I spent years being angry at my mother, she could be spiteful, cruel, and did such hurtful things, my youth at times was not full of love, and that anger did not allow me to see the person my mother was. She had been punched, kicked, bullied by my father, and had the courage to walk away from him and us for kids. She was so harshly judged for this and looked down on. My father was the model citizen.. he took care of us for three years and we’d see my mom for French fries at the weekend. When I was twelve her went missing and ten days later he was found drowned. After that life changed mum had run to another man, because she felt she had to, he was a horrid bully to my sister and I and my resentment and anger towards mum grew. My fathers family blamed my mother for his death, and it was only when my uncle passed did I see just how much hate there was against her. It was then I fought against the anger and resentment started to talk to her understand her life, there was so much I didn’t know. I guess what I’m trying to say is nothing is ever perfect and we work at it. When I saw my mom in anger I couldn’t see her, now I understand her more and she has forgiven herself I see more positive stuff. Don’t know why I’m crying writing this but I am. Life is never perfect it can be so painful at times; but the worst of times can bring us hope. When I’m sad I create, I sing make poetry, write songs half way up the stairs; and try to have laughter with friends. Loved this one.... Christmas is coming.... g

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

I was mesmerized by the story of your Mum...and when you said " I couldn't see my Mom through the hate" I felt a light bulb went off. I was so close to my Mom as a child...I was such a fearful child and I clung to her...and then at 5 everything changed and I felt I could not show I loved her because she couldn't protect me. I carried that with me for a long time...but Mom and I worked it out...after I could " really see her"...it wasn't until I found out who my Dad was that I truly understood her life. The story of your Mom and all she endured hurt my heart...and I feel so bad your father robbed you of his love and hers. But you made it....with so much inside to share with the world...through your words, your songs and your magic camera work. You have become a sister to me over the years and I thank you for trying to show me a better way to see the world and reflect it back. Filming this video took so much out of me and I cried editing it over and over...I assumed as women, stories of our Mothers we carry with every step we take and the tears are good..love to you and yours always, Susan

@susanmoore369

3 жыл бұрын

Wow that was touching. At least to me. My mom and I had a strange relationship my whole life. I was the middle child. She loved my sister and brother so much and did work hard my whole life to feel the Love from Her that I saw her give them. My dad though treated her like A queen but then after 24 years of marriage she found another man and left my dad. I resented her even more for years. But after many years she got really bad with her dementia and so for the last 4 years I would travel 8 Hours home to take care of her For a month and my stepdad who was just worn down to almost nothing. I was the only one that stepped up to the plate to help. It’s a long story but I hope you got the just of it. I did what my heart wanted and I know she went to her grave this past June knowing the love I had for her.

@RandomLifeProductions

3 жыл бұрын

Susan Moore that’s all that matters...

@Myover50fashionlife

3 жыл бұрын

So sorry but glad for the peace now Gail. I'm going to have the vaccine so hopefully we can meet up again in 2021.

@yellowstonekv959

3 жыл бұрын

@@susanmoore369 , you have a lot of love in your heart to rise above the hurt and betrayal.

After all these years I never thought I would be looking after my mother. She was strong, independent and loving. She worked hard all her life; always looking after everyone else. 5 years ago Mom came to live with me as her Dementia worsened. I would never allow her to live in a nursing home. Living alone for so many years, I wasn't prepared for the initial difficulty we would have of getting used to each other again. Dementia can be cruel to an aging parent and to their loved ones. But we persevered and I learned to love my Mom again. In the last 3 years, as she declined, we settled into a loving routine. We laugh, we sing, we take daily outings and we take care of each other. Mom turned 90 this year and I will be 70 in April. I wouldn't trade this special time we have together for anything.

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

We laugh, we sing, we take daily outings and we take care of each other......I feel so lucky you are here and shared your story about you and your Mom....you are a wonderful daughter and I admire your strength and compassion for what you have done is no easy task....love finds a way...somehow, someway...love wins....A Very Merry Christmas to you and your Mom...love and hugs from me and Desi...

@GrayPower60

3 жыл бұрын

@@LittlePoet Thank you so much, and a very Merry Christmas to you and Desi. I know I am blessed to have my Mom with me and I love to show her off in my videos. Selfishly, I do this for the memories. LOL

@GrayPower60

3 жыл бұрын

Sorry I know I am getting long winded, but when I watch your videos about your new apartment, it is so calming. I love how you've created a warm and inviting home. You should be very proud of how beautiful everything is. You could be a interior designer!

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

@@GrayPower60 Oh thank you so much...you are so kind...I think I will remember your story forever.

@terrielliott5911

3 жыл бұрын

My Mother came to live with my husband and I when she could no longer live alone due to dementia. Just like you, neither of us could stand the idea of her going to a home. She lived with us for 5 1/2 years and she passed 6 years ago.. There were some good times, and some very hard times, but both of us would make the same decision again if we had it to do over. May God bless you with many more good times with your Mother!

You hit a nerve with this. Brought me to tears. If there is a heaven and I get to see my mom again, my first words to her will be "Mom, I'm sorry.

@kellyvernon6074

3 жыл бұрын

She knows you are are sweetie....she knows.

@yellowstonekv959

3 жыл бұрын

Think about her and tell her now, she will hear you. I talk to my Dad often even though he's been gone 8years now. Sometimes I'll go to the cemetery, sit on the ground and put my hand in the grass as if to hold his hand. It might seem weird to others, but it gives me comfort to know I will see him again.

@sjp4u338

3 жыл бұрын

You will se her again. There is a heaven. 🥰

@heystella143

3 жыл бұрын

Oh this comment made me bawl. That’s exactly how I feel. In 1989 I was 23 and thought the world revolved around me. I called my mom with a silly question.. to this day I don’t know what I was going to say but she couldn’t talk. What? I was angry and said so many things I regret but what I didn’t know was that she was arguing with my step father and he killed her that day. I never got to say I’m sorry or take it back. I do know she knows I didn’t mean it but I’ve carried that shame all these years. 😞

@yellowstonekv959

3 жыл бұрын

@@heystella143 I am so sorry. What a tragic story. I think most of us have regrets. I do for sure. I have asked for forgiveness from my Dad and God for things I said and put my Dad through. They know our heart and that we love them.

I cried at the end of this. My mother sacrificed everything for her family, and when I grew up as a young woman I didnt appreciate her. I really think you do not appreciate your mother until you have children yourself. I wish I could go back and talk to her and explain to her why I was so hateful at times. I miss her at Christmas, she passed away 13 years ago.

Amen to everything that you talked about; life is tough! Because of our faith we have hope & the Lord🙏🏼

What a beautiful tribute to women and moms. I lost my little buddy, mom, 7 years ago. She was 4’9” and adorable. She wasn’t sick, she was tired and laid down for a nap. She didn’t wake up. I was her favorite but so was everyone else. ThankYOU Susan.

I remember the green stamps also. I always helped my mom put them in the books and when I got engaged, she gave me all the books to get things for myself, my husband and our future home. I was so thankful and I remember we spent hours at the "green stamp store" picking out things for our new life!

Dear Susan, I would like to say thank you for including my comment and story in your video, it touched my heart that you thought it was worthy, and that it touched you so When you said you called your son the next day, I just about lost it, I had tears running down my cheeks, even though he didn’t even remember, he will not ever forgot your call to him. Well as I got comfy in bed tonight, to watch your video, I felt my Mom’s presence, I can always tell when she is around me, I almost feel like I got to apologize to her for taking her stamps so many years ago, then I saw your journal with the butterflies on the cover, and I couldn’t believe it, you see when my Mom passed, I asked her when she was near me to show me butterflies, and I’ll then know she is with me, so seeing the butterflies on your journal was my sign, she was right besides me, and she now knows I was sorry for being so insensitive, Your chair with the butterflies always makes me think of my Mom, I once almost bought that chair after she passed, but the pattern and color wouldn’t match.... so thank you Susan so much You just touch my heart every week, your home looks like a winter wonderland, it’s warm, welcoming and cozy, and beautiful, I just adore you 🦋❤️🦋 Thank you again, Love Christine

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

I just adore you Christine and I can't thank you enough for allowing me to share your store...I so hope I did it justice....I am so weepy this week and I truly believe you unlocked a mystery to me....how we grow to be just what you said..."kinder"....A very Merry Christmas...I need to get more tissues tonight! xxoo So glad you are here! Susan & Dez

@christined2495

3 жыл бұрын

@@LittlePoet I’m weepy too, I think 2020 has sucked the life out of us, but as you said in your video, we’re strong, and this too shall pass. I’m always here waiting for your video on Saturday nights, with my rose hip seed oil on my face, gel under my eyes, and my comfy pajamas... I look forward to my Girls Saturday nights with you.... I just think the world of you.... thank you again, and we have a new year to look forward too 2021 will be a better one for us all... xoxo🦋 You absolutely did my little story justice xxoo

@christined2495

3 жыл бұрын

@Bonnie Holman I know it too, without a doubt..... thank you Bonnie 🦋 So sweet of you to take the time to comment to me... xo

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

@@christined2495 ...butterflies....that was so beautiful!

@christined2495

3 жыл бұрын

@@LittlePoet 🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋

If I visited you, I would never want to leave that apartment. It is so magical.

Susan, you have such talent for accessorizing. Why don't you utilize your talent to make a little extra income? Your talent would be a real blessing to others! ❤

My Mom turned 90 in September and despite being a diabetic and balance issues, she is in good health. My Dad passed when I was 19 (I will be 66 in January) and my Mom was 44. I have 3 brothers and two of them were in middle school when my Dad died. My mother had to learn to do so many things she had never done before and raising 2 teenage boys on her own to top it off. We four kids have put her through a lot in these years. There were divorces and just some hard times but she was and continues to be our rock. I admire her so very much. Due to Mom's age and diabetes we are not going to gather together this year. I am blessed that my 3 brothers and I all live in the same city as my Mom but we do not want to take chances with her health. I just hope and pray that she will continue in pretty good health so that next year we can gather. We have never had a Christmas when we were not all together. Reading the comments, my heart goes out to all those who do not have their sweet mommas this year. I know that I am blessed and can only imagine the void y'all must feel always and especially at this time of year. My prayer is that we will all find the joy in the gift of Jesus and that this next year will bring us back to life before this dreadful virus changed things for all of us. My love to Susan and to all you sweet ladies who share here. Y'all bless my heart. By the way, my Mom never remarried after my Dad died. He was the love of her life🙂

@rosaliabernstein1363

3 жыл бұрын

God Bless you and your family this Holiday Season!

I often wonder what life would be like for my mother if she was alive in 2020. She always worried about everything and everyone. In a completely selfish way, I wish she was alive still so I could lean on her during these hard times. I do miss her.

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

I have that same thought Ann...my Mom would have been so upset over this year...and scared...but the funny thing is...she was most upset over little things...the big things, she was a cool cucumber....maybe I got that from her...if I run out of orange juice I almost call 911! I can be a nut but I bet you know that!!!

This made me cry so hard. My beloved 79 year old Mum had a heart attack two months ago and the prognosis was dire. She's proved everyone wrong and she's still here with us. Each day is now precious and nothing is taken for granted. She will be 80 in February. Please make it Mum.

@rosaliabernstein1363

3 жыл бұрын

You sound like a precious daughter. God Bless you & your sweet Mom!

This year is the first year since my mother died 5 years ago that my heart is back into Christmas and all the love of the season. I decorated my home and have found joy in every ornament on my tree. My mom made our Christmas so magical, full of love of family and hope. I miss her every day I think God must have loved me so very much that he gave me her for my mother. She wasn't just my mom she was my best friend. She would be so happy I decorated this year and am embracing the season. Your mom would be too, your home is warm and inviting with the love of Christmas. Just like you are all year long. PS: my mom collected green stamps too, We would go together to the S&S store and pick up her purchases as she filled up her books. I cried when these memories washed over me. Just some of the most precious times I remember about my beautiful mother. Oh I miss her so very much, if I could just see her, touch her I would give her the most loving hug and thank her for all her love threw the years. There will never be anyone in my life that could compare to my mom. I have been truly blessed xo

Boy, do we love you.

I've always loved Christmas. Even tho my mom was a single parent, she did her best. Then when I got married I was lucky he was just as crazy as me. He always did the lights outside & I did up the inside. It was magical. Fate had other plans. I lost my husband on Dec. 3rd & my mom on Dec. 14th. Over the years I have managed to put up a tree & spend time with friends. This year is different, this virus has me scared & angry. I have not put up a tree yet, this morning I said to myself that I would skip it this year. And here you are, you just gave me the kick in the butt to get one. Thank you. There are so many of us you help every week. Sending you & Dez love & peace

Susan you don't need a big fancy house, your apartment is lovely and filled with love. Lol Desi loves squirrels!

Both of my parents are deceased, and everyday I tell myself how glad I am that they did not have to deal with Covid-19. Susan, I love your blouse and earrings! A nonsequitur, I know. :)

@carobinsonrobinson3109

3 жыл бұрын

Rita I lost my beautiful mom 3 years ago and I was thinking the same thing, I'm so greatful that she is not hear now during covid, and that I and my husband was right there with her holding her when she past, that would not be now a days. So many have died all alone, God bless them all🙏🙏🙏

@ritaromney584

3 жыл бұрын

@@carobinsonrobinson3109 I know! It's tragic! I am glad you had the opportunity to be there and hold your mom's hand when she passed.

@germaineprien7691

3 жыл бұрын

I think that too!!!

Your home looks so beautiful and cozy!!!

Life happens and stuns us.Women like you give us hope for recovery❤️

We see how strong our mothers had to be.

I could have watched for much longer. Everything is so beautiful. You really know how to create a warm holiday home. So many heart stories. That little hat for Desi is adorable. My mom is 92 and is in her home. So, I'm lucky that I can visit in these times. I know the reality that one of these days I'll go there and she wont be there anymore. But she'll be in heaven celebrating with her relatives. I know she will be free of an old body that is failing and be truly alive again surrounded by love.❤❤❤🤗🤗🤗

The music that you play with your vignettes is perfect.

We choose to be Better,!!instead of Bitter, its the best, God will see us through,💄😊🎅🎅🎅lots love to you all there,from ireland

My own dear mother would have loved you and appreciated your style, design and photography. She was such a 1940’s glamour girl, loving the movie stars of her day. She was also a war bride from England and loved to keep her home in quaint English country style. Life wasn’t always easy for her, but she had tremendous faith in a better tomorrow. She passed away in 2007 and I miss her everyday. I am much like her in many ways and there is not a day that goes by that I don’t get dressed, put my makeup on and fix my hair even if I’m going nowhere, because that is one of the beautiful things that I learned from her. I went to the thrift store the other day because of you 😊 That was something my mother always liked to do too. I found an older framed picture of a beautiful winter worn tree, that had the best advice on life that I’ve come across in some time. It seemed appropriate as we come to the closing of this year, so I bought it and will hang it and enjoy it as a present to myself. Life is still good, and with a thankful, expectant heart, I can go into the new year with the comforting beauty of hope. Thank you for being you♥️

@ruthbuckler4433

3 жыл бұрын

What was the best advice on the picture of the tree?

My beautiful mommy passed away November 16th. She was home with me since September 11. She had a brain bleed and stroke. When she fell from the stroke, she fractured her vertebrae in 3 places. She was sent home to me on hospice. I’ve cried every day since she passed. I miss her more than I can express. She was my best friend. We spent every weekend together and called each other 5-7 times a day. We solved world problems together. I don’t know how to get back to a normal routine because she was my normal. I pray this pain fades soon. I’m glad she’s no longer in pain, I just miss her badly. The holidays feel sad without her.

@BlingyBea

3 жыл бұрын

❤️🙏🏻

Oh what a lovely video. This my first Christmas without my Mother, she really loved decorating the tree and whole house...even hung beautiful ornaments from every doorknob in the house. Trees oh my, she had a tree decorated in every room....did I say she loved Christmas. She died in February, as I held her hand I told her this year you will be spending Christmas with Daddy she had the most beautiful smile. When I was decorating my tree this week boy it was a bitter sweet chore...but yet I remember with joy the memories she left my brothers and me. Life has a way of shaking us as if to say " wake up...you have time, a life to be part of ...so get going." I try to live my life with thoughtfulness, and just like my Mom I fix my face everyday and hair even if I have no where to go. Being here and now is the most important thing in this crazy beautiful world we live in. Susan , thank you again 🤗 oh please kiss Desi for me.

You make my night. I tear up listening. I missed my mom. Such a beautiful soul. I tried every day to be like her. She taught me Not to be bitter even when others hurt me, to be peaceful, kind and caring. And to love my fellow man as I go on each. She’s with the Lord, and I hope to see her again. She was loved and she knew. She didn’t have a lot, because she was always sick, but she gave to me and put herself last. And to this day I’m grateful of how she brought me up to be humble, work hard and be content in whatever the good Lord give unto me. Sometimes life throw things at you, things undeserved. Then again Jesus knows. The good Lord has been so good to me, it’s more than tongue can tell. Rip mama. I love you. ❤️🙏🏿

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

Yuo make me tear up too!!! Your Mother sounds like an angel!

@prudencecampbell3075

3 жыл бұрын

@@LittlePoet after 30 yrs of being with the Lord , she’s still talked about, for the kindness and love, her peaceful habit and all the good traits that God gave her. Thanks little poet. I will be forever grateful if your channel it wakes me up and encourages me everyday.

Thank God, I’m one of the fortunate ones to have my mother still with me. I’m thankful and grateful and I pray every day for many more years🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💕 praying for better 2021🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💕

Your home is beautiful! I miss my mom everyday I lost her in 1998. I talk to her all the time.

@lynnlavy2992

3 жыл бұрын

I lost my mother in 1998 also. She was the only love I have ever know.

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

I talk to my Mom too...:) it helps...:) xxoo Merry Christmas to you and yours, Sues & Desi

@bettyrichards9182

3 жыл бұрын

I lost my mom in 1998 also.

@sandrasmith5943

3 жыл бұрын

I talk to my dear Mum and Dad every day. I ask them advice and I know the answers. It helps me x

@lisafairclough8122

2 жыл бұрын

Me too,I lostmine in 1990 x

Hi from Australia 🇦🇺. You are so beautiful inside and out - your home reflects that ❤️. Have a beautiful festive season 🎄🧑‍🎄

My mom was difficult and Christmas could be hard a when I was an adult, because it was all about bitterness and criticism, but when I was little she made them fun. I looked at home movies of when my kids were little and I see me trying to make things jolly with a stomach ache. lol Oh the things families do to us. Your home looks just beautiful!!! Much love, Melissa

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

Oh Melissa...your words have always stuck with me when it comes to your Mom...I was so hoping next year if you have time we could do a video together about growing up and how it shaped us...the good and the bad. I feel I could write a novel about your Mom....so unique...she was so lucky to have such a wonderful daughter like you but so complex, if I may say that. I think talking about things like this are so important....I hope you and yours are having a good safe holiday...lots of hope for the future.

@carola3046

3 жыл бұрын

Melissa, I’m sorry. You’re words broke my heart. I feel so fragile these days and your words so touched me. I just wish and pray all the time that everyone is happy and has peace. Bless you

My brother wrote a great little poem. The name of it is 'The Greatest Artist Ever' is mama in her kitchen.

I’m 75. Last night I dreamed of my mother. 🎄🌺

I like Desi's hat. He is the cutest little dog. And your Christmas tree and decorations are beautiful. xoxo

Susan, why do I feel as though every time I watch you I’m tuning into my own personal counselling session with my favourite therapist. I love your openness but most of all your heart that is full of grace and love for others. Continue to be strong and full of courage in these times and know that you are loved by so many here. Love your stories and you are stronger than you know truly you are. Luv ya!~

One of the things I do to keep myself upbeat is to appreciate the little things. When I hear a big squawk go up as a huge bunch of geese flyover my building, I smile and I picture them in their shapes and how beautiful they look against the sky. There is a meme I post pretty regularly on Facebook. It is a picture of a bus. On the left side of the bus, there is a very miserable man and the view out his bus window is dark and Rocky. On the right side of the bus, there is a lady who is smiling bright and looking out the window with hope. And her view is blue sky and sunshine. The caption says something like every morning you get up and you make a decision...which side will you choose today? And finally, there is gratitude. There is nothing that can change my attitude faster than thinking about all the things I have been blessed within my life. There's a saying I read once--you can't appreciate the new things that come to you until you are grateful for the things you already have. ❤

@kikit6846

3 жыл бұрын

AMEN & AMEN ! ! ! 💜

Perhaps the universe is telling you to have a little shop. You have the gift and it would brong joy to so many. What a delightful person you are. 💖🌹

Thank you so much for your beautiful video which was so comforting and touched my heart deeply. Today is the 20th Anniversary of my momma's passing to heaven when she was only 64. When I look at her picture it's like no time has passed yet it seems forever because I miss her so much. She was a selfless woman who put everyone's needs before her own. She had a very difficult marriage to my father, who was a 'secret alchoholic', but yet she never lost her joy in life and would always encourage my two sisters and I (the middle sister) to never give up and to always persevere and ask God for guidance in every situation. She thought me to love flowers & gardens. I can still here her voice saying when I was going thru a difficult time..."don't just sit there, get up and do something, it will make you feel so much better"...and the echo of her voice still rings in my heart today with my upcoming 63rd bithday this month...thinking how young she was to have passed away at 64 but so thankful for all she taught me. :)

Love this Susan. My mom and I went every Monday to go to craft stores or something fun. I worked full time as a single mom and only had mondays off. I loved my mondays with her, but she was getting older and it was getting a little harder to hang out with her. She would complained a lot, less patient with life happenings. When I dropped her off at home on those mondays, she would always asked me if I wanted to come in for coffee. She was living alone and I know she was lonely, but after a day having fun with her, but also listening to her frustrations of life, I was worn out. I always declined. ...Now I I would give anything have coffee with her. She's been gone so long.

Yes women ARE the ones that make all an Everything so right..for everyone💕🌈🎶😘🙏🏽🕊

This video broke my heart and brought me to sobbing at the end., I miss my mom.

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

Oh please don't cry....I am so sorry you lost your Mom...but even death doesn't stop all that love :) Merry Christmas to you and yours, Sues & Desi

@lmccauley7319

3 жыл бұрын

@@LittlePoet It's ok. I've been holding it in for a very long time so it was probably good to release it. And I love you and Desi and it hurts my heart that you have to be alone for Christmas. This year is so hard. Thankfully they are getting the vaccine soon and things will be better in 2021 I pray. God bless everyone on here and I wish everyone good health and peace this Christmas. xoxo

My Mom passed this past Wednesday. She was 97. I am unable to get to the funeral due to covid related issues. The “green stamps” brought back so many memories. I knew the end was near when she stopped using lipstick and brow pencil. Tears flowing freely here...What lovely work you do!

Susan your apartment is just beautiful. You have an eye for fashion in clothes and home decor. So sweet.

My dear I personally appreciate all your videos because they are down to earth. Life is not living in a "happily ever after" we fall and stumble and we get up and shake ourselves off and courageously we continue. My mama became a widow at the age of 37 an she was left with 7 kids the eldest being 17 and the youngest being 2 (which was me). Her faith and courage was amazing. Now that I am 57 years old I think about her and say WOW what a strong woman she was. Her faith and courage keeps me going. My mama never remarried she raised us with a strong hand which I hated as a young teenager but so appreciate it now. I am strong because of her, I fall shake off and continue to carry my cross as she taught me. Xoxo have a blessed week.

This whole video was a pleasure to watch throughout, brought tears to my eyes with memories of my own Mom who I miss dearly. It's been almost 19 years without her and still think of her daily 💞🌹

Thanks Susan for another great video. It seems you're the only You Tuber that makes me cry and laugh in the same video and I come back for it every week You really touch my heart. Sending love from the island of Crete.

Your Christmas decorations are beautiful just like the rest of your home. Love the sentiments you expressed, you are a very thoughtful lady.

My Mom has been gone 14 years and I miss her more than I ever thought I would. I know I disappointed her and hurt her feelings many times in hindsight. I am wiser now and wish I could go back and say I am sorry and love her so much. All I can do now is move forward and try to do better and remember her fondly. She loved Christmas .

Your home is so lovely. The Christmas coat story made me cry....Walking, photographing critters and coloring makes me happy. May God Bless You this Christmas Susan. I love you.

I’m sitting here in awe of your beautiful and touching video. I lost my mother to cancer 18 years ago. We were very close, and not a day goes by that I don’t miss her. She loved Christmas, and collected snow globes. Your home is so beautiful, and your so special. Thank you for sharing, Susan!❤️

I lost my mother when I was 14...I am 50 now....I struggle to remember things. That is why I try to make great memories for my kids.

What a vlog. So deep so sincere . Theres nothing like a mothers love. Im in tears

Merry Christmas Susan, Desi you are very handsome. Thank you both for letting us into your lives for even a short time. Music soothes me, I would be so sad without music.

Just love how you bring everything back to life again....including yourself and Desi....pure love remastered. ❤🎄❤🎄❤🎄

Walking most days in my beautiful greenbelt with all of nature to meditate with while I stroll along keeps me sane. Epecially in these COVID lockdown days.... They are my salvation , my self reflection, my fullfillment of breathing fully of the fresh air and freedom of movement I need.I walked before COVID and I will walk after COVID. :)

🎼🎵🎶Reach out and touch somebody's hand, make this world a better place if you can🎶🎵🎼 I read once that joy is like a hardy plant that can survive under the harshest conditions. Thats why I adore the lotus plant so much. Out of the mire, beauty can bloom. It doesn't mean with are gleeful 24/7 but we find reasons to smile no matter the circumstances. It's a mindset Susan. Joy is a fruit of Gods spirit and when I tap into him and scripture I find my joy and peace. It's what holds and comfort me🌷💕

Your home is so cozy and beautiful! Thanks for sharing your stories and those of your followers. Take care.🥰

Desi is so darn cute with his Santa hat and bowtie.Also his little smile with his teeth.He is so precious.Im so glad you have him

It helps to know that other people are experiencing the same things that I am.

Oh how I cried listening to this. My Mom gone has been gone 15 years and I remember how many times I was thoughtless and unkind. I also remember precious times spent with her. I miss her every single day. I am 61 and this year I lost my dear brother to a sudden and unexpected heart attack in June and a dear friend to breast cancer in October. Some days I feel so sad that I wonder what it’s all for and then I see a video like this and I am encouraged. I know I’m not alone in the sadness and oppression of this year. Thank you for the encouragement for all of us when we feel sad, old, forgotten or overlooked. Sending love from Sisters, Oregon

@christined2495

3 жыл бұрын

Prudence, I just read your comment, I just want to say I’m sorry for the losses your brother and friend. I lost my Dad in January, he just never got over my moms passing, they were married 69 years when she passed. So this is a hard Christmas, I know how you feel.... at least were all here for each other, and Susan she is a special soul, I believe she is a angel on earth, her words bring us comfort, and hope each week.Take care and know I will say a prayer for you, your brother and friend tonight 🙏🙏🙏

@prudencelay6067

3 жыл бұрын

@@christined2495 thank you so very much. So much heartache in so many places. Thank you for the prayers. That means a lot to me. 😘

@BlingyBea

3 жыл бұрын

Prudence I’m so sorry for your losses, bless you.🙏🏻❤️

See our mothers 👩❤with adult eyes...perfectly said. Thats gonna stick with me. Thank you Susan. In certain situations I find myself asking, "what would mom do or say?" I'm so glad you made this video. Your home looks like a Christmas card, so cozy and inviting.

I need a box of Kleenex right now. Very touching stories and I lost my Mom a couple of years ago but really longer because of dementia. Your decorations are really beautiful and your home is so welcoming. The music was so lovely and I’m just a blubbering mess right now. 🎄🎁❤️

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

Merry Christmas to you sweetie!!!! I have been crying all week!! I am not sad..just emotional!!! , Sues & Desi

I don’t have very many memories with my mom she gave me to my grandmother when I was three days old more memories with my grandmother😔

@gwenewing6837

3 жыл бұрын

Your grandmother is your mom❤

Oh how I look forward to your videos. Your home looks so festive right now. Since I live in Michigan and am 76 years old, I try to be very careful around people and am avoiding stores this year. So, last week Archie (my 3 year old Westie) and I put on a Hallmark movie and decorated the Christmas tree. When we finished we cleaned up and snuggled into the big chair where I read to him all the wonderful stories of Christmas. He seemed to understand that he was substituting for some small child in my family who I won't be able to read to this year. I'm also sending homemade goodies to all who I won't be able to see. We drive around and put surprises in mailboxes. I think of all your viewers as a family and I wish you the very happiest holiday possible this year. Stay safe, stay strong, and believe that magic happens all around us.

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

A Very Merry Christmas Holly!!! I wish I could be there with you and Archie for some hot chocolate and a story!!! Please know I am in spirit...this Christmas I feel wistful but so grateful for this opportunity to perhaps re-set my priorities a bit. Love you!!! Hugs from me and Desi!

Susan, you have such a wonderful format for your videos!! I love the way you video, then talk and back to video. I've not seen this with any other of my KZread friends. I make gifts for Christmas. I collect Christmas mugs and December 1, I wash them and put 2 packs of cocoa and 2 candy canes in them and l ut each In a Christmas bag to give to the homeless or maybe someone who looks like they need a boost . Today I ran to the store in and out. I was waiting for a parking space and another car pulled in then disappeared. He had pulled thru so I could park too. I knocked on his window and gave him one of the mugs, he was surprised! It was a nice gesture; He didn't have to pull thru so I could park but he did. He said that isn't necessary, I said it is!! I lost my dad 6 years ago Christmas day so the holidays are hard, but Christmas was daddy's time of year; he was Santa from before I was born. I am truly Santa's daughter!! I have friends who knew daddy and that's how they always introduce me, as Santa's daughter !! Lol God bless, I look forward to your videos! Your home is lovely

Your apartment looks lovely and Desi with the Santa hat was the icing on the cake. Beautiful video, thank you.

Dear Susan, thank you for another week and for the beautiful tour of your home. We women are the keepers of the holidays and holy days and the makers of holiday traditions. We also never outgrow the need for our moms. This year has been the hardest one for me without her. I lost my last great uncle and my favorite cousin and Maybe that’s also why it’s so hard this year. You asked what we do to cheer ourselves up. I make tea. I sip it out of a treasured cup and I remember. I want you to know that I so look forward to your weekly videos! Savor them, often with tea.

I officially nominate Desi for being You Tube's Cutest, Most Precious Doggie! I want a "Desi" for myself so terribly. but I could not walk It. I too cry when I read everyone of your comments. Do you realize just how many comments you receive each week? You touch our hearts and bring memories flooding back and we just feel that we have to share a little of our stories, too. Thank you for reading each one! You picked some of my Fav's from last week, too. Back when I was a Freshman in college, my mother came up to spend a weekend with me. She came into my dorm room and met all my friends but after everyone left, I was so mad with her for wearing an outfit that I thought was cheap looking. (And we loved shopping together and I THOUGHT she would wear something marvelous, as she had in her closets.) So I told her to go back to the Hotel and I didn't want to see her or do anything with her. No dinner out that night, until in the middle of the night, I was HURTING SO BADLY INSIDE MY HEART for doing such a rotten horrible thing to her. So I called her, in middle of the night, to apologize, and we started all over again the following morning doing what we should have been doing, in the first place, having fun and staying in the hotel with my mom! I tried all weekend to make it up to her, but I know I hurt her feelings SO TERRIBLY! To this day, my heart hurts when I think about what I did. She is gone so I can never tell her just how sorry I am for treating her so Awfully, a Real Stinker! I have to make myself bury this bad memory down deep so I don't continue thinking about it. I know God and Mom forgave me, but I can't forgive myself. But I will get better at it and move on, but it has been a long time! My precious Mother. How could I be so cruel? I went on with life, but after 10 years of marriage, I left my husband. Biggest regret of my life. I naturally never would have left my two little babies, as I was taking them with me. Little did I know, but He was so furious with Me, that he fought for custody and WON! Hence, my 31 years of living with Severe PTSD. I have tried Everything and the pain will not go away. It has hurt my Health, as well. Now, I am alone, (turned down several marriage proposals.) and Disabled, and have too much time to lie here and think. It is very difficult each day and night trying to suppress these God Awful thoughts and feelings. I know God forgave me. This I am positive of. But HOW can such a LOVING God do this to me? All because I had never worked and had no way to pay for care of the boys while I worked. HE won because of his priviledged life, huge family and Businesses. When I heard the Verdict from my lawyer, I went into my apartments closet and closed the door. After dark, my Precious Mother, who was with me, came and gently pulled me out and put me to bed. I have been on meds ever since! I must take 8 differing meds to get me to sleep at night, otherwise my eyes pop open and I immediately think of losing my babies. No Mother should EVER have to go through this. Never. I'm sure everyone can agree on this. Susan, Thank you for giving me a special place to bring and share my most painful thoughts to. May God continue blessing you with so many more subscribers!!!!! This is what I pray for you each week. I'm thankful we all have YOU! So Thank you, God, for giving us Susan and my little precious doggie, Desi. Thank you God, for Desi's new home where he can run and scamper through the larger space, and especially for him to look out on his balcony which he loves to run in and out of! Susan, sorry so long. But I felt a heavy hand and let God do the writing of this for me! Til Next week! We love You Two!!!!!

What a beautiful video, Susan. Like so many of us, I have more than a few memories of saving up those greenstamps with my mom and poring over the little catalog with her to see what we could save for. And Christmas was always our favorite holiday,...so magical!!! I was the only girl, so we shared that bond. Things have changed about Christmas for me now, unfortunately. It seems as though it's about loss and grief...it's been a terrible coincidence that throughout my life, when I've lost someone I love, It's always around the holidays. My father, who I adored, died some years ago on Dec. 4th, 3 days before my birthday which is tomorrow. I lost a baby girl a year after that in late November. My beloved son took his own life 2 years ago a month after Christmas. And this year my mama died just 2 weeks ago. I can't seem to revive the love that my mother and I had for this season. I'm afraid it may be gone for good. Hopefully next year it will be somewhat easier In any case, thank you so much for these gorgeous videos. I can lose myself in the magic and the beauty in them, and go back to a time when all was well with our family. Again, thank you!

My mom passed two years ago this month. She left us fighting for she was a strong independent women though God had other plans for her to come home. She said it is his will after all and made her peace and was ready . She taught me culture, history the arts and gardening. I planted the last of my spring bulbs yesterday thinking of her and the thousands of bulbs she planted at her farmhouse over so many years. Like her I will smile w anticipation of seeing them come spring. This ritual keeps my spirits up on these long winter days in western pa. How I long for our spring walks in her beautiful gardens. Perhaps she is walking along side of me now looking at my gardens w a smile and proud of her daughters love of nature too. ❤️

I am trying to put together all my pictures from 1965 forward, staying in touch with musicians I love so much, taking myself out for hot chocolate every night and going looking for lights in the neighborhood, reading favorite authors, yoga and lots of walking and working out are on the list for my shut down weeks. Happy Holidays and thank you for sharing.

Susan...I really do appreciate that your channel is a place where people can get real and still feel safe. As you and your contributors point out, we change as we grow older...and it can be scarey. The green stamp stories is one many of us remember our Mom's saved for. I think my Mom got a set of Malmac dishes with it. She was very creative. I miss her. Thank you for creating a safe place for women as we grow older...maybe men too, whatever we all struggle with, you nailed it with the idea of staying relevent. That comment would only spring from the reality of a youth obsessed culture who does not see the value or understand the reservoir of sage wisdom that comes with having lived for a very long time... for that, I'm so thankful.

I miss my mom so much....lost her at 13 yrs old and each year I miss her hard at Christmas. She loved green stamps too.

Thank you for sharing the wonderful comments. What a lovely family your subscribers are. I am so pleased to be a part of it. I am grateful for my life every day and know that when we see anyone who is struggling that there but for the grace of God go I. We should always have compassion for those less fortunate. I've had my tough times like everyone else. I nursed my wonderful mom until she died and asked my stepfather to live with us. Two years later I did the same for him. It was a privilege to be able to help them on their journey. Love and best wishes to you all xxx

I think it’s wonderful that you remember some people that are struggling. It’s so heartwarming. I think you’re such a blessing to your listeners.

Sweet little Desi in his Christmas hat really didn’t know what to make of his porch pals!

I really miss my Mom! I'm still in the "every time I think of her I cry stage". I'm so glad you talk about your Mom. It's really comforting to me. Sometimes I feel like losing Mom is like losing life's guide. A special friend who knew all my secrets, joys and disappointments. I feel so lost without her. Thank you Susan for your very special videos. 💕

The tour was lovely. I’m working on projects to make my house prettier. A couple of epic fails...but some have turned out!

Hpw I keep my self up and in good mood: I have my stereo on with beautiful Christmas songs, a lot of candles, and good books to read. But most of all, I´m longing for go to my work on the Covid ward at the hospital to say "Good morning!" to my patients, caring them, so they can come home for Christmas.

Just a Beautiful Beautiful channel. ❤️

Susan, what a beautiful home! I love your decor, and it looks so good on camera, lol. Beautiful video; thank you. Stay warm and cozy!

This 55 year old man just stumbled upon your channel and I am feeling tugs at my heartstrings while I reflect on my own life and parents. My parents were high school classmates. It was 1965, mom was 16 and dad 17 years old when they accidentally got pregnant with me. They say there was no question about getting married and having a family. Their life was difficult, low wage jobs...multiple jobs at a time. Eventually, with some parental assistance they afforded a little house. I was most often embarrassed about their jobs in retail, route delivery, house cleaning......whatever odd jobs they could pick up to make cash. Our little house was neat and tidy but never the show places I always believed my friends lived in. And there were some years where my demands on them were downright obscene (and shameful). It wasn’t until I was a husband, a parent, with a mortgage and a career that I realized just how much they sacrificed, as kids, to make a family and provide whatever life they could. My mom battled cancer, which ravaged her body, but died on her terms after stopping treatments. Then my dad died 6 months later on Mother’s Day. They were only in their mid 60’s. When I was bathing my mom, a couple days before she passed, she let me know that she was proud of me as a husband and father and she had not one regret. Even though I never shouted it from the rooftops, I hope they saw in my actions how much I loved them both and appreciated them for their sacrifices. It’s been about 6 years since their deaths and I wish I had one more day, heck, one more hour to love on them again.

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

How beautiful to tell me this...you are a wonderful man....xxoo Susan

We can`t always pretend to be upbeat, when there are so many out there that are hurting and in need. We all need to be reminded of this from time to time. I`m blessed to have my four sons and their families living near, not to mention the grand-dogs, who also come to visit. My cup runneth over.

Thank you...This was a gift. Been missing my Mom. I was adopted and as an adult I realized just how much my parents did for me. Fortunately I was able to say all my “I’m Sorries” before they passed but I never said thank you for all they taught me. I’m sure they knew by my actions and how I turned out. This was a wonderful reminder of what parents mean to us. I wasn’t so lucky with birth parents but won with my 2nd set.

Reading those classic stories and poems to your grandchildren will be a joyful memory that they will cherish for the rest of their lives. I did that with my kids when they were little and they have the happiest memories. In this day and age, children are not exposed to beautiful literature and poetry anymore. But YOU can enrich them.

Susan, the way you do these videos, it is hard not to cry. Your home looks absolutely beautiful, it should be in a magazine. No one could decorate for Christmas better than you have. I love Desi in his hat; I wonder what he thinks of those squirrels on his porch? What do I do at Christmas to keep my spirits up? Get special gifts for people I care about. This will be the first Christmas in 40 years that my daughter isn't here with us to celebrate. Luckily, she and my four year old grandson were able to visit one weekend last month. When they were here, I got a small artificial pre-lit tree and pulled out a box of handmade ornaments, small ones, made by the children my mother oversaw when she was the Director of Special Services for a large township in NJ. I let Gabriel choose each ornament to place on the little tree, because he won't be here for Santa and the big tree this month. As I looked at each of those homey and homely, home made ornaments, I thought of all the children that loved my mother, whom she had helped. They were largely those with various challenges, some physical, others emotional or mental. She was such a gifted human being. That tree connects me to her in a way that surprised me. It will be our only tree this year. Love you both, Susan. 👩🏻💖

My mother left the family when I was 10yrs old, so Dad was my everything, raising two young kids in the 70's. At 62, I am suffering from parental alienation from both my adult sons, so only have my friends, my dog and home. Holidays are the worst time for me emotionally, so try to plan get togethers with friends and be very grateful for the blessings I have. I have turned to prayer and friends - that's all I have and it's getting me through. Thank you for opening your beautiful home and being such an inspiration.

@LittlePoet

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for being here...I am so sorry about your Mom...life can be so hard...I am sending you love and hugs and hope your days are filled with peace...xxoo Susan & Desi

@yellowstonekv959

3 жыл бұрын

@@LittlePoet , thank you Susan, for your thoughtful note. You have been an online friend to many even though you cannot see us. Your warmth and love pours out of your videos into our senses by your words, kindness and beauty of your heart. 💐

@dannagordon9618

3 жыл бұрын

I, Too, experience one son FULL PA, the other Son is much better to me. Bet if you and I could give them very expensive material things...bet they would be better to us! I can't think of one thing in the world I ever did for this one son to completely cut me out of his life. No communication At All, but he does go in half with his brother to help me Greatly with Finances. Last Christmas, a new car! So, I don't know if it's his guilty conscience or what the problem is. and...naturally no contact with grandchild at all. Could be his wife and her Mother. They both are extremely hurtful souls. They do not accept Jesus, so I think this is a huge part. And since 31 years of living alone...I surely could use them in my life. I almost forget them sometimes, even tho they live 7 miles from me! And he won't tell his brother WHY he has cut me out. We will never know why. All we can do is pray for them. I leave gifts year round on their doorsteps and quietly leave. Never get a Thank You. Not a word. I am so glad you posted. It is so much better knowing that I am not alone!!! And...I was the most loving Mother you could ever imagine. I mean CRAZY in love with them. I put them first in everything I did. Even not marrying so they would t have to live with a stepdad! (Had many many proposals). Now, That was putting them FIRST!!! I hugged and loved them physically til they got too old for mushy stuff! I would just hold them every chance i got just to hug them and let them know just how precious they were to me. I would and still do tell one son just how gorgeous and handsome he is!!! I will be thinking of you and you will be forever in my prayers now!!!!!!! You are very lucky to have your dog! Yes, holidays are horrendous for me!

@yellowstonekv959

3 жыл бұрын

@@dannagordon9618 , thank you for your kind words. Parental alienation has unfortunately become a more common occurrence with young ppl today. Many times it's from divorce and one parent with the most money wins. Kids will usually gravitate to the easy route and when their dad offers them money and paid cell phone, doesn't make them earn their money, bad mouths me, etc., they went to him. It was their dad's brainwashing at a young age and broke our bond. They do not know God, even though I pray that He watches over them. I have no grandchildren to my knowledge. They both live with the ex 40 min. away both in their 30's. Between my mother, sons and ex? Shake my head. Wth did we do to deserve this. I can see you were a great Mom too. TY for your prayers. We all need to stay strong xoxo, Rose.

@BlingyBea

3 жыл бұрын

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Oh Susan, it has been such a hard year. For all of us. But every week you comfort me and so many others. My mom was my best friend. I talked her pretty close to everyday of my life. She passed suddenly Dec 19th 2006. I wasn’t ready. At all. I miss her so.

Over the last 5 years it hasn't been easy, but now I find myself in a much better place and one of the things that brings me the greatest joy is my garden. For the first time ever I have grown tomatoes, bell peppers, spring onions, herbs and I have finally had success with my Kumquat tree. The joy of seeing flowers turn to fruit is amazing.

Thank you, Susan, for being real as you touch us with your profound truth. Grew up in a family where the truth was hidden to keep up appearances. We didn't discuss our difficulties growing up and never confronted the realities of disagreements, life and death. So happy that you bring a safe environment for us to admit our frailties. Sending love this holiday season to you and your viewers.

That was the most heartfelt beautiful xmas video ive ever seen. Truly inspirational....keep up your excellent work. god bless you, Tami from California

You have a precious heart. Everyone experiences brokenness in this fallen world. Thank you for being willing to talk about hurt, struggle and the beauty in brokenness.

Thank you, you always make things look and feel better for a moment, sickness will make family and friends abandon you, sad but true, the big C word, so I found solace in you tube crafters and friends, God bless them all

@odetterenee8724

3 жыл бұрын

Susan Johnson...sending you a big hug, take care. ❤

Your videos are simply the BEST! Desi is a golden gem--you are a lucky doggie Mom!! Happy Holidays!

Love Desi’s Christmas hat Hugs and kisses to this Angel.

Uplifting: Remember GRATITUDE. Every time I start complaining I STOP and remind myself to be grateful. I remember to be grateful that I live in this flawed, but magnificent, country. And here's a simple fix for the blues. WE are blessed with modern plumbing. Think about the vast majority or people who live (and who ever lived on this planet) who do NOT have it. Every time I turn the hot water on and step into the shower I thank God for such a beautiful luxury as a hot shower with clean safe water, all available at the turn of a dial! King and queens of past times never had such a miraculous convenience! A little international travel will teach anyone the value of both of these things.

What a inspiration you are. I'm 71 and my husband of 40 years passed away July 25th. This will be my first Christmas alone.

Sussie everything is so festive and beautiful, thank you for all you do for us we love you. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!! Hugs!!!

Continue to be you-your tender, unique, compassionate, real self. These qualities are what resonates with all of us! I look forward to seeing you as you gently remind us all to be aware of how we as women can uplift, encourage and support one another as we go about our daily lives😊💕