this. The human mind is really incredible. Entropy System you are awesome. Thank you.

Is it possible that Abigail was/is the baby you mentioned finding in the headspace a while back?

@TheEntropySystem

4 жыл бұрын

The baby is still present so Abigale is definitely not her. -Wyn

@ParanormalNewsToday

4 жыл бұрын

@@TheEntropySystem Just a thought. Thanks for sharing and replying to us!

I love these update videos.

Loving the new intro.

I just watched your video called “Our daughter has DID” and the comments were turned off, and I just wanted to say your parents are awesome! I hope you have them on again in the future with updates!!! 😊

Looking forward to meeting you at EntitleDID to Life! We're preparing to have more of an online presence but one thing holding us back is that we've gone through something similar to Jessica's... glitter redistribution, lol. We've been calling it the "re-shuffling" and it's weird enough to live through, let alone explain to others. It's like... if our brain is a deck of cards, each card is a trait or memory. We as alters were dealt hands; for example, one alter has cards that read "no trauma memories," "energetic," "outspoken," while a separate alter has cards reading "protector," "into working out," and "wry sense of humor." But then another traumatic event happened. The cards kind of went flying into the air. Now the cards have been scraped back into a neat pile... but no one is quite how they were before. I think we used to have this huge fear of integration or fusing because of that sadness aspect you mentioned; it's like grieving a family member sometimes. But all of those memories and traits that made that person who they were are still in our brain somewhere, and parts we thought were lost before are starting to resurface. It's a weird life, huh?

We have like a reverse thing going on where like our forest is a place where most of us can go (though only Qi the ageless shapeshifting forest spirit actually LIVES there - Qi can also shapeshift anyone who enters the forest while they're in the forest) but there's a library that's just off-limits to most of us right now. And so far that's the entirety of our inner world that I know of. (I actually can't go into the forest though, but I have limited access to areas of the library that contain our dream archives and stories - I've been calling it the Fiction Section. Our Archivist said she closed the library to keep us from being overwhelmed while we figured out communication across mental states that we weren't sure are even separate headmates.)

I have a lil who seems to be around to be the happy lil one.

Your system is so wise and brave

I find it interesting that they used to have a night-only innerworld, because we have the same thing? It's just sort of divided. There's the night area which is the innerworld, and then around it there's a border and on the other side is like an inverted world where it's always daytime that we can't access. We're not currently sure if it's a 'this is where hidden stuff is kept' kinda thing or just a world-end kinda thing though.

good to know this change was more managable emotionally, comforting

Woah I was not expecting the voice change from Wyn to Daniel!

"Hey everyone! It's Ed." My nerdy butt: YOU LITERALLY HAVE ED NYGMA AS A FICTIVE PROTECTOR OH MY GOSH!

I just remembered I watched sense8 because I found your channel lol. I've been trying to remember how i got in to it for so long!🤦🏽‍♀️

That forested area makes me think of the town limit of Storybrooke from Once Upon A Time.

Oooh! I thought we were just wrong about noticing these things and didn't realise this was like *a valid thing* that could genuinely happen until now :O 💜💙💚 One of our old hosts, Angel used to be very disturbed and carry a lot of trauma etc. then they went dormant for almost a decade and recently another alter started sort of bringing them back up to the surface and the end product was Angel having a couple of entirely new alters splitting off of them, a lot of the things they themselves couldn't cope with being passed onto so sooo many alters that were already a part of the system but could actually cope with these things fairly easily and them still existing but becoming pretty much Angel 2.0 who chose their new name and looks nothing like they used to before in the inner world plus is actually doing pretty okayish nowadays and asks for help if needed 👌💜💙💚💛❤

I am going to miss Jessica a little bit. She was a hoot. Also, the changes to the inner world sound crazy. I cannot wait to hear more about it once you all do.

Honestly the Kim Kim quote scene has me chuckling

Unrelated: what anime or franchise is the shirt Daniel is wearing during the intro?

@KyloWylo

4 жыл бұрын

That looks to be from an anime called Zombieland Saga.

@TheEntropySystem

4 жыл бұрын

Yep! It’s Zombieland Saga

@everose602

4 жыл бұрын

That shirt is awesome, I really like the Anime :)

This is fascinating, and I'd never heard about fusion vs integration! I would love to go to the conference, San Francisco is just so far :(

We had a lot of fusion last year and it was really weird and hard because it was the first time we went through it. -Rachael

@pegtheshrek9512

4 жыл бұрын

All the best for your system! I think it is awesome that so many channels of dissociative disorders exist by now and exchange their experiences. You have a great community behind you! Stay strong and keep on healing. You deserve it so much! 💚💚💚

This is off topic, but it needs to be said; your entire look for this episode reminds me of Hikaru/Karu's cheshire cat from the Alice in Wonerland episode of Ouran High School Host Club and I love it!

So did Jessica’s dispersion perhaps give the little boost to Abigail to make her front?

Interesting when you said night is your comfort time. My schedule has been completely off for last two months. Can’t stop watching tv or on my computer to 5:30 am. I have done some all nighters where I don’t sleep the next day. It feels awful. Yet I don’t seem to have control. Also food regime is completely off.

who edits these videos? they're really cool! and thanks for the info, yall. always nice to see your videos

Awww we have a little named Abigail 😍

I can't hear the word "enigma" without thinking "Ed Nigma"

I cant believe I missed a meet and greet with you guys :(

Geez, that sounds like a bit of an existential crisis to have so many alters considering their roles and impact on the system. It's a great position to be in when everyone is communicating and able to consider their roles, not having to integrate because they aren't coping or anything like that. Jessica was the alter who was a therapist, wasn't she? I guess that's why she wanted to make everyone feel a little bit happier. That any information she learned about how to cope and manage as a system would have been shared with anybody not wearing an anti-integration bubble ;) Maybe Abigale has resurfaced because she feels safe, and like it's time to relax and have those happy moments the system didn't get to have when it was younger. Cue epic montage where Abigale and another "allowed" alter skip into the forest singing "Into The Unknown" from Frozen 2.

I almost wonder if because of Jessicas role in the system, if her fusion (trying to use right terms) occurred the way it did as she was the therapist and her job is to make you all more well adjusted and able to cope with your world better... and since she herself can't fuse to herself if that little spark of happiness landed somewhere and birthed abigail.

can anyone suggest did and osdd chat rooms so i can have more people to talk to as i am currently in the works of maybe getting diagonsed with either did or osdd .

Jessica's "melting" , as you defined it , seems like the perfect way to integrate. If all of you can do the same to integrate with the others, you might become a single person as you should have been if you weren't subjected to trauma. None of the integrated would "die" or "cease to exist" , they will simply become one. It looks like the perfect "healing" path from DID. Don't misunderstand me: I don't want you to suffer in ANY WAY. But, if someone needs to overcome and heal from trauma and deserves to be happy, that is you.

Hello all :)). Hope you have great day, thank you for making videos. Btw i wanna also pet Mrs. Norris. 😉🤗🙏

I've known an alter (not from our system) who kinda held trauma from each of the others and when they integrated everyone else got pieces of themselves back (if that makes sense, that's how it was described to me)

It seems like when the time is right fusion will happen.....such is the universe 😉

So is the forest area of the inner world kind of like the mountain caves on the island?

@TheEntropySystem

4 жыл бұрын

No idea :/ at this point we still know basically nothing about it. -Wyn

This was a really interesting video. Random question: Do you need to sleep while in the headspace? Does everyone sleep when the body sleeps or can you sleep individually?