4/4/4 Portal ~ The Great Awakening Begins! ~ Spiritual Reading
The Number Four
“This is the number of completion and the manifestation of Light. In the 4th verse of the first chapter of Genesis God divides the Light from the Darkness. It is a number of understanding and order, and the key which will open many of the magical doors closed to ordinary man. “Men of the highest order show themselves in thought like brilliant rays of light,” says the “Maficon.” They correspond to the number 4. It is the sacred number of Pythagoreans, and is known by them as the straight line. It was over this number that they took their most sacred oaths.
In the Sepher Yetzirah the 4th Path is the grand Crown and the Path from which flow all the powers of Spirit and the Divine essences. In the Highest Sphere 4 is the 4 letters of the name of God - Yod, Hi, Vau, Hi.
In the Sepher of Intellect 4 is the 4 Angels of the World (Michael, Rapahel, Gabriel, Uriel); the 4 Rulers of the Elements (Seraph, Cherub, Tharsis, Ariel). In the Heavenly Sphere 4 is the 4 triplicities of the signs
of the Zodiac and the stars and planets in relation to the elements. These are given as Mars and the Sun; Jupiter and Venus; Saturn and Mercury; the fixed stars and the Moon. This grouping is not always accepted. Another is Sun and Saturn; Jupiter and Venus; Mercury and Mars; Moon and the fixed Stars.
In the Elemental Sphere 4 is the 4 elements; the 4 seasons; the 4 winds; the 4 divisions of life (Animal, Plant, Metal, Stone); the 4 qualities (Heat, Moisture, Cold, Dryness).
In the Lower Sphere 4 is the 4 elements of man (Mind, Spirit, Soul, Body); the 4 powers of soul (Intellect, Reason, Phantasy, Sense); the 4 virtues (Justice, Temperance, Prudence, Fortitude); the 4 bodily elements (Spirit, Flesh, Humours, Bones); the 4 humours (Choler, Blood, Phlegm, Melancholy).
In the Infernal Sphere 4 represents the 4 infernal princes (Samael, Azazel, Azael, Mahazael).
The Occult Symbols of the number 4 are The Emperor; the Cubic Stone; the Key-bearer, the Door of the East; the 4 Cherubim in 4 Wheels; the 4 Sea Horses of Neptune’s Chariot. The Emperor is pictured seated on a throne with the orb surmounted by a cross in his left hand and a trident scepter in his right. He is in complete armor, with the signs of the Sun and Moon on his breast. He is bearded, and his expression is strong, yet kindly.
The Hebrews received the chiefest name of God written with 4 letters,” writes Francis Barrett. “Also the Egyptians, Arabians, Persians, Magicians,Mohammedans, Grecians, Tuscans, and Latins write the name of God with four letters, thus:
THET; ALLA; SIRE; ORSI;
ABDI; OEOS; ESAR; DEUS.”
In English we have Lord; in French Dieu; and in German Gott.
Man receives from the world of Asiah the Nephesch or physical appetites. Man receives from the world of Jezirah the Ruach or passions. Man receives from the world of Briah the Neshamah or reason. Man receives from the world of Aziluth Chaiah or spiritual life.
According to the Quaballistical teachings all the race of man sinned in their parent Adam, for all are contained in him. Thus the children of Adam were condemned to clothe themselves in the material prisons or bodies. From these bodies were they to reach again the lost Paradise. When an earth life was passed the child of earth could proceed from Asiah to Jezirah, from Jezirah to Briah, but he could not, unless purified from earth grossness, enter the sunlit world of the angels - Aziluth - and had therefore to re-enter the earth again to begin his penance anew.. Thus the philosophy of Reincarnation is quite in harmony with Egyptian, Greek, and Indian philosophy, and the philosophy of other nations regarding it.
Four is the number of endurance and immortality, discovery and accomplishment, firmness of purpose, realization of hopes, rule, power, will. The Hebrew equivalent of the number is Daleth. The Vibrations are Solar, and it is always accounted as a fortunate number.” - Isidore Kozminsky
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The Number Four “This is the number of completion and the manifestation of Light. In the 4th verse of the first chapter of Genesis God divides the Light from the Darkness. It is a number of understanding and order, and the key which will open many of the magical doors closed to ordinary man. “Men of the highest order show themselves in thought like brilliant rays of light,” says the “Maficon.” They correspond to the number 4. It is the sacred number of Pythagoreans, and is known by them as the straight line. It was over this number that they took their most sacred oaths. In the Sepher Yetzirah the 4th Path is the grand Crown and the Path from which flow all the powers of Spirit and the Divine essences. In the Highest Sphere 4 is the 4 letters of the name of God - Yod, Hi, Vau, Hi. In the Sepher of Intellect 4 is the 4 Angels of the World (Michael, Rapahel, Gabriel, Uriel); the 4 Rulers of the Elements (Seraph, Cherub, Tharsis, Ariel). In the Heavenly Sphere 4 is the 4 triplicities of the signs of the Zodiac and the stars and planets in relation to the elements. These are given as Mars and the Sun; Jupiter and Venus; Saturn and Mercury; the fixed stars and the Moon. This grouping is not always accepted. Another is Sun and Saturn; Jupiter and Venus; Mercury and Mars; Moon and the fixed Stars. In the Elemental Sphere 4 is the 4 elements; the 4 seasons; the 4 winds; the 4 divisions of life (Animal, Plant, Metal, Stone); the 4 qualities (Heat, Moisture, Cold, Dryness). In the Lower Sphere 4 is the 4 elements of man (Mind, Spirit, Soul, Body); the 4 powers of soul (Intellect, Reason, Phantasy, Sense); the 4 virtues (Justice, Temperance, Prudence, Fortitude); the 4 bodily elements (Spirit, Flesh, Humours, Bones); the 4 humours (Choler, Blood, Phlegm, Melancholy). In the Infernal Sphere 4 represents the 4 infernal princes (Samael, Azazel, Azael, Mahazael). The Occult Symbols of the number 4 are The Emperor; the Cubic Stone; the Key-bearer, the Door of the East; the 4 Cherubim in 4 Wheels; the 4 Sea Horses of Neptune’s Chariot. The Emperor is pictured seated on a throne with the orb surmounted by a cross in his left hand and a trident scepter in his right. He is in complete armor, with the signs of the Sun and Moon on his breast. He is bearded, and his expression is strong, yet kindly. The Hebrews received the chiefest name of God written with 4 letters,” writes Francis Barrett. “Also the Egyptians, Arabians, Persians, Magicians,Mohammedans, Grecians, Tuscans, and Latins write the name of God with four letters, thus: THET; ALLA; SIRE; ORSI; ABDI; OEOS; ESAR; DEUS.” In English we have Lord; in French Dieu; and in German Gott. Man receives from the world of Asiah the Nephesch or physical appetites. Man receives from the world of Jezirah the Ruach or passions. Man receives from the world of Briah the Neshamah or reason. Man receives from the world of Aziluth Chaiah or spiritual life. According to the Quaballistical teachings all the race of man sinned in their parent Adam, for all are contained in him. Thus the children of Adam were condemned to clothe themselves in the material prisons or bodies. From these bodies were they to reach again the lost Paradise. When an earth life was passed the child of earth could proceed from Asiah to Jezirah, from Jezirah to Briah, but he could not, unless purified from earth grossness, enter the sunlit world of the angels - Aziluth - and had therefore to re-enter the earth again to begin his penance anew.. Thus the philosophy of Reincarnation is quite in harmony with Egyptian, Greek, and Indian philosophy, and the philosophy of other nations regarding it. Four is the number of endurance and immortality, discovery and accomplishment, firmness of purpose, realization of hopes, rule, power, will. The Hebrew equivalent of the number is Daleth. The Vibrations are Solar, and it is always accounted as a fortunate number.” - Isidore Kozminsky Numbers: Their Meaning and Magic: amzn.to/2Qfs9UT *Decks Used* 1. Archangel Metatron Self-mastery Oracle - amzn.to/35ZX6SQ 2. Art Through the Eyes Oracle of the Soul - amzn.to/2ZAQVlR 3. CEJ Tarot - not for sale 4. Zillich Tarot - amzn.to/34XoG1L 5. Spiritual Path Oracle - not for sale 6. Cosmic Reading Cards - amzn.to/2xxBfWi *****Disclaimers***** The links listed above, for the products used in this video, are affiliate links with amazon.com. I will receive a small advertising fee each time those links are used. I am not a licensed physician. Anything expressed in this video is my personal opinion and should be viewed as entertainment purposes only. CEJ Instagram: instagram.com/consciousnessevolutionjourney/ CEJ Facebook: facebook.com/Consciousness-Evolution-Journey-112643496756076
@aussieaussieaussie9438
4 жыл бұрын
This is a beautiful run down of the number 4. Always been my favorite number (13 is lucky... 1+3=4, just noticed that!). I'm also 31 this year! WOWEE... all just came to me now! Synchronicity 🙃
@nadabayomi6747
4 жыл бұрын
Thank you. I was born on the 4th too . Rahu 🙏🙏
@JoJo-qc4il
4 жыл бұрын
Thank you this is so helpful 💖☀️🙏🏼
@meganhoward8820
4 жыл бұрын
I have a question about the planets. I was looking to see when Saturn was last in aries and it shows that right now saturn is in Aquarius is that right or am i still lost? Lol
@meganhoward8820
4 жыл бұрын
25:17 talking about needing other people. I like a part of one of Adele songs she says ill be my own savior when the thunder comes to call. I liked this a lot because i was zapped a couple times. Let me elaborate because i wasnt directly hit but i have been connected to voltage a couple times and its terrifying... I became scared of storms so much that i couldn't sleep if it was even raining... I got trapped in my car because i was afraid to run to the building with a thunder storm happening. I had to find the courage to be my own savior. Fight the beast.
I literally woke up at 4:44 this morning.
@ToriGirlytar
4 жыл бұрын
Me too!
@tinalight7106
4 жыл бұрын
I was 44th like on your comment✨💫🦋
@andreaanonymous5474
4 жыл бұрын
I got a call today from a number I didn't recognize. When I called it back, the woman that answered said she was the only one there and she hadn't called me. It was the main office of a place called Park 44 at 4444 West Pine Boulevard. Since I see 444 and 44 all the time and I am currently looking for an apartment and this place is an apartment complex-Sign? Or caller ID spoofer? That was a weird one, I thought I would share :)
@xenia1871
4 жыл бұрын
Awesome :)
@danemoore7826
4 жыл бұрын
Me too...
I have been sober and on this soul journey exactly 4 years on 4/4/2020.
@ravenmoriah6557
4 жыл бұрын
Oh wow that's amazing good for you congratulations 👏😀
@angiem7789
4 жыл бұрын
@@ravenmoriah6557 Thank you! ❤
@katherinelewis1903
4 жыл бұрын
That's great news ❤️ you are strong ❤️
@angiem7789
4 жыл бұрын
@@katherinelewis1903 Thank you very much!❤
@mjlim3977
4 жыл бұрын
Congrats and keep on going👏🏻👍❗️
The fact that everywhere I look i’m seeing more and more people coming into this light and understanding is incredible. There is no denying the changes, sure many sleep still; but we are awakening. The void she speaks of has happened before during the Lemurian age, this is a repeat of the past but this time we passed the test. Happy Ascension everyone 🙏🙏
@sandeebyington8537
4 жыл бұрын
It's such a lonely and listless void. I want any other feeling than this at this point. I feel spiritually dead and I don't like it one bit
@SatumainenOlento
4 жыл бұрын
Celebration!!! 😀
@Tatacchan
4 жыл бұрын
@@sandeebyington8537 I understand your feeling, it's happening to me too. What I found to help was making a conscious CHOICE to feel and do things which fill me up with love and positivity. We always have a choice, as Bashar says. That said, sometimes allowing it to be and really feeling the situation helps. Only then you can release it and replace it with something better. But know that you're not alone in feeling this way. Not everyone is leaping with joy and throwing flowers everywhere. I find that when I wait for someone outside of me (like God/Spirit, Angels, Spirits Guides, Higher Self, etc) to make me feel better, the feeling persists. When I bring the power back within myself and remember that I am the creator of my own reality, things shift. Good luck Sandee
@Empre55
4 жыл бұрын
Same to you🙌🏾💃🏾🤸🏾♀️🤗💫♾
@AwakeAware-rt5el
4 жыл бұрын
Pheonix Wilson... So very well said dear brother of light!!! 🙏💜🤩🚀🌟
In the 1980’s I knew that this system was going to implode and shift. I learned that how we would survive these times would be to connect to one’s heart and develop one’s intuition. I started meditating in my 20’s to grow my intuition and now at 58 years old I’m entering my second Saturn return. I had a lot of judgement from sharing my wisdom of meditation and spirit back in my 20’s so now I have to be brave and share.
@franklopez557
4 жыл бұрын
You are an attractive woman.
@ruthpeddinghaus9619
4 жыл бұрын
Yes, I feel your truth!
@Keshouu
4 жыл бұрын
By all means, feed your courage and share. This is the time where is needed the most.
@ZC-xs4zl
4 жыл бұрын
Myself as well, and also 58 this year.❤️
@dragonflysadler
4 жыл бұрын
Thanks so much. Here’s to life and love!
I believe the human trafficking, the corruption, and the poor innocent children will maybe be saved once and for all. This pandemic is a world clean up.
@mabelregis4771
4 жыл бұрын
Elaine C-T Thank you for talking about this. I turned and tuned into Quan Yon and that has helped ❤️👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾🌱
@momof3639
4 жыл бұрын
Mabel Regis you are welcome. I truly believe the Illuminati will pay for what they’ve done and how else can all these criminals be held accountable with the world still running in normal operations. I’m not scared with this “ pandemic” at all, I know it’s for the greater good. I’ve been expecting it!!
@jacksmith4460
4 жыл бұрын
in January and Feb...EVERY reading I watched had Tower, Storm Warning or Vulture cards appearing...all the same message...transformation, clearing out rotten matter etc, that tracks with people seeing whats truly wrong. Pre 2020 I kept seeing readings with Illness/sickness cards coming out. I have known for 10 years + that this time would come, I did not know a pandemic would be the trigger but I knew this was coming.
@judithgreene5235
4 жыл бұрын
Yes I agree. Huge purge taking place.
@chrismytina9969
4 жыл бұрын
As do I. I keep getting confirmation on what I think is happening truly is happening. Life will be better than I could ever imagine.
Also 4 is Archangel Michael's number 💙💙💙💙 The leader of Heavens Army, here to defeat the forces of darkness ⚔🔥🛡
@bellelareign1267
4 жыл бұрын
😮
@TheStarEmpress22
4 жыл бұрын
Wow! I did not know that. Cool!
@Qu33nMary444
4 жыл бұрын
@@TheStarEmpress22 :) Yes, whenever I see 44 or 444 I know it's my Man Michael saying hi!
@melainymcdonough1986
4 жыл бұрын
Double like. Triple like. Quadruple like. 😇
@Qu33nMary444
4 жыл бұрын
@@melainymcdonough1986 All the likes! 😇💙
This awakening for me has been a bit painful because I can see some peoples true faces. Painful because some are family
@Blisz_La_Priestess
4 жыл бұрын
Norma Tee yes it is painful to see because it’s family too I see their true faces. But it’s out of mine & your control it was meant to reveal. God Got Us Sister ❤️🧡💛💚🧿💜✨
@RoseyRosy1
4 жыл бұрын
I felt that.
@keirawalker9558
4 жыл бұрын
Unfortunately, not everyone is like us and that includes "family".
@Blisz_La_Priestess
4 жыл бұрын
Keira Walker Facts💯❤️🧡💛💚🧿💜
@debrathain
4 жыл бұрын
Norma Tee me too. It is mostly family for me. So true. I relate to your post. I’m right there with you.
Whenever you struggle... Stand with your arms and legs apart like the Davinci Man And connect with your light family across the globe. You are connected. Nothing can harm you. Clear and ground and breathe
@ebeb516
4 жыл бұрын
mermamma 🌈😇🙏🧜♀️🕊🌿💜🕉
@TheFabulousLV
4 жыл бұрын
That’s the pose for connecting with universal life energy.
@d1ehl.
4 жыл бұрын
Beautifully spoken! 💙
@tishainess9339
4 жыл бұрын
❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
I'm life path 4. I'm 44yrs young. On 4th yr of awakening journey wow
Remember clearly Star Seeds no darkness can stand within your light. You carry the power within your intention and will to cast it into the light. Rise, and walk this earth as the blessed, divine royalty that you are. I bow in reverence to your greatness. You are ushering in heaven on earth. May your every single step upon this earth be showered in Christ scented pedals of light for you are all truly divine embodiment of the light of God. Namaste
@magicwandm
4 жыл бұрын
I'm a common person. I'm not sure about my purpose in this however I feel connected to something I cannot explicitly explain.. i resonate with being a starseed, i followed the starseed reading and I am a starseed however I do not know how to contribute. I can't read cards or such. I don't know how to help others, but I want to. how can a common person like me help others.as an individual please i want to know how can I do my part
@debel6078
4 жыл бұрын
So beautiful! Love & thanks ✨ ⭐️ 💫
@ricb2015
4 жыл бұрын
@@magicwandm seek and you will find, knock and Your door will open, look inside to find the cosmos that appears outside..look harder
@queenjustice9994
4 жыл бұрын
Weird I have been saying darknes cannot drive out darkness only LIGHT can do that, Hate cannot drive out hate only LOVE can do that - MLK 💫🕊
4 жыл бұрын
@@queenjustice9994 Yes, I agree with that. Chosen well from a "Giant" who walked this Earth. Despite this though - Many still would not comply to the universal "Law of Love". The bitterness held within their souls for generations, would continue to destroy the indigenous population here on "Mother Earth" !!
Today i felt weak, alone, forgotten and irrelevant. Im so grateful I clicked the video today attitude and all. I feel so much motivation and love to keep going with my readings and path. I almost shut down today thank you for your wisdom
@ericajones2537
4 жыл бұрын
TRUST IN GOD DIVINE HE WILL GUIDE YOU. You are never alone. TRUST & BELIEVE . You are only overlooked ignored and rejected by people who aren't meant to be in your life. Let go in peace and keep ATTITUDE OF GRATITUDE.
@sunnyseacat9232
4 жыл бұрын
Look at your online name: "The Trap Goddess" Why not something uplifting? Every time you say/write that name, you are indeed saying that you are trapped!
@kaythecoach4958
4 жыл бұрын
Trap stands for TRANSFORM. RELEASE. AFFIRM.PERSEVERE... i do this and have always. I was in a trap but im out and its my goal to get other out that same trap i was in 💫
@silvana8289
4 жыл бұрын
❤️❤️❤️
@danillerakes2742
4 жыл бұрын
My beautiful sister I know first hand how that feels but we are never alone we are always surrounded by LIGHT & LOVE. Also we are all connected with that same light and love. I am sending you a spiritual hug and a virtual hug too. Look in the mirror and tell yourself that you are beautiful and you are important and God did not make a mistake making you. Every negative word remove from your vocabulary and replace with positive words. Prayers for healing and blessings coming your way
The more you focus on what you want, the more you will get it. You find yourself in a better place because you decided many years ago that you want to be in a better place. Congratulations on reaching this point in life to receive this clarification ❤️😇🙏
First post I saw on IG this morning said “I am open to a new way of being”.. I said to myself I want to live a more truthful to myself. Authenticity! 😊
@earthcruzer5365
4 жыл бұрын
Me too♡♡♡♡
@spiritualhealingbutterfly1379
4 жыл бұрын
Theresa Sao YES🙌🏾🙌🏾
@queenjustice9994
4 жыл бұрын
Same here! 🙏🏽
Been in soul training 63 yrs! Seeing the light so strong and spreading whenever and wherever I can! Peace
@Kcali111
4 жыл бұрын
Peace love unity respect Big 💝
@beckyluvsboys
4 жыл бұрын
Peace love and light to you all
I am praying for justice as the evil ones need to be exposed and dealt with
@Jeff-uq7iu
4 жыл бұрын
This Friday!
@kiwi9921
4 жыл бұрын
🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
@juliadixon4810
4 жыл бұрын
25th Amendment Now!!
My awakening happened December 2018 and 2019 was a ROUGH year, but I manifested ALOT. I dealt with depression anxiety etc after my near death bus accident at work December 2018. This time last year I was dealing with depression while building my youth development program. Although I experienced all of that my youth development program was born, I have a background in education and as much as I tried to get away from it, I was forced back into working with youth. I wanted to officially launch in September 2020 but all of this corona stuff has stopped me from fundraising, I’m ok with that because I have so much more I have to get prepared for, I’m so grateful for my awakening. I still experience seeing numbers and feathers or ducks randomly walking alone side of me when I’m out talking to nature or birds fly close to me as I’m in the zone of connecting to the universe. I meditated several times a week. I’m grateful for ALL of my experiences 🧘🏽♀️💫🙌🏾
@reginamcray4345
4 жыл бұрын
I feel 2018 was a very rough year for received a diagnosis which required several surgeries in 2019. I'm healthy whole and complete and a much better place spiritually. Wanting for someone to hire me this month which is my birth month, Taurus.
I see 444 every other day in the year of 2019 alone. I see 10:10, 11:11, 12:12, 111
@Banksydoe
4 жыл бұрын
Vibrating High me too. I see 11:11, 2:22, 3:33, 4:44, 5:55, 1:11, and 777 every day multiple times a day sometimes I see all of them back to back
@alminaomerbasic1267
4 жыл бұрын
same here
@ashamariah3448
4 жыл бұрын
Me too I started seeing numbers in 2015..444 333 555 222 1222 808 848 888 999 427 1010 1111 1212
@letpeaceprevail.m.615
4 жыл бұрын
Me too.
@letpeaceprevail.m.615
4 жыл бұрын
@@ashamariah3448 , thank god somebody is talking about 1212, 1222, 808, 1010.
I clicked on this and saw on my phone display 4:44 pm and 4G data and 40% battery 😲
@a.christine8720
4 жыл бұрын
I did too only for a brief moment.
@franklopez557
4 жыл бұрын
Oh man and 40 likes. :/
@kattmendoza4746
4 жыл бұрын
Damn
@Raphael6969
4 жыл бұрын
Run Forest Run!!!!
444 has haunted and followed me so much these last 2 years. I see it all the time. I have been having such a hard time with anxiety and my physical health the past 2 months. My respiratory system and sinuses have been such issues!! Nausea..Extreme fatigue as well. Steadily trying to fight through and overcome. This reading was relieving to me. Thank you for doing this.
444 the angels and gods army are taking over now in this critical times it s no longer in humanitys hands... a new world blessings to all❤️
Yes! I do see shadow beings in my 3rd eye. I've always seen them since I was born. And I felt them around me. Angels have come in to get rid of them for me several times throughout my life. The first time they came in to help was in a dream. Two of them came in and I remember them sooooo vividly. Recently, I've been meeting my guides in my dreams. I even, yesterday while napping, I had a dream about me being in a room full of orbs. The room was really bright. And I could feel them around me. Then my sister who passed last year was there. It was so real! And I knew I had astral traveled. While I was talking to her. They ruled her death an accident. But I asked her if that was correct and she said something about a jealous girl. But that's all I can remember. It was so surreal. But yes. I feel my Psychic gifts growing. Thank you for the lovely reading. Much light and love to you.
@lopezc25
4 жыл бұрын
Same here, I've always seen shadow beings especially when times are rough. I recently too was able to meet my guides. It was pretty awesome . Thank you for sharing
@lovelightshining4444
4 жыл бұрын
You're ascending and coming fully online with your abilities. Protect yourself divine one. Sleep with quartz under your pillow, shungite if possible and be sure and clear any and all darker contracts offered to you in your dream state. Darker forces are operating during these times. Blessings Namaste
I always see 11:11, 10:10, 4:44
@sabrinax4575
4 жыл бұрын
Michelle Matjeke I always see 3:33 my life path number
@michellematjeke5396
4 жыл бұрын
Sabrina X yes I just saw that today and I was drawn to it couldn’t ignore it
@bri_sungoddess8316
4 жыл бұрын
I see 1111.. 222...333..444 ALL THE TIME!
@bellahray5495
4 жыл бұрын
This is all calling for spiritual awakening
This is insaaaaannnnneeee, I just started awakening my self 2 weeks ago during the breakout week in USA. And I came across this video because 3 and 4 are my favorite numbers, I was told by a friend that I may be able to use tarot cards good because of how much of an empath I am so I decided to give a look. Every. Single. Card. You. Drew. Corresponded to what I’ve gone and had to go through to get to April 2nd 2020. And I could even think of people off the bat that mentored me etc... Thank you for waking me up the rest of the way
@marthaxo_
4 жыл бұрын
robert gonzales watch @behatilife on KZread
I watch a lot of tarot readers but you are by far my favorite. There’s just something so calming about your voice. I’m a Scorpio sun and have a lot of scorpio in my chart and I watch all of your Scorpio readings and I love that even when the cards could imply we might have to endure some sort of hardship (which we as Scorpios are no stranger to lol) you advise us in such a way that makes us feel empowered. Your readings never disappoint and I appreciate you and all that you do ❤️
Literally found this videos directly at 4:44 AM
We are powerful starseeds nothing stopping us get ready it will be a fun ride .
@ardathbeekman7833
4 жыл бұрын
@Anon Person you can I have faith in you that you will get through this .I'm always here for you
Wow.This reading brought so much clarity.I'm going through a awaking. I've had some stuff go on in my life that are unspeakable. I'm not done with people I just need myself.I'm taking my power back. I can't stop crying.All happy tears. Thank you.Sending 💘.
Thank you for your incredible reading! After my husband’s shocking death at the age of 67, you have helped me so much! I have become a lot more spiritual, intuitive, and strong! I do not fear any more and hAve become forgiving and have forgiven myself... You are an amazing person who has helped me to overcome all my insecurities and challenges in life! I feel strong and protected by God and my amazing Guardians as never before! God bless you! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Sending lots if love, light, healing to the world.
All these eyes in the different cards are just popping out to me & feel it means our conciousness & psychic abilities are really getting an upgrade now especially for the people here watching these videos & other people that are seeking out information in a myriad of ways as well. U say u are closed off but as a messenger of these teachings u are even more intensely connected & open than we are!!! I feel u are at a level higher than us tho u are so humble so don't think of yourself in that way...but seriously how could u not be?!! Anyway I love your work here on this channel & we so need to hear these super important words of wisdom. U are such a lighthouse in the darkness. I pray for the highest blessings to u in every area of your life with so much love ☮💕🙏🌻🌷🌠🌞🌙🔮🕉
@kathiv3992
4 жыл бұрын
Sansi Aray Amen
@MysticLeoStarr
4 жыл бұрын
Sansi arey... i agree with u! Im so happy about! Finally some good news!!! Something good to look forward to durin our heartbroken down time! I have been prayin alot lately n that dear Lord all I want is to just b happy with my babies! If i cant have my love then I just wanna be happy with my kids! N I wanna put my own tarot channel out too! Sooo woot woot! Oh yea, do da dance, oh yea!!! Woot woot!!! Thx again for puttin this reading out! N uh to everyone take care of yourselves!!!!
@chelseacaracci2469
4 жыл бұрын
Me too
3 years ago my paradigm shifted...it was terrifying. Yesterday was my 49th birthday. My life path number is 7. 7 of the 7 of the 7. I don't know what or if that is significant...but I woke this morning feeling a shift of some kind. Looking forward to what's next. I watched your Starseed soul bond vs mat/chem video and woke to this video. Thank you for you and your youness💓
@liz.217
4 жыл бұрын
I turn 49 on the 23rd. I heard in numerology your life starts at 49. The first 7 cycles of 7 years are only preparations for your true path. I'm ready!
I had a life crisis 4/4/04 ,16 yrs later I’m watching you Empress,I love your energy and thanks for the guidance helping me get threw tough times...u are a true healer ❤️ oh yea I see 44 numberous times a day, night, it be like 👋 hey I’m here lol love my 44’s❤️
Around 10:15 talking of calling on the angels to help in the times i find trying. I wanted to share this. The other day i was cleaning garbage from side streets and i thought my keys got locked in the car. I lost myself for a moment to realize the passenger side didnt lock.. Only my driver side. It was a test and a message to stay calm and resolve rather that melt and dissolve. Ty.
Love your energy is beautiful Thank you for sharing your light ❤
Time to forgive and forget all that done to us!!! Spread the love 💕
Thank you for your love and light this reached me at a time I needed it the most, spirit is so kind. I asked for spirit to send the universal messages I need to receive in order to transcend. I came across this video and each card pulled was the message or the confirmation as to who I am and my purpose. 4/4/20 marks my 30th birthday. All the synchronicities are so powerful it’s impossible to overlook. For the past 3 days up to 4/4/20 (birthday) a wild rabbit has crossed my path...the third sighting this morning i began to realize that spirit is sending a message. Rabbit symbolizes fertility and abundance...fertility card pulled reconfirming that this is the rebirth (Ascension) when you mentioned the dark forces that reconfirmed my thoughts that I believe spirit is giving me. Theirs a very dark unspeakable force moving around us...but I have only begun to realize and it was confirmed through spirit that I am light...just like many others here and no evil force shall work against us! in fact we are untouchable. Now is the time for all light workers to start cracking their knuckles because we are going to be called during this time of the paradigms shifting and changing. We’re in complete activation mode and now starting to understand our purpose as we are finding comfort in accepting our purpose at this time. Thank you spirit and angels for coming forth through this reading and for your guidance and protection. 🌟💫⭐️✨
I had to forgive my mother and that was the heaviest and took the longest to do. I am a capricorn and I have a good amount of capricorn In my chart and this message speaks sooo deeply to me ❤️
@sansiaray777
4 жыл бұрын
Me too! It's especially hard when it's your mother as it's suppose to be the strongest bond so it really hurts badly...much love to u 💕🙏
@teresacullen5687
4 жыл бұрын
💖💫💚
@CarolAnnHenderson
4 жыл бұрын
Me too. Sending you love. Good for you. Forgiveness is a key to happiness and inner peace.
@lindaforseth8580
4 жыл бұрын
My truth exactly! You took my breath away!
@brittanystrohmaier2770
4 жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing. ❤️ I am going through the same right now.. I am a Capricorn and my mom is Capricorn too. 😳
I had chills on me at very powerfully spoken interpretations throughout this entire read..& lets not leave out my tears..
@jiannemaldita3941
4 жыл бұрын
Felt the same here. I accidentally watched this video and the chills intensifies throughout the video, it's like I have chills within my whole body! This is overwhelming! Whew!
@TaWandaJoyner
4 жыл бұрын
@Elaine Williams....I just wanted to say hello as Elaine William's is my maternal grandmother's name. It made me smile😊 to see it here. Much Love to U❣
@elainewilliams4020
4 жыл бұрын
Spirit always has a way to speak, remind, n bring back particular memories.. We are all connected..hope seeing ur gmas name brought sunshine to ur day...
@TaWandaJoyner
4 жыл бұрын
@@elainewilliams4020 It did. 🤗😊🌷🌞❣
Lovely reading honey, we all need this lights of LORD JESUS throughout the darkness right now yes I claim this beautiful reading of your energy of lights and peaces loves and blessing 🙏💖💖💖🙏🙏🙏🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌻🌻🌻I love it 🙏🌹🌻
And also the 4 elements: Earth, Fire, Air, Water! And also I was born on the 4th and that's all there is to know! 😂 And 4:4:4 is when my angels from beyond speak to me. As always, you give us hope for a more enlightened world. Sending you ❤️ ✨🌙 !
@TheStarEmpress22
4 жыл бұрын
Sabrina Dinucci oh shit you got me thinking with your comment. In a good way 😄 I’m also born on the 4th 🤗
@camcummins
4 жыл бұрын
❤️
Thank you for this reading! You bring me hope and I claimed this as a sign. On 4/4/2020 I will be sitting down to take my NCLEX exam and hopefully that will lead me to obtain my nursing license. I’m very nervous and but I trust that everything will be okay. I can’t wait to go out there and use my skills to help and bring comfort to those which are more vulnerable as is my fated path. Thank you for bringing comfort to my soul, you are an angel amidst the chaos 😇❤️
@sansiaray777
4 жыл бұрын
Good luck on your exam. I am a private caregiver so I totally relate 💕🙏
@MissTiffanyGalore
4 жыл бұрын
You should be very excited to pass the nclex exam! You are ready! We believe in you Taína !!
@mjlim3977
4 жыл бұрын
Goodluck❗️ You’re going to pass it, just be positive🙏🏼👍
@rebeccadeschenes4648
4 жыл бұрын
Wow & I read this on 4/3/2020
@NNSegura
4 жыл бұрын
Thank you everyone. Today I found out that I passed!
You are on fire. Your videos are keeping me sane right now... Much love and thank you XX
My awakening has been crazy! I went from being homeless in the woods walking through the creek finding crystals and getting connected with their energy, picking up what resonates from many sources including channelings, connecting dots in religion, politics, now I'm a father to a beautiful baby girl and I've grown tremendously. I have a huge assortment of crystals and have discovered the bliss vibration of source and let nothing external inflict fear on me. I'm rambling lol sending my love to all
@michaeljohnston1448
4 жыл бұрын
This reading really resonates with me thank you
Thank you for everything you do!! Truly grateful for all the messages you have ever shared! 🙏🏼💜
JUST YESTERDAY I WAS BOMBARDED THOSE SYNC NUMBERS. I TOOK THEM FOR DATES TO WRITE DOWN AND WAIT FOR..WHAT EVER WOULD APPEAR.. WELL NOW I KNOW WHAT THEY ARE FOR..THERE ARE NO COINCIDENCES...BLESSED BE..✌💜🧡💛💚💙❤🤗 FOR ALL. THANK YOU FOR YOUR WORK..IT IS ALWAYS APPRECIATED..SISTER.😃
@melainymcdonough1986
4 жыл бұрын
How? Just curious? Do you mean like 1:28 is Jan 28?
This immediately resonated with me because 444 had always been a number that has showed up for me. Just as I’m laying in bed when the notification came I on my phone. 😊 thank you.
Wow, beautiful reading! Resonates on all levels...shadow and false light beings have been initiators and teachers for me...I do have to forgive them and myself for falling prey to thier trickster games...we are all one after all, in this grand orchestra! And we ourselves are dark and light. Thanks again beautiful, for all you do!! XO ✨🌈✨🌿🌎🌿
Special shout out to you for sharing your knowledge, love and light! Sending more for you 💛🌈💫☀️
Lately have seen a lot of 11:11 111 and 444. Omg I was shuffling my Work Your Light oracle cards and a card fell out and it was The Age of Light and as I read it you said those exact words 🙏🏼 as I continued I pulled Awakening (energetic upgrades a new way of being) as you spoke about those exact things. I have been feeling stuck and not feeling as though I have any gifts and then this 🌟. I have had a lot of emotional issues throughout my life. You really spoke to me throughout this reading ❤️
@k.h.307
4 жыл бұрын
I see 3s, the Holy Trinity
@lovelightshining4444
4 жыл бұрын
Please look up the meanings of the soul communication of these numbers. Josie Grouse has a great video about them. Your Angel's are guiding you. Keep noticing and acknowledge the fact that you are receiving the communication from them. They love you and they are available and always with you. {~~~~~~Namaste ~~~~~~}
@lovelightshining4444
4 жыл бұрын
@@k.h.307 Christed energy 333 Is assuring you that he is with you. Have no fear. 💝
@44ascendingfire79
4 жыл бұрын
44th 👍 4th comment😘
@lovelightshining4444
4 жыл бұрын
@@44ascendingfire79 I too saw 4:44 today. ♡
I believe in the Shadow Beings. I have a person who I believe is my T/F. We have been together for 5 years. He comes from a very toxic background to the point that he has a lot of toxic behavours as well. I have had to deal with people in his family that I think are Shadow Beings. They have tried everything in their power to split us up for 5 years. When I was in their company I got bad vibes that I had to stop them from coming to my house. I am an empath and my person could not understand why I could not have them around. He left because of that and we have been in separation for 7 months now.
THANK YOU! 💗🌈🌟 I consider you a Mentor, an Angelic Guide in human form. I am so thankful for you and your wisdom, your messages and your beautiful radiant energy! I aspire to do for others what you've done for me 💗 Also yay Pisces! I'm a Cancer with a Pisces Moon, no wonder I vibe with you so much 😊 Blessed Be!
Thanks I totally understand as I have been singing the age of Aquarius for weeks now and also seeing a lot of Angel number especially today with 444. Have a blessed day xx
@tanyacrisp9300
4 жыл бұрын
Julie Peck lol my jam has been Winds of change by the Scorpions for months😀
@juliepeck1596
4 жыл бұрын
Tanya Crisp isn't funny how these messages come to us, most people don't even realise.
The second card, seeing our past differently...I was shown this! This is part of carrying our own cross and purging ALL the negative from our past! We do that by feeling the emotion and working with it till we SEE how it was done for our GOOD! Then it’s released! We become lighter and can ascend further! All heavy burdens and vices must be dealt with and purged! Especially FEAR! Fear is root of so much! Fear of rejection! Etc!
Yep I’m on the side of the awakening wanting to help humanity coming along the way you talk about 🙏🏽😇🦋 Of course more awakening coming - but a very beautiful thing happening for Gaia and is, if we collectively heed the call finally! And that’s what I believe is happening and transforming into ❤️
⚘YOU are incredible! I can ALWAYS count on YOU for "uplifting". Thank you for gifting us Your Energy. XOXOXOX
Four is my favorite number. As a little girl I always doodled the number four then found out it’s my life path number and I even named my child Four.
I'm not being conceited I'm just very excited that it is all fitting and what you are saying resonates 1000%
Saturn is my Ruling planet xoxo mawh 😙 👄 ❤ this reading brings me happiness as it is all clicking in place
Awesome! Not only do I forgive the things from my past that I perceived as having been negative, I have much gratitude and appreciation for all that I have experienced. And as Matt Kahn says, “whatever shows up - love that“! You have such a sweet and beautiful voice! Thank you 🙏🏻💗 👏 😊 💐
The entire year of 2019, the 4's hunted me down...i still have pics in my phone bcuz I couldn't believe it......i hit 7444 in the lottery too....
@danix454
4 жыл бұрын
Mark Haughton collapsed those numbers (or something close to them) into this reality. Check out his KZread.
When I was four years old I connected with angels🕊I'm grateful for them always being with me and helped me during my journey🙏I'm born on the 4th day♒🌌💙Thank you so much Dee🌠💙
I am so grateful for you and your incredible readings. They’re so amazingly insightful and are giving me hope and strength during these transformative times. Thank you. ❤️🙏🏻
I've seen so many syncronicities today, it is unbelievable ... the are continously coming one after another rapidly! Every synchronicity you can possibly think of is rapidly appearing one after another!!! More so today than ever! I AM CHOSEN DIVINE LIGHT!
The frequency of your voice is sooo light ! You’re vibin’ high chica
I literally just posted on FB about this! Love love love to you ❤️
MY BIRTHDAY WAS APRIL 4TH... AND I MOST CERTAINLY FEEL *UPLIFTED*. Namaste 💖
I am so excited for this rebirth! I have earned so much innerStanding during this infinite process! Lots of downloads... lots of headaches😣.... but it’s worth it! I’ve been speaking about the Aquarian Age for YEARS and everybody slowly began to drift away.... I am grateful for that because it exposed so many and their inauthenticity. Definitely better for it! It wasn’t easy but the disconnections were necessary! I have embraced how man-kind will do all things to cause fear and we’re seeing it now... only I know it’s an illusion.... a distraction as powRaful events are taking place right now! Mother Earth’s frequencies are sooooo HIGH ... it’s best to reprogram the subconscious thoughts and old world thinking in order to raise your conscious thoughts and awareness. Let’s keep our vibrations HIGH!! It is the only way. Sending love, peace, health, and gift abundance energy to all!!👁🌌✨💫❤️❤️❤️🦋🦋🦋
Thank you for your help here. You really help me more them you probably know. I belive some time this month the Big change, or the reveling of how our earth has been controlled will be announced. For the better of us all. I could be wrong, but I think not. Love is the Key . We all have keys, let's use them. Open the door, let in the Light.
Just paid a crystal shipment $44.40 I can't wait to get my babies. Beautiful reading 🦋
It’s really help and inspire me a lot. Much appreciated with love. 🙏🙏🙏
What an Incredible reading and messages for all of us light workers and star seeds!!! I am so excited for this time! Saturn did a number and I am grateful for all I experienced to ground myself now same time rising like I've never risen before!!!! In complete appreciation!!
Much love to everyone. I always feel so encouraged by this comment section. And thank you for our reading! 🙏💜
Just discovered your channel today and I have spent my morning watching you videos. Aries 23rd March. I just want to say thank you so much. Stay safe and stay blessed. 🙏🏾
@consciousnessevolutionjourney
4 жыл бұрын
Happy belated birthday to you!!! Wishing you a beautiful and blessed solar year!
@sansiaray777
4 жыл бұрын
Welcome to the family! This is my absolute favorite channel & has been for a year now since I found her myself. She is an awsome messenger/teacher & sure u will love her too. I usually watch her videos at least twice cuz there is sooo much information to take in. I always get excited to see another like minded person join our group yay! 💕🙏🕉
@xoxaxo9791
4 жыл бұрын
Happy belated birthday! Mine was March 21 :)
@mjlim3977
4 жыл бұрын
Happy belated birthday🎂❗️
@mumba7295
4 жыл бұрын
@@xoxaxo9791 Thank you. Happy belated birthday too 🎉
Sending out love and light, prayers and blessings for all the collective! Especially to our world leaders and front line defenders. 💛🌈🙏💫☀️
Listening to this again and sooo much resonates!! Thank you Saturn.... angels, guides, and ascended ancestors!!! I am sooo grateful for the healing!! I’ve endured YEARS of pain, betrayal, and turmoil! But I am resilient! 🥰🥰🥰 I’m better for it all!
I am 44 and I am seeing this at 4:44am 😁
The end of Last year suddenly I had a feeling for a moment that something big was coming ,thank you for this wonderful reading 🙏💕 I was born August 10 10:10 in the morning :)
I would like to thank you for your support through my journey. I got a lot of messages through you. I'm sending you my love.
True CEJ! I'm an activist from way back from saying no to Apartheid and freeing Nelson Mandela to a Nuclear Free Pacific, but now its about the dignity of all human beings. CEJ! You are great my friend. Love your vibe Sista! Take care! Bless you and your kids!
Making me laugh because I literally patted myself on my back this morning for all that I have overcome. Love you beloved 🕉
444 means an absolute harmony, about which people can dream only.
Love & Light to you and all of you light carrier out there. I'm so grateful!
I knew you were a Pisces! They always have so much compassion & gentleness in their voices! I’m a Pisces rising so I just feel so safe around you guys. Thank you!!✨✨✨
xx ✌️ xx 4/4 is my birthday....thanx for your reading....xx ✌️ xx
@consciousnessevolutionjourney
4 жыл бұрын
Wishing you a magical birthday :) may all of your birthday wishes unfold this year! Blessed be!
@Kate-hh8yi
4 жыл бұрын
🌬💜 happy birthday ☀️
@mjlim3977
4 жыл бұрын
Happy birthday Diana Lee🎂❗️
@kathiv3992
4 жыл бұрын
Diana Lee ...HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ❣️ May you always know and experience love and fulfilling happiness🙏🏼
@kisten3813
4 жыл бұрын
Happy Birthday!🎂 It was mine too. 🤗
10 seconds in and I just wanted to say I felt already that the 4th was going to be a significant day but I couldn’t put my finger on why. I now know, can’t wait to get into the reading and see what wisdom you pour out and confirmation 🙏🏽✨
It's hard to imagine your readings getting better, but they continue to amaze me! What a PROFOUND effect you have had on my journey! Thank you from the very center of my heart and soul..... ❤️🧬🌈💫🦋🕊✨👑🙏🏼😇❤️🍀🌈💫🧚🏽♀️🦋✨🦄🧬❤️
Thank you for your beautiful channelling! I caught this at 11.11pm right after a deep meditation in the moonlight. Love and light, I’m super excited to be apart of this magnificent energy evolution ❤️❤️❤️
I'm watching and listening to your reading and as usual, you trigger things within me. As you pulled the shadow card and were talking about it, I saw and felt an entourage, no an army, of guides and angels and assistance hovering, just waiting to our love and energy on each of us as well as to assist each of us as much as we allow them to! It was beautiful and their light and their love is so intense, just waiting to serve us. I'm typing through tears so I hope you can read this because the intensity of the love I'm feeling right now is overwhelming in a beautiful way! We are all guided, shielded and deeply, intensely loved, we just have to understand how to receive. That is one of the most magical gifts of awakening. Thank you so much for this message, I hope I made sense lol ;)
Your readings are amazing. I always resonate. I know I have a mission, haven’t figured it out yet, that’s ok though. I’m an Aquarius 💙. Anyhow having breakfast while I listen. Signs everywhere. I wanted to attach a pic, guess I can’t. Thank you so much, Keep Shining
Thank you for your continued uplifting readings and support. It greatly helps us all!
You legitimately just GET ME. I cannot understand nor explain it. Literally it’s just an understanding. I’m absolutely WOW’d by these readings
Wow! Powerful reading! I clicked on at 8:08 today. Now I understand why numbers have been so prominent in my life esp in 2020... so prominent that I write them down😂 Thank you!
Oooh you're a Pisces! Makes so much sense :)
I want to say thank you for helping the light workers. You have been part of my spiritual journey and awakening and I’m soooooo very thankful for you. May you forever be blessed!!!!
Thank You! And Bless You. Amazing. I’m a capricorn. I have been seeing numbers for months. I have been talking to my Angels every day. I’m still being amazed. Yesterday my daughter got a new phone.She was showing it to me and the first thing that came up to me when she put it in front of me was 4:44. Then I seen your 444 Portal video. It made me cry feeling such appreciation. I’m still searching for my life’s purchase. My Akashic record keeper said in the future I will help people ascend. I hope so. Thank you again and Bless you. Jerry
Protected by angles and signs and synchronisities...come in all the readings... I am a Cappie
I’ve been stalked by 44 and 444 for the last few months. LITERALLY stalked. Lol
THANK YOU! THIS IS SO COOL! I've felt so much better since the 4/4 downloads &the 4/7-4/8 WONDERFULNESS!🥰 NAMASTE AND MANY BLESSINGS TO ALL!💜✌🌞🌠🌈🌎
Dee... just. wow. crying. this matches the Starseed reading you gave, along with matching a handful of others of who I am and why I'm here. you really nail everything, and on such an important and deep soul level. I have been aware of the bigger picture my whole life this lifetime but never could understand it fully, esp as a child. I have always known there will be a revolution, always known there was a before, I have memories of some of my past lives, and I’ve always known I am special, powerful, and meant for greatness but I never had confidence or wanted to be "cocky" about it. I have only found self love within this past ten months, both with my physical avatar and with who I am inside & what I bring to this world and to others. I’ve been a healer my whole life, and it's brought me a lot of anger because I’ve always felt like life's punching bag, I just exist to help everyone else grow and then they move forward and find happiness and I'm left alone. I’ve been alone since birth. I have parents & family, but I’ve had to be the one to mentally and emotionally care for my mother and keep the families peace and together even as a toddler. my life has been unfair, extremely heavy, lonely, dark, PAINFUL, difficult. I developed "suicidal ideation" at the age of 5. in one video you said something along the lines of some of us being so empathic that's we just ache and hurt in this world and we "want to go home." and that couldn't have been more from my soul if you tried. I’ve known since I was very young this world is not for me, it's not as mature as me, I have never understood things like racism, sexism, homophobia, hate, etc etc. I recall very vividly ALWAYS having wise, adult thoughts and feelings even at very very young and I didn't always understand them but knew one day I would. or "hoped" one day I would lol. I’ve "known" a lot in my soul but you learn to keep quiet about certain things right. bc if you speak them you'll be called krayz and thrown in a padded room so to speak. I cry in readings like this because I feel validated in the soul where for 33 years I’ve felt alone, wrong, BROKEN. it's absolutely overwhelming in a beautiful way to be validated on a soul level. adults always said to me "you're an old soul" or "you're a wise soul" my whole childhood and young adulthood and I knew they were right then, but I can connect the dots more clearly now. and you are exactly right, I am intuitive, I have psychic abilities, I just would shrug thoughts off as weird or random and then I would see them manifest later on and be like what the heck!? I saw that 6 months ago!! lol. and I’ve actually been trying to learn and sharpen my intuition these past few years. so I'm very thankful for a 3rd eye chakra upgrade that you've mentioned in multiple videos as well as me being able to feel it and see it. I spent the last 4 years in full time counseling, one on one and 10 months of monday-friday outpatient group therapy which was a big life changer for me. every single counselor I’ve ever had, esp in those groups, they all have told me in one way or another how I don't even see what a leader I am, what a healer I am, just how much people really listen when I speak and take note. many of my counselors for groups would ask me to run peer led groups, and in our one on one sessions they would tell me (as much as they could without giving others info away of course) that I am spoken about by the others in their one on ones, that when I'm absent and miss a day the whole place is "where's martha?? has anyone talked to martha??" etc etc. my most recent counselor was an intern and I loved her, but I was compelled to quit counseling a few months back and that was very out of character for me. but I did it finally and I’ve recently been able to see why; counseling saved me and I'm sure I will probably need it again in my life. but the mental health field sometimes can CAUSE anxiety because your soul tells you one thing and then the mental health field says that's "delusions" or "denial" etc etc. and I don't think I would have been able to really start my awakening if I had stayed and been told conflicting information with what I know to be true in my heart. before I quit tho, Casey really said some things that stuck with me. I giggle remembering her facial expression lol but most of the sessions it was just me who talked. I have always been very self aware, I always reflect on why I do or feel a certain way and try to figure out the root to it, and Casey one day at the end part of our session was at a loss for words and was saying "wow. you are so self aware, very mature and wise beyond your years, and martha, you are meant to help a LOT of people. do you understand that?? you have an energy about you that is magnetic and the absolute horrors of your life that you've been through, you will be able to connect to people on such a personal level, you're very special and meant to help MASS amounts of people." and I knew she was right but of course I want to always stay humble lol. I’ve felt that my whole life, just don't know exactly specifically how yet lol. when you say "you may find strangers are just drawn to you and tell you things," YES lol. "the gift of gab" my grandmother use to tell me lol. I have been told I make people feel safe, validated, heard. a friend also once said "I love hugging you martha because you hug with your whole heart" and that really has stuck with me over the years. so this long winded comment is to really just tell you THANK YOU Dee, I wish there were deeper more powerful words than just thank you. you've brought validation to me that I’ve been seeking since childhood. you've made me feel less broken, less wrong, less "krayz." I truly am excited to see where I end up like if I heal through crystal work or idk what. I do believe my comedian ways are meant to be one of my major tools, to help people with laughter. I have always been able to do that and I have a little bigger of a platform of being able to do that on tik.tok. it's truly an honor every single time I get a comment about how I helped someone that was in the hospital bc they were in pain and they thought of me right away and went to my page for an energy boost, or a thank you for helping someone "have a voice" and help express what they couldn't put into words through a video I made. it's a big change to see yourself that way because to yourself you're just you ya know. I know all my failures, my bad decisions, my "broken-ness" but to others they see something totally different and I'm often brought to tears by their kind words. and I just want you to know you have truly saved me these past months of me discovering your page. I feel like you're a personal friend of mine lol, I sometimes feel like we may meet someday in a weird and unexpected way haha. you do these readings and share your beautiful gift FREELY on here to help others and you are truly such a beautiful soul and light and energy. you've truly saved me from so much, including myself, and I'm sure so many feel the same way. so THANK YOU from the absolute depths of my heart and soul for what you do. I really do love you and look up to you and I appreciate you with everything that I am. you are an inspiration and a personal hero of mine. 🖤✨